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Sunday, November 29, 2009 @ 2:51 PM
it's org chem Been "chiong org chem" days recently. Just feeling random suddenly.  Borrowed the Rankine Engine TS diagram (Though I believe this is a vapour-compression refrigeration. okies doesn't matter). It seems that the endless permutation of possibilities in org chem is making us go from 1 --> 4, where the information is being pumped into our memory. Along the way, we pass through the saturation line (green) and our brains become overheated (superheated vapour). Finally, when state 1 is reached, we realise that we've been under too high a pressure. During exams, we move from 1 --> 2; PT doesn't change but info is converted from one form to another. At the end of exams, we go from state 2 --> 3 - the cool down period to low pressure level without a change of energy state (which has been converted from anxiety to excitement). Well, 3 --> 4 can represent the 13 weeks of school then - getting heated up but nowhere near saturation nor high T/P. :D I recall a scene from 雀圣 (I think..) where 郭晋安 was trying to cultivate friendship with his tiles so that his "friends" will appear whenever he wants them to. Lol we should all be friends with our "tools" so that they can come easily during exams. "DBN, DBU, DMSO, NBS, -OC(CH3)3, R-MgX, LiR2Cu, TsOH, pyridine, Ph3P=CR2, etc. Come o come!" The chemistry with Chemistry Labels: Random Wednesday, November 25, 2009 @ 10:05 AM
蔡健雅-拋物線 蔡健雅-拋物線 人们虚假又造作 我们用真心就不会有差错 世上月圆月缺 只是错觉 Tuesday, November 24, 2009 @ 11:27 PM
零碎的反省 突然之间做了些反省。 觉得自己一直被“自己”禁锢了。想太多，再想想太多，就这样一层层的顾虑与犹豫把思想封死了。很多时候，想做却再想想“想做”的后果，最后原地踏步，什么决定也没做出。 自己很知觉或不知觉地避开所有“虚假”的行为。最后太极端的想法/要求或许只会令自己活在压抑之下。我已对“虚假”做出了定义，而自己只会死板的为了“不想虚伪”而躲开“虚伪”，哪怕有些被列为“虚伪”的行为或许是我当时真的想做的事。从“蔡健雅-拋物線”断章取义地用这一段歌词“我们用真心就不会有差错”。我必须学会找寻自己，做自己的自己。 自己也习惯性的对其他人冷冷淡淡或是忽冷忽热。总觉得客套话情愿不说，酒肉朋友不要也罢。今天在考场上有些人跟我打招呼。不算熟，但再想想，有谁不是从“不熟”开始？他们的好意，换来的是我的尴尬回应或甚至回避。说穿了，只是自己的社交能力低。有时会想，要是打招呼别人没回应怎么办，打个招呼过后不知该说什么怎么办等等，因此甘愿选择逃避。简单的选择，但只是缺乏努力的征兆。 自己有的“性格”原来只不过是个避风港，是种懦弱的行为。花木兰：“逃避不能解决问题，害怕只会使得我们更懦弱。”该是勇敢学习的时候了！这两天里做了些突破自己的举动。虽微不足道，也没什么大事，但却代表着我将会打开自己心灵枷锁的第一步。我对自己承诺，我一定会战胜自己的。 Labels: Reflection @ 10:15 PM
偶尔 张韶涵-偶尔 偶尔很开心 偶尔却下雨 偶尔有偶尔 Labels: Music @ 7:30 PM
Sarah Connor - Just One Last Dance Sarah Connor - Just One Last Dance Just one last dance....oh baby...just one last dance We meet in the night in the Spanish café I look in your eyes just don't know what to say It feels like I'm drowning in salty water A few hours left 'til the sun's gonna rise tomorrow will come an it's time to realize our love has finished forever how I wish to come with you (wish to come with you) how I wish we make it through Chorus: Just one last dance before we say goodbye when we sway and turn round and round and round it's like the first time Just one more chance hold me tight and keep me warm cause the night is getting cold and I don't know where I belong Just one last dance The wine and the lights and the Spanish guitar I'll never forget how romantic they are but I know, tomorrow I'll lose the one I love There's no way to come with you it's the only thing to do Chorus 3x (until fade) Just one last dance, just one more chance, just one last dance @ 10:04 AM
moving on There's a thought that's been bothering me these few days. Partially inspired by the waiting period for exams actually. It seems that there's this unknown force driving the occurrence of events. Feels as though certain things that you knew will be happening yet it hasn't happened will happen and soon finish happening. Thinking of this linearly in time makes the whole issue trivial and brainless. Now the disturbing part is, why does this have to be so? Somewhat like the question of 1 + 1 = 2 (duh?!) but why is that so isn't all that apparent except that it has to be that way. In fact, I've lost track of how things are able to proceed. Why are things proceeding? Even more disturbing is the fact that we are moving on because time is moving on, but the facts of life should be independent of time isn't it? So what exactly is moving on? The most disturbing part of having all these thoughts is that, I dunno where I am - why am I there then and here now? Why is there this sense of continuity even though I can't pinpoint what's the thing that's continuous? Are we really moving on? What does proceed mean? What exactly is happening when we "move on"? :S  Labels: thoughts Monday, November 23, 2009 @ 5:41 PM
To Ask or Not to Ask So malu!! I actually raised my hands during the exam to ask the invigilator (who is my tutor. was waiting for her to be "around" lol. nice person wahaha.) a qn. haha trying to clarify some doubt in the qn that was asking to calculate something when there's no numbers anywhere. And it's actually due to my own concept error (I actually knew it's my own fault.. cuz when studying the various theories, i merely understood them, but nv note the specific names of the theory. so when the qn gave the name only, i was wondering which model it actually represent. lol) but anyhows, even though she din ans whether "calculate" means give "numerical value", it simply meant yes and i conveniently chose the "correct model" after all. *phew* 10% of the marks of the whole course wor. Even though i got the notations wrong after all (nv memorise), but at least the workings and arguments are correct ba (got understand the stuff de wor) fortunately (so im not alone) or unfortunately (not a good sign), there were so many ppl asking about this qn that the lecturer finally had to make an announcement that there's nothing wrong with the question. haha.. And it's my first time raising my hands to ask qn during exams i think. usually when there's obvious error, i simply correct them on my own and let the invigilator announce later on. otherwise i'd just take it that the difficulty im having is due to my lack of understanding of the materials. haha. so conclusion.. still very malu to raise hands! but im glad i did la, better than regretting not doing that right? And my macro econs module is officially deactivated in IVLE :( oh mans the lecturer is super efficient. he also sent a final email to all of us, which i tot was a very good conclusion to the whole module. Actually, I think I really enjoyed all (well almost) my modules this sem, even though it sounds mad. Sad that they're all coming to an end :( And I think I'm enjoying school the way I did years ago. It's the same "feel". Saturday, November 21, 2009 @ 10:32 AM
Singtel Christmas Sales *grrr* I should have waited. Singtel Christmas Sales is amazing :O Could have gotten W705 at this sales instead. impulse purchase certainly doesn't make sense Tuesday, November 17, 2009 @ 11:55 AM
Timeless Time The time on my desktop and the clock in my com room ain't working, alongside with the time on my radio. I never knew how reliant I was on time until eg. now, when the time on my com reads 7.58am.  Time is actually an abstract concept which gives meaning to when It's arbitrary, in the sense that we can peg it against anything or any time reference (just that we don't) It's a relative concept, that is, relative to reality. Yet it seems to be working the other way round instead. Is it the time that matters? Or what went on during the time that matters? Seems like time has gone beyond its inherent form as time. I wonder what the world will be like without time, that is, even without another arbitrary system of (another) time to replace the time that we know. Don't be quick to conclude that coordinate will fail. It's hard to visualise how things might turn out to be without it when it has always been with us. Yet how about if it never did existed? Labels: thoughts Sunday, November 15, 2009 @ 6:31 PM
感同身受 林宥嘉 感同身受 今天的生肖运程：所谓“舍得”，即舍的越多，得到的也会更多。人要懂得放开胸襟，凡是以平常心看待。 Labels: Music Friday, November 13, 2009 @ 8:37 PM
Last day of school Just One Last Dance is stuck in my head. Today's the last day of school :( The sem ended just like that! I think that many of the lecturers deserve the applause we gave. It's just a small gratifying act that probably goes a long way in reassuring them that we appreciate their efforts and guidance. Acknowledging the fact that lecturers/tutors are no longer the same as the term "teachers" that I've grown used to over the past 12 years, I gradually see a thin overlapping region between the two. The former is somewhat distant with less personal touch, yet it really isn't all that different. We talk about the "high up there" feeling we get from them, yet I wonder if it's a lonely path for them too being "high up there". I wonder how the lonely path that we all have to take someday looks like.. Sometimes the distant strangers feel more real.. Anyway, I've been thinking about many recurring events and how the classical sentence (to me) in Healing Hands 3 - 没有用的 fits in. It's not difficult to see why it's useless, it's tough to live through it but the hardest part is to accept the phrase for what it really means and not just agree with what circumstances dictate. There's no point. Monday, November 09, 2009 @ 11:59 PM
Welcome to the Big 2. Thanks to everyone who remembered, cared and made the effort! Truely appreciate all the well-wishes, celebrations, presents and most importantly, the sincerity :D Thurs - Lunch with uni kakis @ Sukiyaki (or Genki Sushi) @ YIH.  Sat - Lunch with JC kakis @ Sakae Teppanyaki @ Bugis.    Mon - Lunch with CC @ The Deck.  And also everyone who left a msg on my wall or/and wished me via sms, thanks! :D Enjoyed myself! Actually I felt rather apprehensive about the onset of the Big 2 and now, it still feels weird. Haha but putting the numbers aside, the me today isn't very much different from the me yesterday. Time flies.. The sec 3s that I saw during my RT stint have started on their O-levels. And I'm about to end my Year 2 Sem 1 too.. @ 6:59 AM
20 years on... Today marks the 20th anniversary of the fall of Berlin Wall.  It was a physical barrier between East and West Germary, with its greater ideological significance with respect to the polarization of the world order during the Cold War era. The once-feared wall now holds another message for the people - one of hope, of liberation, of freedom after much struggles.Friday, November 06, 2009 @ 5:58 PM
Happy for weird reason Yay! Super happy for a weird and -.- reason.. It's not the end of thermody module = there'd still be lecture on Fri = I won't be travelling all the way to school on Fri just for 2hrs of English (aka spending 2-8pm travelling plus in school). Now that my ratio of time spent meaningful in school to time travelling has increased, I feel better knowing that I still have to come to school on Fri. lol. And the thing that makes me even happier is that.. I hadn't expected him to not finish the module today. With little expectation, but still holding onto some hope, it's twice the joy knowing that what I wished to see coming true. :D And what makes me really happy is... ?? Yes, it's weird. P.S. I was randomly visiting Flashforward's fan page on fb and decided to include my random thoughts in this post filled with weirdness. After watching 4 episodes, I was thinking, are the flashforwards real? Are they indicative of the future, or but merely tools to make people live by the future, thus altering their present decision and changing the ultimate future? Eg #1: The would-be custom officer was slacking away at home, thinking he'd be a custom officer after all in 6 months' time. Would that result in him not achieving his dream job then? Eg #2: Demetri knew he'd be dead 6 months later, thus resulting in his recklessness in trying to uncover the truth. Eg #3: Olivia saw herself having an affair with another guy 6 months from now, which shakened the trust they had in each other. Would the affair had taken place, had she not seen the flashforward, that is, if they hadn't lost faith in each other? Eg #4: That les police agent. If she hadn't seen herself pregnant 6 months later, would she have broken up with her girlfriend? Anyway, I thought Singapore's just one week behind US in the telecasting, but apparently Wiki has got more info up than I've expected. Stumbled upon some spoilers, which fortunately were within my own prediction so I didn't really spoil the show for myself. Wednesday, November 04, 2009 @ 4:45 PM
Some good, some bad, some weird Cleared my Oral Defence! :D It was pretty alright and casual. wee~ I think i either twisted a joint/pulled a nerve in school today. There was a sharp pain when i walked down the stairs, which I thought was temporary. It still feels funny now. *oops* signs of ageing. :O Recieved a weird call yesterday. Me: Hello? Caller: 喂，你收到了吗？(Voice wasn't anyone that i know.) Me: 收到什么？ Caller: 照片。 (*I hung up call*) Doesn't it sound like some typical blackmail phonecalls you see on tvs? O.o Left me pondering for hours. Nonetheless, I was glad I hung up the call rather than entertain the caller further. I'm pretty sure that it's a scam call, probably to threaten me into remitting some money somewhere . Adding on to the list, I had calls about.. Court case x2, lucky draw winner x1, invited guest to dunno what x1. *yawns* I wonder how this scam will work though.. |