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Saturday, June 30, 2007 @ 5:44 PM
Diablo Druid neck pain ah!! i thikn i'm no longer as "hardy" as before le.. just a few hours of gaming my neck already like breaking le.. and from the whole day of watching videos and playin games on com, i woke up today ( at 12 ) with paimful eyes.. oh no, gotta keep the post short, my neck aching like what liaox.. =X and i missed 1hr of tian xia di yi mei po all because i was addicted to explore further. and now i'm 5/6 of Act 1! yay! but.. =( it means i'm nearer andrial too.. sigh. =X been training druid today. and i realise one good thing.. i can just pick up gold and items like nobody's business whilst my assistant and summoned creatures attack. lolx. just sit back and relax. so unlike barbarian, who die die must chiong one.. currenlty level 11 ( yes, only.. ) which is just 1 lvl away from the character that i lost when i changed my com.. =) way to go man! @ 1:03 AM
blood raven i'm still shivering with fright now.. it's always the case after an attempt to fight blood raven.. i tot i won't get the cold shivers anymore, having fought it for dunno how many times with diff characters.. but somehow that fear just remains.. not to mention the fact that i wasted almost all my healing potion fighting him.. =X and honestly, my hands are really shivering uncontrollably now.. and very li hai some more.. the first hurdle overcomed, the next will be andriel.. Friday, June 29, 2007 @ 7:03 PM
video driver woes Hmph! a spoilt/ missing video driver is the cause of all my games woes. sigh. =X a day has passed.. and i'm still without a proper game.. sob.. but anw, on a brighter side, i found my Diablo 2 LOD. which means if i fix my video driver prob, i'd be able to play it! isn't it exciting?? =) and time is not on my side.. my show has started.. yet i'm stil stuck here trying to resolve this prob!! =X @ 5:33 PM
Soul Superband heard that someone from superband Soul has passed away.. but not much details.. wonder what happened.. haix.. @ 3:07 PM
Serial Experiment Lain am i me? "I'm confused.. again.. Am i here? Or am i there? I know i'm everywhere there.. but where is the real me? there is no real me. i only exist inside people who are aware of my existence.. but this me that's talkign right now, it's me isn't it?" Serial Experiment Lain -- perplexingly disturbing, yet unexplanably interesting.. a story that most can't understand ( including me ) due to the fact that maybe at the end of the day, there's nothing to be understood at all. A good word to sum it up: weird. the story is weird, yet it captures attention. and that is a weird fact. weirdly nice.. the difference between reality and the wired.. i'd interpret it as the reality and people's inner thoughts and emotions. ( since somewhere in the story, it was once explained that the consciousness is made up of electrical impulses transmitting around your body, jsut like how Earth might just be another "human-like machine" with "humans" as the connecting synapse ) and the story truly brought out some questions that i've been pondering about recently.. which is real? the side of you that others know, or the side that others do not know? do you exist just simply as what others know of you? or do you exist as who are you as an entity, of wholesomely yourself. in the story, lain finds herself fragmented into many "her" in the wired.. in the end, she is but merely herself. the many "her" was actually the impression and memories that others have of her. when they intersect adn fuse together in the "wired", she lost view of what truly was her.. "memories are but mere records.. they can be erased and deleted" Lain wanted to protect her best and only friend, Arisa. to do so, she erased bad memories about Arisa from others memory. but Arisa's memory was intact. Lain thought that was the best way for Arisa. She wanted to protect her so badly. but in the end, it turned out that she was all wrong.. one of the greatest flaw of human love is the tendency to assume. to assume that things one does is for the better of the other party. but is it really? in the end, Lain resetted the entire world. in this new world, no one dies or gets hurt because of her. she should be happy. that is the ending that she wants. but no.. there was this empty feeling within her.. she wanted things to turn out the best way it can be for her friend. did it really turn out to be the best possible way? when you achieve what you want, have you really achieved what you want? Still, memories can be forgotten, but not feelings.. Lain's parents and Arisa might have forgotten that someone called Lain was there, but within them, they still found Lain familiar. without her, they felt soemthign was missing. when they saw her, they felt that they didn't know each other, but they do.. "people's memories aren't just personal or one part of history or humanity.do you think we are able to store memories that's that vast? the wired was just connected to something else.but what is it? do people really have to know? they've come so far without knowing it.." in life, many are always trying to find the answer to life. the secret to consciousness. but even though there might exist an absolute start point, is it that important to know what it really is? maybe ignorance is bliss. maybe the truth hurts even more. maybe it might not be something we like. the reason why the ultimate is known as the ultimate is because of grand and unfathomable label that we have put onto it. maybe once "it" is revealed, there's nothing that spectacular. who knows? the truth might be that we're really just machines controlled by other higher beings? the world.. to understand it? or to live with ignorance? to be happy working within constraints? or to overstep the border? @ 2:50 PM
some complaints brr.. been quite a frustrating experience.. decided to try installing maple again.. downloaded it. initialized it. game guard ran. but the same error persisted! about some gr2d error. =X but that's not the worst thing. tried to sign up for an account. but my nation id has already been used before. so i tot, maybe ok, last time i might have signed up already. so i reported loss of id. but no matter what, my national id and my email can't match. used all my different emails to try, stil cannot. Hmph! so, ok, i'm not fated to play maple i guess. before reformatting and after reformatting com, stil can't play. so moving on to the next part of the story.. wanted to install diablo to play. lost the cd key though. but by some stroke of luck, found a kind soul who volunteered his cd key. but the thing is.. after installing everything, the game claims i didn't put the cd into the cd-drive. -_-" and also, i'm detected to have no video driver.. =X and hence i can't play diablo 2 too! so i tot, ok let me install the diablo 2 expansion set then.. but i can't find the cd anywhere!!!! so ok, i dropped the idea of playign these 2 games. wanted to play dynasty warrior. so downloaded ps2 emulator. then for some weird reason, i'm missing one file that was supp to be in the downloaded folder. =X and the emulator can't start up! and somehow i lost the link for gameboy rom.. so now i'm stuck with a gameboy emulator with pokemon gold/crystal. =X which is ok.. except for the fact that the game is ultra sensitive. one little press on the arrow button, and i find myself at the other end of the screen. -_-" and now my current state of thinking is that.. i'm just not fated to play games this for this long break.. haha. so i shall just dedicate myself to watching shows and movies both on tv and on the net.. halfway thru serial experiment Lain le. =) Thursday, June 28, 2007 @ 11:31 PM
June JCT yes yes! jct finally ended le.. =) but somehow the excitment that it;s over wasn;t as intense as yesterday when i was trying to study for chem. kept thinking that everything will be over tomolo aka today. =) as usual, a short overview of all the papers so that i can throw whatever "burden" i might have so that i can fully enjoy the long holiday ahead!!!!! start with the =) first.. physics was ok.. maths too, though some careless mistake that got quite costly but forget about it.. then comes the -_- part.. bio. hmms. i tot i did study for it, but somehow when it came to essay again, my mind went blank. and i just can't recall the stuff that i tot i studied. chem.practically like a battle against time. and i actualyl missed one entire page. lolx. sounds kua zhang, but luckily that page was the last page, with a super long question that's worth 2 marks only. so.. aiya.. but anw, for things that need to regurgitate de, eg 1st essay qn on atomic structure, somehow i mind blank again. looks like i really got prob with memorizing. =X getting older eh? finally the =(.. and i think the most =( would go to econs this time. didn't read table 1 carefully and this jeopardized part a, worth 6 marks in all, aka 1/5 of the entire case study qn. and the rest of the qn i was like ?_?. and for essay i decided to take a gamble. since i do market failure all the time, i decided jct would be a good chance for me to experiment to see if i can handle macro econs. hmms, looks like it's a bad decision, and my essay was super short with no real content. looks like i better hope that market failure comes out for a-level and faithfully do it. and the teacher cheat la! say what csq will be collected after 1hr15min. hai me change my habit of doing essay first, only to realise after i finish my csq that they flashed this thing that says everything will be collected at the end. =X haha.. GP.. for once it wasn't the subject that i tot i did worse in.. though i stil expect it to be my worst subject, but not knowing how to do a subject (econs) that i have studied for makes me feel worse than a subject that i didn't touch and expect myself to do badly in.. Anw, i have nothing to say abotu the paper, besides i really have to buck up. but then again, i always tell myself i must really start reading the package, but till now never have i once really seriously settled down to read them and understand them. =X oh wells.. and i just have this one last complaint.. the exam venue all so hot la! should have lowered the temperature.. lower temp = can think better somehow.. esp for maths paper, the sun was practically shining at me and i can just feel the heat lorx.. =X and i'm not someone that can really co-exist with heat.. lolx.. ok, that's all.. so bye bye jct! at least for now till the results. i'm gonna enjoy my holidays ( 4 days straight =) ) Wednesday, June 27, 2007 @ 11:44 PM
Zheng Fen Duo Miao oh! zheng fen duo miao gettign very nice!!!!! intially it seemed like it's draggy.. but now it's so exciting.. esp after lu yaoguo died.. seldom do the main character die. and seldom do they die so early in the story.. usually we expect shows that the police will win, the thief will lose. in this case. there was a gunshot and someone was dead. by default, the one dead shouldn't be the one that we're made to think died. it's just someone else who looks quite like the person.. but no no no.. this show really made it very real.. it's like you're living in this story and it's just very real.. a game of life and death.. where if you lose, you really pay with your life.. hou jiahao (hmmm, can't really rmb the name) is really one man that can't be easily fathomed.. Monday, June 25, 2007 @ 11:22 PM
ai. te bie de ni ai. te bie de ni's ending was very meaningful.. though the overall show wasn't that nice.. one classical sentence to sum it all up.. if waiting means true happiness can be achieved, then i don't mind waiting forever.. i think the most outstanding character was Uncle Zhao.. ya, not the mains.. he's someone who seems to be unfeeling and detest others who are different from him. autocratic in many ways, expecting his sons to do what he wants them to do and always feel that others can never live up to his standards. seemingly a grumpy old man who thinks too highly of himself, belittling others in the process.. yet.. within him, he's just a wounded soul tortured by unhappy childhood memories. a lonely soul who refuses to open up to others around him, refusing to believe that others will care for him, doubting the slightest hint of kindness. maybe that was all due to his sense of insecurity. all his hard and cold exterior were but mere way of protecting himself from all the evils he anticipates from the world. in return, he gave up his rights to love and to be loved. still, in the end, he thought things thru and gradually accepted the others.. determination is really a double-edged sword.. too little of it, and you're seen as feeble with weak will. too much of it, and you're just a stubborn fellow.. and he used to drown himself in loads of work.. until he was handicapped by an accidental stroke did he manage to stop and look back at his life and reflect.. maybe many a times, we lose track of what truly mattered to us in exhange for what we thought is importatnt to us.. only to realise that that special something was lost, never to return.. Thursday, June 21, 2007 @ 12:47 PM
Ge Shi Zui Xiong Ge Shi Zui Xiong ended le.. Quite a nice show. managed to capture my attention. storyline was tight. concept of inter-time connectiveness via mobile phone was refreshing. only thing is that the development of characters and their relationships was a bit "the same old kinda thingy".. the ending wasn't pretty much to my liking. even though the writer tries to be philosophical towards the end, saying how cause isn't without its effect, should let things take its natural course, etc, the entire thing was a bit no link with the general theme of the whole story. not only is it arupt, i wasn't able to fully accept what was being said by Tian Guang's dad at the end. and the oddest thing was that he actually became a monk.. ok maybe, tian guang changed his fate by telling him how he would die, and hence he didn't consume the drugs offered to him. maybe a monk saved him when he lost his footing whilst trying to jump off the low-storeyed building. but the whole point of him becoming a monk was totally off-tangent. and his reason was that he was enlightened, that loving someone does not equate to seeing someone everyday. as long as the other party lived in his heart, the bond will remain. but the thing is.. he so badly wanted not to die because he didn't want to upset his family. he knew his wife and his son needed him to be there. so a monk came and saved him, and he decided to become a monk too? just like that? deserted his family for 20yrs just because he tot he understood the meaning of love? but has he considered this? he thinks he understood the meaning of love, and hence even though he wasn't by his family's side for 20yrs, he was stil able to feel happiness. but what about his family? they didn't know of the so-called love he understood. so they had to suffer for 20yrs, living in the uncertainty that he might be somewhere, not understanding why he hadn't return to see them even though he might be alive. i mean, how can you just leave? just like that? he shouldn't change Shan's fate. nor anyone's destiny. he should let things take its natural course. so since, he's alive by some chance. shouldn't he let things take its natural course? just return to his family and lead the normal life? by becoming a monk, isn't he distorting his life? by purposefully withdrawing himself from the rest of his family? i can understand when Tianguang wanted to let the 10yrs be a test of his and nicole's love. he will not compel themselves to be together, should they have a change of mind. they didn't choose to be separated by wish, but nonetheless, they have the choice to treasure their love despite that separation. yet 20 yrs of separation b/w tianguang and his dad wasn't a test of their bond at all. his dad chose to leave in the first place. and now he left again and said that if they're fated, they'll meet again 20yrs later. but what for? deliberately separating to prove that they're fated when they meet again 20 yrs later? what i was hoping to see was that his dad didn't die and they lived as a happy family. or maybe not a happy family, maybe the family broke up somehow.. but at least the dad wouldn't be misunderstood. that's called shun qi zi ran.. anw.. another thing that caught my attention.. "changes seem to be inherent, but the truth is, nothing has changed at all.." maybe what matters most is how we view things, the perspective we take, and how one still exist essential as one. no matter how everything change, as long as an individual remains as himself, th memories will stil be intact, the bonds will still remain.. at least in the heart.. and it was kinda sweet. how things turned out corrected after all at the end of the day. shijing went with hugo, tianguang with shan/nicole, tianguang's mum with herman.. as long as they are fated, no matter how much changes they can go thru, they'd still be together at the end of the day.. it seems like cause and effect are 2 points in space and time. and there are many ways of connecting this cause to that effect. but no matter how different each route might be, things that are meant to happen will stil happen. no matter how much changes there might be after all.. Fate, the one that binds our destiny.. Believe and it can be, don't believe and it can't be.. @ 12:37 PM
Starcraft 2 Yay! Starcraft 2 is finally out..  after approx. 10yrs of waiting.. =) but the thing is.. from the screenshots that i see, ther hasn't been much difference to starcraft 1 and its expansion set. hmmx. =X still the same 3 races: protoss ( =) ), terran and zerg ( =( ) lolx. and i can't save the picture of the zealot!! =( and seems like protoss got this new unit called stalker. lolx.. Tuesday, June 19, 2007 @ 12:59 PM
劉德華-牧笛 劉德華-牧笛 Andy Lau's new song.. actualy i didn't find it particularly nice.. but somehow the song is just stuck in my head.. and it gives me a special feeling.. somehow.. so decided to check out the MV that he said in the intro.. as i watch, initially i didn't find anything special about it.. but slowly, as i watch, i become less conscious.. in the sense that i just let the story and MV carry me with its tune and flow.. and there's this feeling of 无限感动 .. even though the MV doesn't look magnificant.. dunno la.. esp the part where the animals and mains shed two tears each.. @ 11:37 AM
原点 原点 ended le.. YuCheng died.. actually.. maybe he wasn't that hateful.. he was just someone who lost sight of his soul and himself on the climb up.. the more you gain, the more you lose, and also the more you tend to lose. hence the paranoia to safeguard everything he has. yet another sad case of someone losing trust in everything around him, including himself.. that tortured soul is something that others do not see, but the solid hard fact of his misdeed is something that people never fail to condemn.. as he said on his deathbed.. he wishes that he was back to the good old days with tie tou and grouper maid.. that everything was restored to the origin.. he wanted to turn back so many times.. but he couldn't turn back. ok, maybe the fact that he couldn't turn back was an excuse that he made up to justify all that he has done and is about to do. but that's also a fact.. he has done so much, even if he were to stop and become who he once was, nobody would see him in the same light anymore. they can give him a chance, they can forgive him, but they can never forget.. if anything were to happen, it's quite evident that they'd jump to the conclusion that yucheng is involved in it.. a shattered glass can never be restored to what it was once originally. and he's really quite a sweet guardian angel towards tingli. maybe he showed his love in the wrong way previously.. but maybe that's becuase he doubted that anyone could truly love him.. still, at the end of the day, he fulfiled his promise to get tingli's eyes healed.. so easy to accuse others.. so difficult to reflect on oneself.. put anyone in yucheng's situation, i guess many would lose their moral compass over time too.. the best example is shi ban mei.. the inherent nature in him might be good. but the distrust of the moment, and the feeling of insecurity at that moment is sufficient to mask over whatever one would discern is right or wrong.. often that's the case in reality too, where one loses something valuable to one just becuase of that spur of the moment.. and i can't really see the chemistry between tietou and shi ban mei, tingli and yucheng. they're kinda mismatched.. =x and anw, i think i'd prefer yucheng over shi ban mei.. cause she can blame yucheng for al that he has done, yet follow his path, in the name that all must be done to stop yucheng because he's not what he once used to be.. if he's finding alot of excuses for his wrongdoing, the reason she is giving is also very lame and invalid.. next show shou zhu.. oh no! 80 episode.. sigh.. hope it's gonna be good.. @ 11:11 AM
javin out.. go jun jie Javin got eliminated..  it's like a worse senario case. where junjie and javin were placed together on stage. both i support. =X  i think javin got this idol aura and the point is, he sings sentimental songs.. and junjie also picks sentimental songs, and on top of that.. he has this special X-factor in him that made me wanna listen.. actually i kinda tot that junjie would get out. cause his low score is way far from the rest. and i can see him looking so sunken throughout the results show. kept shaking his head etc. first time he was up, he kept saying something to benjamin, and i thikn benjamin was asking him not to think too much. adn i thikn FuKuan dao-ed him. =X the next time he went up, he was with Javin.. and i can see what he was saying.. 一定是我。。and javin went.. 不要想了.. trying to comfort him to the best of his abilities.. when the results came out, i think javin was taken aback too.. i guess.. even though he tries to comfort junjie, in his heart, he kinda expected himself to be in, not out.. cause after all, his score leads junjie by alot. so he was shocked, but he took things in his stride. even though his eyes appeared watery, he still managed to force out a smile. =) so easy to comfort others in distress, yet when the same senario hits you, it's hard to accept the facts too.. and junjie was really shocked. the moment the results were out, his mouth dropped open. i don't think it's pretentious. if i were him, i'd have expected myself to be out too. it's unlike some ppl who have high score, and stil cry when they're announced to be in, saying it's so unexpected.. that's very fake.. and i can see that he didn't really want to say his few words during the interview when he won. after muttering some thanks, he looked away from the screen in a wu nai expression. as though he's trying to say, give me a break.. having to express his thanks for others, whilst feeling guilty that he's the one in.. at the end of the show, junjie was crying terribly.. pornsak was comforting him.. and later joined by fukuan and benjamin.. haix.. i can imagine the amount of guilt he carries with him. though it's not his fault that he turned the whole situation around, the bare fact is that he took the only place left from javin. he didn't do it on purpose. but if i were him, i'd feel equally guilty. esp since he'd have felt as though he ought to be out..  maybe the special thing about him.. is that he's one secretive person, with a young appearance, yet looking as though he has alot of story to tell.. as though he's carrying the burden of an old men.. and the complexity of his emotions.. esp his inferior complex about his voice ( such that the judge must once again and again ascertain that his voice is indeed unique.. ) and his chances of being in the competition.. adn most importantly.. i think it's his eyes.. abit like xie jun hao's.. Jia You javin! must come back during the revival rounds.. anw, moving away from them.. i realised that FuKuan like kinda arrogant.. overconfident about his skills. and dunno la.. just that feeling.. that kinda just disgust me.. and Jiajun is out too.. actually she was the girl that i kan hao before they started singing.. but once she started singing, teh.. out liao.. cause all the songs she pick all fast/cheerful.. =X and she keeps smiling to the camera.. maybe it's her cheerful personality or wad.. or i think there's too much smile. and it's not just a smile. it's as though she's abotu to break into laughter.. =X too much for me.. Monday, June 18, 2007 @ 2:16 PM
天下第一。。。 seems like there's some obsession with being number one for shows nowadays.. lolx. following 天下第一，there's another show 天下第一媒婆.. a comedy.. about matchmaker.. again.. lolx.. do shows with matchmakers equates to a funny one? ?_? Anw, got wu jun ru + zeng zhi wei = confirmed and certified funny one.. intially it was really hard to understand what they were saying.. esp wu jun ru.. no subtitle + she was stuttering. luckily she recovered today.lolx. anw, zeng zhi wei haven come up yet.. adn the other cast like quite unknown. at least i haven seen anyone of them yet.. and i kinda mixed the 2 shows up. cause the setting like quite the same. some characters quite the same too, like the princess acting gong zi to roam around the streets.. therefore, i tot that fu fang ling was in that latter show.. -_-" so far both shows quite ok.. =) Sunday, June 17, 2007 @ 6:07 PM
NDP 2007 Song as the song for NDP 2007 plays.. those great old days.. those days of celebrations.. awaiting the concert items.. laughing and cheering.. singing the national day songs.. not forgetting 2005 concert.. where the teachers put up various entertaining items for us.. vividly remember EKK and his japanese song.. Recalling the waves of red and white.. of joy and laughter.. of cohesiveness.. of strong bonds.. of one voice.. of one shared destiny and experience.. 2005.. seemingly a distant figure.. so far away from touch.. and NDP 2002.. months of sweating it out.. practising under the hot sun.. wondering if the steps can ever be perfected.. journeys to the national stadium.. yet all the sweat were all worth it.. the final moment.. of pride, of joy.. and the finale party.. totally an experience that has to be lived, not said to truly experience it.. we will get there.. or have we since left "there"? to feel sore that it is no longer there.. maybe it's good to learn to smile because it once happened.. Friday, June 15, 2007 @ 11:47 AM
她们说 -- Sammi Chueng tot that this song was just a pure sad song when i heard it on radio.. until i saw the lyrics.. appears to be hope within desperation and devastation.. desperation to find that little courage left to feel the hope of love and life.. devastation of the loneliness and uncertainties that lies within.. 她们说 -- Sammi Chueng 这个城市好喧哗 谁肯静下来听听女人说话 爱与被爱都慌 醒和不醒都傻 不就是疯狂换一场牵挂 心裏有个男人始终看不懂的世界 只凴着美丽的直觉 决定这次要爱上谁 女人们啊 别在和感觉冷战 事事非非别退缩爱的勇敢 只要真实过 哪怕最后的结果遗憾 也不怕 也不管 拥抱时心跳多么的乱 就算恋情再短暂 囬忆也要存进去脑海保管记得住曾经温煖 如果还剩一点伤感 时间会冲淡 这个城市好孤单 每个女人全都在学者习惯 得到时有负担 失去後会心寒 覜望着爱情两眼欲穿 当爱不再囬来的夜晚 她们说眼泪总会流干 当突然想起某个片断 她们说放手让它经过别囬头看 女人们啊 别再向理智挑战 对对错错管她们到处流传 真实一次过 哪怕往事会让人心酸 也不怕 也不管 相爱的过程危险狂乱 就算幸福再短暂 囬忆也要放进去脑海保暖 如果爱注定很难 别让自己疲惫不堪 珍惜每一段 Thursday, June 14, 2007 @ 11:07 PM
the liar, the betrayal ge shi zui xiong got me all fired up today.. with the ultimate acting skills of gao shan.. pretending to be good, innocent, simple-minded.. yet plotting against everyone secretly, and cautiously.. and the thing is, the ones whom she want to win their trust over by acting ever so innocent actually trusted her. and the ones who knows she's evil, aka, those whom she wanna harms, can never make others believe in them!! it's such a nonsensical thing la!!!! totally hate this kinda ppl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! act innocent? act pure? HMPH!!! the ones that she wanna harm are those that are seriously innocent la! yet nobody believe in them!! in this case, it's ShiJing.. she so totally didn't like Gao Shan. yet everyone, esp Tian Guang saw her as being jealous and picking on Gao Shan. even though tian guang saw the truth later, it wasn't because he trusted shijing, it's becuase his father from 20yrs ago told him via letter! these are the worst of all people!!!! shijing is so poor thing la!! no only do people not trust her, they think she's lying. wherease it's actually Gao Shan that's the villian, doing all the lying!!!!!!! these kinda ppl simply overstep the border. and by themselves possess the 2 traits that i hated the most! A direct liar. betrayal of others trust in her. and indirectly causing others not to believe in a completely innocent party!!!! totally disgusted.. @ 6:34 PM
hitomi wo tojite hirai ken's hitomi wo tojite.. just a random post.. @ 6:23 PM
friendster spree Yay! internet still working.. keyword = still.. =) went to view my friendster profile just now.. realised that my introduction abit solemn.. so made some minor changes to it.. got a shock when i saw that.. i went "did i write that before?". lolx. maybe different feelings at different times gives rise to different outcomes.. went on a mini friendster spree too.. snooping around other's profile.. just realised how distant i am from some of them.. how time flew.. haix.. the star shines with glamour. yet it also fades away at an alarming rate.. to smile because it once shone? or to cry because it's no longer there? looking back is a painful process, yet it is the key to valuable memories that truly tugs at your heart.. Wednesday, June 13, 2007 @ 4:58 PM
Flower crab mum bought flower crab today!! wahaha.. it has been quite some time since i last ate crab.. yummy! @ 4:53 PM
天下第一 天下第一 not bad a show.. though a bit disorientating.. having seen guo jin an at channel u, followed by him again at channel 8. lolx. the cast quite rojak, though all got quality de.. i still dun get the plot.. maybe cause i miss half the show everytime i watch.. since it starts at 10.30pm, and i'm stil on ge shi zui xiong. =X zhang wei jian is in it too! and it's the first show that i see him in a show, not being the lead. lolx. i think the story is about power struggle in the palace, with comical characters like the princess and guo jin an etc.. @ 4:51 PM
跟踪 跟踪 new show by du qi feng.. featuring Simon Yam and Liang Jia Hui.. Sounds nice.. =) @ 4:25 PM
internet woes brr.. internet prob almost returned again.. fortunately, after restarting com, everything recovered.. *phew* Tuesday, June 12, 2007 @ 7:09 PM
internet finally worked finally my internet worked!!!!! after trying for so long~~~~ reinstalling the driver, changing usb port, etc.. wa finally siah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! after giving me no connection to computer, followed by shutting my com, i reinstalled, and it refused to give me a steady connection.. finally can le.. after so long.. internet here am i back again! *hopes that modem will never ever give me problems again..* and hmph.. i'm left with no time to blog.. =X in fact i'm running 10min overtime of yuan dian.. it's getting nicer.. been waiting for this moment of similar shows.. where the betrayal and hatred sets in. it's the climax.. got to run! @ 5:02 PM
saw this report about ying tao bang today.. the reported asked the type of guys they liked.. seemed like most of them gave the answer that they want someone bad yet guai at the same time.. the line separating bad from guai.. i think the most important thing is about an indivual's style.. a strong personality would be best.. not someone who'd try to fit into the general flow, neither one who'd avoid what everyone else is doing so as not to fit into the general flow.. it's about an individual who has the ability to stand on one's own, without attempts to deliberately fit nor exclude from the rest.. that's an individualistic personality.. Monday, June 11, 2007 @ 11:58 PM
CSS performance hee hee.. finaly saw all the performance of CSS.. at first i tot i'd be either rooting for zijie or javin.. but zijie turned out to be such a clown. lolx. even my mum said he looked rather sissy doing the movements on stage.. i tot the same for guohua.. too over le. and i realise that tall, skinny guys that attempts to dance or do exaggerated movements tend to look a bit gay.. javin's performance wasn't particularly wow, but still steady.. at least he chose a slow, sad song.. in fact, when he first started singing, i tot it was Andy Lau.. not in terms of his performance, but his vocal range and the deepness of his voice.. i think he should choose his song next time.. lolx.. as usual, the girls all appear so-so to me.. maybe i'd wish for jiaxuan to win? after all, she didn't seem to be act-act.. @ 4:55 PM
Dumpling making learnt how to make dumpling from my mum today!! =) can;t really say i mastered it. but somehow, i can get the shape out. not that perfect shape, but roughly there la.. haha.. didn't take photo though.. =X hands too wet.. and i'm still confused about the tying part.. my mum said something like you need to have 2 角, but the thing is, i dunno how to identify the two crucial jiao.. haha.. and the dumplings i made are rather mini. i was exclaiming the the entire thing is gonna fall apart throughout the whole process of mkaing lorx.. =) but quite fun la.. =) Sunday, June 10, 2007 @ 4:28 PM
Live prawns! Wee~ got live prawns to eat.. haha.. NTUC recently got this tank with live seafood in it.. maybe to compete with Seng Siong ba. =)  Some are still alive and kicking!was playing with the prawns and doing the silliest of things, eg. holding onto the prawn as it tries to swim away, onyl to let go and seeing it "bang" the opposite side of the container. lolx.  Hee.. cooked prawns.. tastes really fresh. the shell comes off readily. =)Friday, June 08, 2007 @ 4:58 PM
CSS: Jia Qi and Xu Bin re-watched lai jia qi's performance @CSS.. it wasn't that bad.. and i just realised that 本来 is a very nice and touching song.. about how one didn't treasure what one had, until one loses it.. and regrets it terribly.. seeing the past as mere matters of the past, never to return.. the past.. the past.. and Xu Bin really dun have strong vocals.. but the things that stings me is his pronunciation.. certain words a bit weird. and it spoils the atmosphere of the song.. @ 4:55 PM
Dumpling Festivals went for the preparation of Dumpling Festivals these 2 days.. we were hoping to get some chance at hands-on with the dumplings.. but turned out we had to do some door-to-door interactions with the residents.. leaving the sec sch students to do the dumplings.. sigh.. Today's was more fun than yesterday. maybe cause it wasn't such a chore.. at least dun need to knock at every single door.. and it's quite fun to act santa claus, and give away the dumplings.. the art of giving.. finally got to go to Blue Max at Bedok.. the cds there quite limited. and somehow the version abit weird. doesn't seem like the original version, not that it's pirated though.. some are obviously cheap but others are only so-so.. lolx.. tired.. i guess that's my last LEO activity le ba.. sigh.. it seems that everything is ending.. one by one.. @ 11:18 AM
Goodbye Sci Co.. just sent my final email to the teachers-in-charge of scico chem.. there's this weird feeling as i typed in the subject, final sci co matters.. not exactly sad.. not really disappointment.. it's just a type of feeling that you get upon realisation that the end has come.. that that is really the last email that i will be sending to them.. when sending emails in the past, it seems like alot of hard work. having to prepare the doc, making sure everything is in place.. but somehow everything seems to have just ended with that last email.. as i introduced the new in-charge and made that final thank you words.. nothing seems terribly significant when you're in the process of doing it. it is only during the aftermath of anything, do you realise the significance of magnitude of it all.. maybe it's just the perspective.. coupled with the 3 midi files playing now on my com.. i thikn the atmosphere it really the one.. the past is always so valuable and precious.. precisely because it is the past, never to be returned.. Wednesday, June 06, 2007 @ 11:23 PM
class outing had a "class gathering" today.. not exactly class gathering.. it's a 3+1 thingy.. woke up later than the meeting time.. 11.30am.. so in the end, the outing started like 1pm. lolx.. it's kinda saddening.. we're still a class now, but it's already that difficult to get half of us involved in the gathering.. and maybe towards the end of the year, only 1 wil turn up for the gathering.. that is individually appearing at some point in time and space, each living our own life and pursuing our own independent dreams.. anw.. wanted to go IT fair.. but it took us so long to realise that it ended like 3rd june. aka, we actually went all the way to the exhibition hall, and read the noticeboard, and finally realised that.. lolx..  some weird-looking guy at Raffles Shopping centre. lolx.so we just went around aimlessly shopping.. and seriously, i have no idea where i am. i just know i'm in the city hall region, with no idea what the name of the mall is. and we seem to be moving from malls to malls, and the thing is i dunno where exactly we are moving.. -_-" the best part? haha.. playing FREE games at Courts. or some electronic shop. there's this section which allows you to play games. started off with quake 4, which kinda lagged. and it's not exactly the same as what i played before. it's increasingly like CS. then played this weird game that the guy can do nothing but to swim and jump.. -_-" in the end played dynasty warrior. Fun siah! the only thing is that.. i have 0 sense of direction. most of the time, i'm running into my base when i actually intend to seek enemy and fight them. lolx. and there's this funny thing that happened halfway thru.. we were looking for bao.. and suddenly the others just laughed like crazy. and i didn't know what was going on. and they told me they're looking for the bao. and i stil dunno what's so funny about that. then later after we left, i finally knew what happened. above us, there's a tv showing someone playing that weird game i mentioned earlier. and for some weird reason, that person was carrying a car in water and running. lolx!! sounds comical. but they didn't tell me straight away cause they knew i'd laugh non-stop uncontrollably, and that'd give the cat away. lolx. had pepperlunch for dinner. so contradictory and arupt change of topic. oh wells, nvm. quite nice la. but the chicken was barely there. the whole plate was like just rice with peas. lolx. nonetheless, it's nice i must say. though it's more of a fried rice kinda thign.. treasure before you lose it.. @ 1:05 AM
Stepping down from Sci Co sci co camp.. and hand over.. mixed feelings.. relieved yet there's just this feeling that something is gonna be missing.. the work has become somewhat a part of my life.. rushing out proposals, coming up with plans and schedules, stressing over attendence, meetings, liaising with teachers, contacting people, and even sometimes working up till 3am at night.. not forgetting the moments when plans just fell through, all the hard work and effort just transformed into nothingness in that split seconds. that disappointment, that feelings of being crushed and defeated.. the sense of powerless to do anything.. the self criticism and mockery of my incompetency.. all these didn't sound all that exciting.. fun.. nor intereseting.. yet maybe life and memories isn't all about that beauty and fairy tale like senarios. it's that bits and pieces of rough times that forms your memories and somehow, they're just your experiences and memories. they're part of you. good or bad, it's still you.. maybe till that final moment, it was still filled with disappointments.. but they're all valuable memories.. working with the rest.. we had moments of jokes, or tensed situation, of stress, of deadlines, of brain-deadness.. it's not bout whether the content was good or bad.. it's the fact that we all went through the same thing that makes that something special.. maybe we didn't feel it at that moment, but as we reflect.. i guess all of us would see things this way.. to live in the past is better than living in the present.. to know the future during the past about the present.. would it make us treasure the present past and leave even precious memories for the future? Anw.. i think the next EXCO will be a potential bunch of ppl.. and although not all the year 2s turn up.. it's still joyful to see that few of us gathering together as sci co members for the last time.. it's the last time.. and i didn't realise it till now.. and.. we'd just fade away from each other's life slowly.. did things really not matter? or is it just a sad tragedy of a lie that nothing matters anymore?  the evening scene..  random sandcastle.. @ 1:02 AM
psychometric test had this psychometric test today.. there was just one thing that striked me as i did the 2nd half of the test, which is the personality test.. i chance upon this question.. "Ever had the experience that you should have said something, yet you didn't?" simply stunned.. not because of the question.. but 2 years ago.. the agony of doing 500 reflective questions.. that had almost the whole audi in tears.. flashbacks in bits and pieces. yet the effect of a moment might beat that of a lifetime.. Sunday, June 03, 2007 @ 10:59 AM
ccs2 Hmmms.. campus superstar 2 seems quite exciting.. and the contestants do look like they got the potential.. and the real thing has barely been screened on TV, yet there's so many scandals running around already.. hee hee.. i think there's one guy who has been recognized for his voice.. as being somehwat in between eason chen and jacky chueng.. hmmmz.. @ 10:56 AM
sick *sick* but not really very sick.. Hope that my throat infection is not back. =X Friday, June 01, 2007 @ 4:59 PM
monty python: the holy grail some interesting quotes from monty python: the holy grail.. what do you do to a witch? burn it. what else do you burn? wood. What other characteristics that wood has? it floats. what else floats? Duck. therefore, if someone weighs the same as a duck, it is made of wood, and is thus a witch. so we should burn that someone. Oops. seems like that's the only one i rmb. got short term memory siah. but some of the illogical "logic" arguments were rather interesting. lolx. |
