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Monday, June 27, 2005 @ 5:52 PM
First Day of School.. Today 1st day of sch. Started real bad. In the morning, got a bad stomachache. Sigh. At first it’s just like pain pain lor, who cares kind. Then go form teacher class, becomes worse. Then went to hall, about 2nd hour, pain was unbearable. Can’t stand it. I kept like bending over, trying to hold onto my stomach. It was the most painful stomachache I had thus far in my whole life. Sigh. And P and VP kept talking, I had no chance of asking if I could go to the toilet. Too weak to summon my strength to stand up anyway. Actually, the talk like kinda impt, supp to motivate us or rather make us weary of wad’s ahead of us and how we should adjust to things. But then I really couldn’t hear a single word. Beginning Mrs ouyang that time still ok, it’s pain, but I can tolerate it. But when VP took over, things got worse and worse and I can’t even sit up at all. It’s like the pain accumulating up lidat. Usually, the pain comes and go, but even when it’s not the peak, it still hurts a lot. Wonder wad I ate wrongly. So finish talking, and I rushed to toilet. Scared spent too much time there. At the hall, I really whole body sweat until like soaked up and my whole face paled out. Sigh. Ok la, so at the talk, I did managed to catch a bit here and there la, just for VP speech, din look up at the screen or here. Kept grabbing CC’s shoe. Heard our class one of the top 3 class. With 4V leading. 4E actually supp to be the top 2 class along with our class de ( according to some teachers ), but unfortunately, dunno wad happened la, maybe they felt 4E nv do well enough? But P and VP kept attacking 4U, 4N, 4I. Dotz lor. Haha. Not that they are wrong la in trying to make them wake up, but I mean they are after all humans, got emotions. Keep saying them lidat very demoralizing de lor. Must make them realize it’s time to wake up though impt, but they really say until like discriminating them lidat. Then they got to go for this whole day camp kinda thing for 3 long days. Actually if wan, can all go de ma, lidat make them feel very left out de lor. And the issue here is very sensitive cause it’s like Triple Science and Double Humanities split. -_-“ Heard Wilson’s name too. Haha. He is personally one of the person I really admire a lot. His leadership skills, his friendly personality and his smart brains and upright integrity. Was our ex-president for council. Then top the level too. Rather say he was born with all these, I think he really tried hard to change. The impression I had of Wilson when he in sec 2 was that he quite shy shy kind. Then he evolved. Grew out of his shell and displayed all his potential. Really just wow. Another person I admire also ex-temasekian. Now doing well in his science. I think he’s a science prodigy siah. Then brr lor, today timetable make me miss 2 TWO periods of CHEMISTRY!!!! Argh.. BRRRRR.. Oh ya, thank Hui Yan for her nice nice keychain. Haha. Heard will glow in the dark. Hee hee. Try out tonight.. Sunday, June 26, 2005 @ 12:02 PM
An eventful saturday.. Yest accompanied CC to open plaza to watch this xin yao jie semifinals. Actually her main motive is to catch jones performing. Haha. I think contestant quite ok, they sang well, songs quite original, just that some too loud, some too soft, some no tune.. but got one I like a lot. Haha.. Then Jones came, then cc rushed to the front, then I like so paiseh lor. Cause everyone all behind then only like 10 rushed to the front. And I happened to be one of them. Then they all so enthu screaming and shouting away, taking photo etc. Then I just stood there like a fool.. haha.. but I did record down his songs live. In secret of course, my handphone was in my pouch and no one knew I was recording.. lol.. cause very paiseh ma.. After that and before that, my and CC went to shop at TM and CS. Bought some hp accessories.. some hair accessories too. Bought a hp sling for my dad too, but he said so girlish. Aiya. Haha. Quite a fun day la. Just that I felt very giddy in the crowd and very weak.. like fainting lidat. So my concentration wasn’t really there, whether shopping or wad. Haha.. But hard to deny, Jones was indeed good-looking and his songs were very nice and impactful when sung live.. lol. More of soft rock or almost hard rock ba, his songs.. haha,, Then met parents at bedok. Ate turtle soup and mac. Lol. A lot rite? Went around shopping. Bought some bdae gift for some ppl.. Went home 9 plus, watched tian long ba bu, then news, then nu ren something de, then the talk show.. woke up at 11. lol. Tomolo sch re-opening le. Sad to think that my secondary life is ending soon.. sigh.. @ 11:59 AM
Dreams.. Had many dreams these few days. Haha. One was on Monday, I dreamt that I was late for Maths lesson, but I forgot e details le. But on the same day, I had another dream. ( din know can have 2 dreams at one go de.. ) I dreamt Singapore was in a war. I rmb it was at night and I saw huge, never-seen-b4 planes flying across.. then I kinda shocked. Then got 2 bombs land in my house. It exploded but not that bad la. It’s like that video where you add lithium to water, small small explosion only.. Then more planes flew by.. lol.. Got black alien-like ones, got fighter planes. Weird dreams I have ah? Then yest night just had a very action-packed dreams. About wad 2 person had 4 children or wad. Then got ppl kidnapped them then asked for ransom.. Or was it they loanshark? Aiya dunno la.. Then I came up with a lot of ideas.. crazy ideas. Like when they tried to burnt our house hor, I set up a wire netting from our window leading down to the 1st floor for us to climb down was escape route. Then hor, I said to escape from him thoroughly, I said why not dun care him, let him kill those children, then pretend to divorce, sell the house, change your name. Live at relative’s house. When everything’s over, then get married again, then have children again.. haha.. weird dreams.. Friday, June 24, 2005 @ 5:56 PM
Lame story.. There's this funny show tong xin yuan too.. haha.. nowadays alot of shows hor? Got this Dayang, supp to be low IQ after this fever affected his brains. So he likes this girl got mermaid. But the girl says she like him but din loved him. Got another guy liked this girl, wanted to marry her. Then she say she no feelings for him too. haha. Then she say alot of things until i also confused. Ok, nothing facsinating over here.. lol. lame. @ 5:48 PM
Another story.. On air.. Haha. Yest heard an interesting story on air. About this guy regretting letting his girl down and making her upset. The story goes like this.. This couple very happy couple. rarely quarrel, rarely have disputes. In their fren's eyes, they were bound to last. They did. Until a day the girl received an invitation to study at Australia. Well, the guy initially actually welcomed this idea and encouraged her. Then later, he think again, he's not going to see her for a long time. Then jeolousy sets in and he got terrified that SHE actually got this chance and not him. The girl asked him to wait for her.. He wanted to. He agreed. But just a few days before his departure, he went to look for his girl. And initiated a break-up. Telling her he would not wait for her anymore. Now he regrets it badly. It was just a wilful thinking at the spur of the moment and he had let go of someone whom he truly loves. If he wasn't selfish, if he was accepting, if he could turn back time, perhaps the ending won't be lidat. But it's too late. Though the girl is now in Australia and won't know of this, but he sincerely hope for her happiness and anticipate a time wher they can finally patch up.. Thursday, June 23, 2005 @ 6:54 PM
A show that's so nice! Wahaha. yes, here am I back. Just now actually in foul mood. Cause got ppl yuan wang me. But later resolved le, cause we know it was foul play by someone else. And now we've become more wary of the culprit le.. Recently got hocked onto this nice 10 o-clock show on Channel U. haha. The show is just so humourous, esp b/w the 2 main character. They came from the Qing Dynasty. Then the guy called Daxia now, he was a king during his era. The girl called Siniang, someone who wants to fan qing fu ming, wanna kill the king de. Yup, so they were enemy. But they came to the present. and slowly, they were attracted to each other. But each of them refused to admit it la, they even doubted that they would fall for each other. So they bickered very often. but love sparks off this way for them. Soon, Siniang went with the 3rd Master of a company, and Daxia currenly going to woo 4th Missy.. BUt they were affected by wad went on to the other party. esp yest, so funny. Siniang and Ah li ( 3rd Master ) went on a date. Then Daxia so panic. went her house, found excuse dun wanna leave, until she came back. but of course, he din get concerned, he pretended to suan her. So Siniang pretended she very happy and Daxia left in anger. Then Daxia and 4th missy ( Ri-ai ) needed to solve a company prob. So they met in hotel room this night. Siniang saw it and she became very dejected. Later on, as seen in the ad, Ri-an kissed Daxia on the cheek, Siniang saw it. And got very upset. But still, though they knew that it was each other that they cared for, they refused to acknowledged the fact. perhaps due to their pride la. Then they went separate ways and got together with someone whom they liked but did not loved. ( learnt this phrase from tong xin yuan.. hee ) Now story going climax le.. And they still denying their bottom most feelings. Force themselves to be with another person.. They feel happiness but loneliness.. haha.. So i'm anticipating wad end they'd have.. of course they'd be together in the end, if this is a "always like that" kinda of show, or maybe there could be a twist of fate and a surprising conclusion may arise.. hopeful it the latter, caus shows lidat more interesting. not boring kind of ending.. hah.. after all this is a comedy! Tuesday, June 21, 2005 @ 9:52 PM
Made up my mind.. Here are some changes that I hope to see myself changing: 1) Be more open and socialise more. I realised that I have been too confined to my own group of friends and perhaps too reliant on them. But sometimes, I may not even feel the closeness of this group of friends. So I will let go of the thought that i have all along -- One good friend is better than a whole big big gang of friend. Of course, these group of friends had been nice, loyal and trustable. But because we're too "together", we seemed to be isolated from the rest. Wanna change and mix more with the rest. But how do i go about doing it? only half a year left le. and their impression of me and us is so deep over the past 1 and a half years le. How do i try to gain a higher level of friendship besides just being classmates or even schoolmates for some? perhaps i need external help ba.. 2) Quit being so suspicious man. Dun think too much. have more confidence in myself. Do what i want to. Don't be bounded by the consequences. --> Meaning if it's something positive la. Like wanna talk just talk, dun let wad others think affect me. Ok, this is a very impt step to take.. In class, i'm el rep. but not doing a good job. i dun dare to speak in front of the class. was in the council before. even in exco. but can't even speak up. wad a rotten leader. ok, so this change is mainly to build up my confidence and the leadership in me. being in council has expsoed me to commanding in front of the school. ok, so no sweat now, just command, i mean give instructions, in front of my own class. ppl whom i'm familiar with. But prob is i always think, wad if ppl ignore me, dun listen to me. then lose face. wad if a make a mistake? wad if i too fierce? Wad if they think i just like to lan yong my authority? Many factors are holding me back. But, yes, this is something i must change.. I wonder how. i could start it off with someone helping me to catch the class's attention then i talk. adn slowly, i take control of the whole situation. Others impression do mean alot to me, but i cannot just fail my role because of this.. 3) Quit being so lame and make unnessary comments. Some people enjoys joke. but not everyone. and definitely not every moment. and i think i've been irritating people with the way i talk. Ought to be thinking more maturely.. Dun make them feel so brrr.. occasional jokes are fine. dun get overboard. be more serious --> as in to those who i joked too much le.. Talk more to others sensibly. then add a bit of humour to it. but not excessively. Express wad i really want to say, adn not something just to amuse others or make them feel uneasy, happy or what-so-ever. That's all for today. But it's not the end. It's only the beginning. I will change. Trust me. @ 9:41 PM
Yes, soar high.. Into the sky.. Not a very good day today. Tot go back sch would be more fun and happier. then not really. Sian. But yes, enjoyed today's lesson. Just feel that i like very left out lidat. yue shi left out, yue shi withdrawn. Then again, who cares rite? I will no longer confine myself to a defined area le. I'm gonna walk out of it. cause when i do so, i become the bad guy and you're always the good guy. So why bother. Keeping one person happy and losing everyone else in the end. Rite? Arg, forgot where i read this frm le, but quite recent de. I think i took a test somewhere. and it tells me not to mix only with people whom i'm comfortable with, but must mix with those whom i think i may not get along with. yes, i think it's true. I'm not gonna be a fool, forever stuck at the original place. I can make a break through. On my own. The world does not need me, i do not need the world. I will trust just myself more and pump in more confidence in myself and do wad i deem is correct and will bring me joy. No longer gonna live in that unseen defined area set up. Open up, and find a better world. Do wad i always wanted to do, not bounded down anymore. Monday, June 20, 2005 @ 5:44 PM
Behind time.. wahahha. Yay! Tomolo can go back school.. Haha.. Doing maths --> Not a bad thing. Beats doing some practicals and scaring yourself all the way. Whether hair wil get burnt, lab will explode, pendulum will hit until you obak kack, some weird gas willl juz suffocate you to death, test-tube suddenly break, solutions suddenly talk to you, everyone's hair suddenly buffed up. -_-" Suddenly realised our syllabus taught very slowly and we're very behind time. I've always tot we were behind time all these while, but i seriously went to look at the content page and i know die liao lor. Wad if i said for eg. chemistry, other sch last year taught the ammonia, environment etc. and this year only left organic chem? haha. shocked? that's the fact of life. or rather sch? Physics still got ALOT more left. thank god we have mr eng with his wonderful notes. Bio, can finish, but we won't understand a thing at all ( if we rushed too fast ). Maths, my probability like blur blur le then now some more topics, but mainly physics so ok lor. haha. Humanities, very impt. can't afford to let it pull me down. my most unconfident subject. besides el ( but well, el is standard, you can hardly work for it.. ) chinese can forget about finishing syllabus ah.. Sunday, June 19, 2005 @ 11:16 PM
Advice.. the Future.. holds.. Ok la, so juz now went TJC website. got a shock. or rather a fact that confirmed the fear i'd always had. enter that sch must learn swimming lor. sigh. i dun even know how to swim. and i fear water. not those scared of water la, but juz dun like to get into contact with water. Went to check out meridian JC too. their website very nice and attractive. but i still dun feel like joining it. it's good. but prob is, my aim for my studying life is to have a whole string of temasek. Temasek Primary School Temasek Seconday School Temasek Junior College Ya lor, so must think over whether to let "swimming" hinder my forward pushing strength to attaining this "dream". And found out that the part i like about chemistry is physically chemistry. checked it out at TJC website. now fretting over wad sub to choose. you see, i like to have 3 sci and 2 maths. but they only allow 4 sub. and 1 has to be art subject rite? then i left 3 to choose. how to choose? very troubled la. but i know chemistry will be on the list. with maths too since it seems so impt to university entrance. haha. think gonna try taking econs. not continuing with history. spare me the agony of memorizing any more things le. had had enuff le. my memory not good de. only understanding theory then better. that's why sci and maths appeal more to me. Econ concept like mainly theory. so ok la, but of course it's tough. i heard it's tough. but no pain no gain. nothing ventured, nothing gain. rather than suffer with history, try something new. may interest me after all. the worst is that i suffer the same "brr" as studying history. in the end, choose something new means 50% chance of not suffering rite? Can someone advice me wad i shld do? @ 11:06 PM
Ahh.. some insignificant tots.. Haiz.. These few days so sian. Now lingering on net, monitering some nice phone, and looking at my hundred odds emails that i've yet to cleared in dunno how many years due to slow internet.. Yup! i do have a faster jetpack net le.. But sometimes must see if timing correct or wrong then can connect de.. haha. Luckily Tuesday can go sch le. For maths. ok la, neutral. dunno why, since i entered sec 4, my interest for maths become neutral. all along my life since i got into contact with maths, i've always loved it and treated it as my fav sub. but somehow, this year, i feel so distant from it. Maybe cause everytime maths lesson not sitting in front. Really, sit in front you concentrate better de lor. and i've always been sitting in front. now changed then lidat. so.. yup, i superstitious when it comes to studies. my stationeries used for exam cannot be changed one. lidat means lidat. cause last time i misplaced my pen for a short while then history test come back like not very good. got it back, then improved. so i very hantam (??) when coming to having my "usual" things when studyin else everything will just "change"? Ok la, now dunno wad happen, i crazy for science le. Last time only love chemistry like wad. then last year Term 2 something happened then also like Physics. then i think my interest for maths has been transferred to bio le. so i like all sci subject. but ironically, the more i dun go and specifically like maths, the better i do at it. weird. =X But not to worry. now maths moving to very physic kind le. so i will still like it. and take note, i nv dun like maths, just that my interest for it is not like in the past le. but it's still one of my fav sub, esp A Maths. remembered it was my 2nd fav subject last year. my fav sub still stays with chemistry. but i do have another most fav sub, but i couldn't pursue it at upper sec, and it's all in the past.. so.. sigh.. no use stating wad it is anyway rite? Ok, dunno why i rambling away over here about subjects. dunno leh. haha. a bit siao siao and wu liao. nvm, sch re-opening le. happy cause can go back to wonderful TMS. sad cause another term gonna end soon and i'm gonna leave sch soon. sigh. Friday, June 17, 2005 @ 6:44 PM
Some food for tots.. Been reading thru some sms on my phone. Here are some meaningful ones. Got some more, but no time to read thru all, only picked a few.: I may not have given wats expected of me as a fren. I’m juz human not perfect, but inside this imperfection lies a heart that values you the best way I know. Time might head us nowhere, fate might break us apart, but I’ll always be thankful that once along my life’s journey, I knew someone just like you. Thanks. Life is chemistry. Dilute your sorrows. Evaporate your worries. Filter your happiness. And you’ll fine crystals of love and happiness. Some others in Chinese. Let me translate one nice one. A baby dog asked his mum where could happiness be found. She told him at his tail. The baby dog began chasing his tail, but no matter how hard he tried, he failed to catch it. He asked his mum why. And she replied, “you only have to walk forward, and happiness will naturally follow you”. Meaningful isn’t it? I like the chemistry one and the dog one most. Hee. Listening to Daniel zhang’s wo xiang zi you.. @ 6:43 PM
Ocean.. Ou De Yang.. Been listening to ocean’s latest album recently.. Thanks for helping.. initially tot the songs were kinda weird.. but slowly slowly listened. Seems to be not bad. His songs kinda like matured a lot le.. from last time many of his songs were kinda of no meaning lor. Like wad island thing and pyramid. Haha. But I realized now that his songs are so filled with despair and sadness. No longer the relaxed atmosphere that would bring away all your worries. But perhaps just like ppl will change, songs will change too.. But his songs still got some childish one though. Got one wad bo li mei gui? Quite unlike his style.. attempt a bit of rock but sounded weird. Then got this wad wu lu something yu.. about rain one. That one reminds me most of his 1st album. Those kind of weird weird title with cute cute tune and lyrics de.. haha.. Some that left a deep impression on me is the diu shang xin and the gai shi ni de. The rest are very nice too. Except for the 2 songs that I found weird. Haha. Liu se cai hong I prefer the feat version as compared to the original de. Cause that song I prefer to see it as a sad number, not a cheerful one. Haha. Xiao fu xi at first I found it lame. But gradually got used to it and found that actually their voice blend quite well and tune nice nice too.. Overall, I would say ocean has improved from last time le, in terms of songs. In terms of his singing ability, I still like that crisp in his voice. However, his style has changed. From relaxed style to a more depressed one. Life is bad enough, the thing that attracted me to his songs in the past was that it was so worry-free. But his style has changed, things has changed, perhaps he has learnt something, or experienced something bad? Wouldn’t want to see his face. He said he’ll reveal his face during second album. But I like things to remain as it is. Ocean will be a character that I want him to be. Dun wish my imagination to be limited by his actually appearance. But then again, I’m excited to see his face. But yet I dun want to see. So contradictory? Well, life is a big contradictory anyway. Lol. Wednesday, June 15, 2005 @ 12:57 PM
Jetpack ok la.. The jetpack finally worked. the lineman came down and said it was their fault over at the headquarter. maybe they nv connect the lines or wad lor.. then they came and did some changes to the setting and woom.. i'm on my way to a faster internet le.. But then i still face prob siah. sometimes can connect sometimes can't.. according to the person, is modem need time to stablize.. but seems it's very unstable.. Dunno how la.. Today just on com and realised something wrong with the USB again.. gotta re-install. Am i gonna do this everytime i want to go onto the net? Been thinking alot. Well. As usual. I think too much for my own good anyway. haha. Suddenly realised that next term is prelim le. But that wasn't the main focus of wad i was thinking anyway. Duh.. The school.. The people.. and ME.. as in really me la.. i realised i'm so much more withdrawn.. dunno wad's going on also. Dun think too much la.. Let the world hate me if they want to hate me anyway.. haha.. I always think everyone hates me, dunno why.. lol Saturday, June 11, 2005 @ 7:24 PM
Haiz.. Haiz. Internet still down.. still cannot work.. CC’s computer man already came down to help le still cannot. But thinking on the other side, it means there’s no prob with my com skills.. because even a com pro cannot solve the prob.. hee.. Past 2 days went back to school for chem. Prac.. then sian leh, know quite a lot of error le. And it’d be counted into CA.. luckily next term there’s a main test – prelim.. twice I test for oxygen, both time all kanna extinguish.. 1st time cause got carbon dioxide, 2nd time dunno why le.. sigh.. my 2nd titration also got prob.. my rough titration more accurate ( exact answer ) than my other readings lor.. Having stomachache now.. Friday, June 10, 2005 @ 2:51 PM
Continued.. Ok, yup, let me complete my memories about the council camp. Well the highlight of this camp was that the sec 4s had to stand down. Actually I din expect this to happen so quickly. It seems kinda yesterday that the previous sec 4s had left us. Anyway, on the night itself, during the dinner, the sec 4s suddenly realized the importance to bond together. We were all on the same desk, eating together and speaking in one voice. Well, better late than never rite? At least we had a moment of closeness with one another.. Then came the ceremony itself.. we had to go up to make a speech. Kinda shocked me lor. Haha. Actually I was thinking thru wad I wanted to say before I went up, but when I went there, I kinda blanked out. Then I began talking about thing that I dun even understand wad I’m talking. And can’t help to laugh at my own stupidity then. But I look back, everyone like serious serious face, then I also become more withdrawn.. I think the best part was that I finally apologized. At this very last moment before I stepped down. You see, I’m always very quiet in the council and I feel as though I’ve made so little contribution.. doing only wad was told. Afraid to initiate. No confidence to ask if others need help for fear of being a hindrance instead. So yup.. on that very night, I apologized for all these. Those were words I’ve always wanted to said but nv dared to. Because of pride? Lack of confidence? Fear? I dunno.. but I had to get it off my chest, even though I really sounded stupid at that moment.. but one thing that touched me a lot was that shawna and Vicki ( who was kinda right in front of me.. ) denied that I din make contributions to the council.. I think they were like “No No, you did contribute” or something lidat ( I din quite catch wad was said.. ).. And it was really comforting and I dunno how to describe it.. but they left a beautiful memory in my mind just because of those words... really thank you.. Our standdown gift was a personalized “poster”. Haha. Actually mine din really reflect me cause I provided fake info, I’m not into el world, but mostly they ask is about el things. So I just said things that I heard others said before.. but it’s the effort and thoughts behind it that counts. I’d treasure it.. my 3-4 years in the council.. the gift has it all locked up.. all my memories.. and I have the keys to unlock these memories as and when I want to.. thank you, those who helped me do this gift! Then we had this goodbye ceremony.. sec 2 and 3 came and shook hands, hugged, interact etc with us.. sigh.. sometimes a goodbye is inevitable, but we still got the say goodbye because that’s the way the world is.. for the good of ourselves, for the good of everyone.. if the old dun go, how can the new rise up to their roles? Later on was confidence walk. Around 12 le. Quite surprised ms lim allowed us to continue with it. Perhaps she knows it’s us, the sec 4s’s last attempt at organizing something.. haha. Then me and shawna was checking out the humanities room that side. When I suddenly said ms neo said there haunted leh.. lol. And scared her and myself out of the corridor and we ran back to avt. Haha.. me and my big mouth.. and I tot I SAW A CLEANER AT THE LOCKER AREA! But shawna nv see. And Vicki who has been at the staircase for quite some time also nv see.. so.. erm.. seeing things? Dun think about it.. haha.. @ 2:49 PM
Blessing in disguise Haiz. My internet crisis is still on. I still can’t log on to jetpack. But there’s one impt lesson I learnt from this crisis. You see, juz not even my pac net couldn’t work. Say wad network cannot be found. But luckily I did system recovery and it came back. But.. This really taught me an important lesson. I’ve always complained Pac net to be slow. Nothing good about it. But when I’m on the verge of losing it, I treasured it. Now it’s back. I may be lucky this time round to recover it. But perhaps next time I may just lose it. I shld sometimes stop and think how faithfully it has served me all these years with minimal prob though it’s slow. As compared to jetpack that has yet to serve me but has already given me a lot of problem. Sometimes, we shld juz stop to look at thing’s good point and not brood over all the problems. Perhaps perhaps.. but sometimes a perhaps is too late. Time cannot be turned back. We can’t return to where we were before. I’m glad pac net din get to live in my memory, I want it to live with me, alongside me, but not in me. Because I do want to have only memories of the past, I want new experiences from the present, and this can only be done if it can “live” like wad I m now.. This lesson bought is worth a thousand gold. For those who had smooth sailing experiences, they have missed having this important lesson. I finally know wad it is to treasure things before you lose them and also we really have to face difficulties to grow and mature from them.. well, anyway, I got to thank jetpack for giving me this lesson too.. perhaps you’re juz a test sent from erm.. somewhere to allow me to grow out of myself? ^_^ Monday, June 06, 2005 @ 12:07 AM
Bad Mood ARG! I’m in a very awful mood now. Juz lost my temper. Something that had not happened on full blast since end of sec 2. My net cannot work and my dad’s friend go and recommend another friend to come have a look as he has the same net. I keep saying it’s the wiring got prob, but that person who can’t even use the com to delete file, keep on saying it’s ok if the LINK is blinking and not constantly lighting up. And he messed up all my proxy setting and LANs set-up. Now I cannot recall wad was my factory setting le,. BRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My pac net also speed reduced to juz 24kps!! I dun even dare to mess up my com setting cause I scared it will spoil. To think it has been messed by an outsider! All my internet now all down. Everything!!!!! Listening to NUMB by LINKIN PARK.. I’ve become so numb.. BRRRRRRRRRRR… Next is IN THE END.. many tots coming to my mind.. 02.09.. Sunday, June 05, 2005 @ 12:01 AM
To be continued.. Currently listening to yi qian nian yi hou. But incomplete de. Sigh. Yup. So let me comment about my council camp in this sad atmosphere. In day 1, basically, we settled the “official” things eg. teacher’s day etc. and the sec 4s were like kinda doing nothing. Which is a clear sign of the sec 4s slowly retreating from actions. It feels so weird.. to see them discussing and so on, while we’re just sitting around, looking at them and doing nothing. 因为在一千年以后 世界早已没有我 Later came break. Then I went for physics prac. Actually I was quite glad about that. At least I can be doing something. Instead of like haiz. Dunno how to say. Just like we’ve juz become transparent and everything has ended for us. Lunch time, came back for camp. After that we played some games. 1 was that we broke into groups and went to various games station. First one was in the foyer. 2 groups on 2 chairs and we gotta exchange position and get onto the other group’s bench then. Later we gotta re-arrange ourselves in order of our birthdays. Kinda fun. Lol. Next was in the field. We have to hold on to each other, making sure that none of us break our bond. Anyway, the bond was bound to break and we gotta do forfeit. Ran around e whole field once and crawled for some distance. This one very fun and thrilling. Next stop was in the amphi theatre there. Gotta pass rubberbands using straws in the mouth. Last stop was in the needlework room. We got ourselves blindfolded and we have to like pass a telephone message. The prob is everyone is scattered in the room and we got to move around in the dark to search for the next person to pass the information to. This one was fun too. Haha. Next we went parade square to play “captain’s ball”. Instead of using the ball this time, we used papaya and raw chicken. Yuck. I played for the papaya but not for the raw chicken. Many juz watched for the raw chicken de. Cause too disgusting le. But very funny to see the chicken flying in the air doing somersault. By the end of the game, we were all dirty.. haha.. and then came free time, plus rehearse for the concert. To be continued.. Saturday, June 04, 2005 @ 11:52 PM
Council camp and internet woes Ah. Juz came back from council camp. Yup, it’s our standdown ceremony camp. And I’m in a awful mood now. Can’t get my internet to work. Juz now a lot of tots to say about council camp. Later when I cool down then say. By then most of wad I wanted to say, I would have forgotten. So ya. But I cannot li zhi xing de recall wad happened with wad’s happening to my com at the moment. |