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Wednesday, May 31, 2006 @ 10:08 PM
Singapore idol piano show Just watched Singapore Idol. Alright, it was ok la, though i'm not too inclined towards English music. But it was rather heart-lightening to know that almost half of them sang "old" english songs, those that i know of.. haha.. Hmm. I had a super bad impression of Paul Twohill who had this weird hairstyle, but i must admit that his voice is super good. haha. Actually i wasn't paying attention to anyone performing, just listening. But this voice suddenly came alive and i was attracted to that voice. Very nice I must say.. But the first one to give me a good impression was Janson ( do you spell it this way?? ) haha.. Maybe cause he sang an emotional piece? Anw, Johnathan seem a bit act cool, but his voice ok la. haha.. So glad to hear dancing in the moonlight and drops of jupiter.. ^_^ THis love was perfomed so badly lorx.. haha.. @ 3:34 PM
Shows on Saturday.. Can't believe that Xian Jian Qi Xia ZHuan just ended like this.. It's actually a very nice philosophical show that sets one thinking.. Lots of reflection point.. And the main thing is that everything is improbable, nothing is definite. That's the fun part. You define the way you want to see things.. Somehow, i guess it still can't beat MDWAV.. Lolx.. MDWAV had a deep impact on my subconscious mind for 8 years.. The new show isn't that nice.. Just those same old plot of royal families fighting etc.. Oh ya, wei xian ren wu is so SO boring.. And i tot i saw MDWAV casts.. Apparently it was but an illusion.. Maybe cause it was an ATV production ba, that's y i tot i saw them. haha.. It started off well.. But the cases are getting less and less interesting.. -_-" Now i see why MDWAV is ATV's mega production.. Cause the rest that i've seen so far don't really make use of technology nor sophisticated plots.. haha.. @ 3:31 PM
Sha Po Lang Listening to sha po lang currently.. Dunno why.. there's just this entanglement of mixed feelings rushing thru me now.. This song is really nice.. Because of the lyrics and the mystifying effect of the tune.. Fear yet anticipation.. Sunday, May 28, 2006 @ 2:08 PM
School HOliday starts!! Wahaha.. Mua is so happy!! I just went to Ms Neo's "Blog" ( more like a forum.. ).. And guess wad?!?!?! I saw this entry by dunno who, talking about MDWAV 3!!! I'm so proud of this student!! Weee~~~~ haha.. There was this entry about sleeping. And he/she rmbered the scene where Ma Da Long din sleep for 30 years!!!! ^_^ Lolx. Only the downside is that he/she sort of took it for real.. Anw, June Holiday start liaoz!!!!! Wee!!!! Finally.. the long awaited holiday.. I'm so gonna go out and shop with mua friends manz.. Just that first two week gonna be quite packed.. 1st week all gone, 2nd week got PDP camp too.. I'm so glad my 2 PDPs din clash with each other.. haha.. H3.. I seriously wanna take NUS H3.. But at the same time, suddenly Physics H3 interests me suddenly ( who ask me to go read its syllabus. ).. But i guess, i'd stil go ahead with Chemistry H3 ba.. That is, if i'm offered the chance to do the H3.. However, to do NUS H3, it means 4hrs at NUS every week. And travelling all the way to NUS so super duper long.. and till now, i stil dunno where it is. lolx. Plus, i was doing some researching on Chemistry Faculty, and i realised alot is on organic.. I wonder where can i do Physical chem.. NTU does offer material science, but somehow, i just prefer to go to NUS.. And suddenly i realise that being in Triple science class deprives you of some choices, in some sense, ironically.. although you're sup to have 1 more subject and be at an advantage. haha. Cause it's so obvious that you're such a science person and by default, you have already defined my future career to be based in the science arena. Lolx, and i dun intend to become a doctor.. haha.. >.< Plus, you dun have that excessive time to pursue other things in college, with al the packed timetable.. But haha.. anw, it doesn't really matter to me la.. since i'm sure i'm gonna head in the science route already.. ^_^ LEO rocks man.. Dunno why, i suddenly just wanna say this.. haha.. It's so fun, enriching.. and you can help others out.. >.< So missing TMS.. Praying for class gathering real soon.. Hopefully in TMS itself, where at least the feeling of the good old days would be back.. Tuesday, May 23, 2006 @ 8:26 PM
Jiu Wu Zhi Jun memories Was organising songs in MP3 and com when i happened to see jiu wu zhi jun songs.. Brought back old memories of the show.. Somehow i can't rmb the details of the show.. But the feelings that the songs evoked is real and solid and there.. Maybe it's just Jiang Hua's singing that's touching.. Maybe.. Things have never been the same, and will never be the same as before... Sunday, May 21, 2006 @ 2:07 PM
New resolution in life I have come to a decision and this time for real. I won't let my determination waver this time.. I realised that up to this point in my life, I have always been living in this little shell of mine. Scared of things, fearful of everything.. Actually,fear is but a mere form of self-denial and escapism. In order to overcome myself, I have to overcome all these.. Thus, from now onwards, i will try my very best to overcome all sorts of fear as well as feeling of restraints. Express what i feel sincerely and be daring. Also, stop living in a world of self-denial. Stay focussed to watever the task might require of me and give in my best. Not to find excuse for anything i do. DOn't waste unnecessary time. Expect complete development in JC. Grab all opportunities that I want. Don't find excuse for myself. Lead a meaningful life and be a changed all-rounders at the end of JC life. Take care of academic, PDPs, leadership training, interpersonal skills etc well. Be myself, and live a world defined by me myself. Because i believe, it can be.. Believe and it can be, don't believe and it can't be. That's the key to everything. Determination, is not a factor to be undermined.. Sunday, May 14, 2006 @ 3:19 PM
Ending of XIan Jian Qi Xia Zhuan Ah.. Yesterday was the end of Xian Jian Qi Xia Zhuan.. How do i say? Yes, i'd agree that it's a show that left some impression in me, however, the last episode was somehow disappointing? Before i start off with anything, let me make a comparison b/w Xian Jian and MDWAV.. 1) Ending. Both endings were sort of open endings, with thinking space for the viewers.. In XJ: "Do you understand?" In MDWAV, "believe and i'd survive, don't believe and i won't survive" 2) The "baddies". Striking similiar thinking b/w the two "baddies". In MDWAV, we have Fate. In XJ, we have Shi Jie Ren.. Their indulgence in disappointment with mankind and constant search of love only to find out that they were always in a state of self-denial. 3) The triangle love. In MDWAV, we have Tian You, Xiao Ling and ZHen ZHen. In XJ, we have LIng'er, Yue Ru and XIao Yao. Of which, Tian You and XIao Yao had a duty to save Earth. XIao Ling and Ling'er had power bestowed upon them to remove evil. Zhen Zhen and Yue're being commoner who loved Tian You and Xiao Yao respectively with all their heart. 4) The 3 realms. In MDWAV, we have deity ( pangu tribe ), humans, and hell. in XJ, we have devil, deity, and humans. 5) The philosophical touch to the show. 6) Killing of the one you love most. In MDWAV, we have BuPo saying "I loved her, therefore i had to kill her". In XJ, we have XIao Yao encouraging Ling'er to die so that he will be the only one left to suffer. 7) Sacrifices to be made to kill the Baddie. in MDWAV, Lord Dizang offered himself to be Fuxi arrow to destroy Fate, also JianTou and company become Ma Dragon. In XJ, Tangyu XiaoBao and Ah Nu were converted to lovebirds in an attempt to unleash the greatest power of Earth from the pendant. 8) Determination. In MDWAV, we have Ma DaLong who survived decades beyond his death time just by sheer determination to protect Xiao Hu. In XJ, we have Ling'er who had incurred great internal injury but yet held on in order to fulfil her promise to Xiao Yao. "i will not die.." 9) Time travel. It was utilised in both shows.. Alright, there's some more similarity b/w the two shows, but i can't rmb offhand, and i think that's quite a lot to be listed already.. Originally, i was quite pleased that there's such a show that's so alike MDWAV.. But after the final episode, i realised that there's far too much similarity and overlapping of plot.. which leadds to me thinking if some ideas behind MDWAV had been borrowed and used in the XJ show.. Anw, back to the show. Yes, everyone died, except for Xiao Yao.. SIgh.. Actually i prefer the original game version where everyone died except for Yue Ru lorx.. Bai Yue finally realised that love has always been around him, since his godfather had always shown him care and concern. However, he was the one who gave it up, and held strongly to his sceptical viewpoint of the world.. Finally, the power unleashed by the true lovers of Ah Nu and Tang Yu diminished his resolution, and the boundless love executed by Xiao Yao eventually lead to his destruction.. Qi was severly injured by Bai Yue and died later on from his injuries as his intent of infiltrating Moon Worshipping Sect has been discovered. Ah Nu and Tang Yu became a pair of love bird, to share an eternity together, after making a wish upon the two pendant.. Yue Ru has died previously.. sigh.. Ling'er in defeating water monster, has suffered severe internal injuries, and later on, dies in the embracement of Xiao Yao.. Xiao Yao is the sole survivor of the main characters.. The ending showed him carrying Yi'ru, his daughter with Ling'er, walking towards Master of Shu Shan.. the master looked shocked, patted Xiao Yao's head.. and xiao Yao asked him "Do you understand?".. The show then ended.. i think the part of the show i liked most was when they were showing the love b/w a demon and this HK actor and how he was enlightened eventually.. that was the climax of the show, i think.. Just like MDWAV, where ShengMu virus was the most exciting part of the show.. BOth shows had endings that somehow were overshadowed by previous plots leading to the ending.. The "Do you understand" made many ppl confused. Even I was taken aback.. But if it's meant to be an open ending, i have some explanation for it.. 1) Asking the audience. DO you understand? Hve you gotten your own enlightenment? Do you know wad's love? 2) Literally asking the Master do you understand wad's love? After you have pondered for so long on Shu Shan, what have you been enlightened. And is your enlightenement true enlightment. In another words, scorning Tao and the master's obstinence in searching for his Way. If he had love 10 yrs back, such calamity would have been averted.. So what is his way after all? 3) Do you understand why i let Ling'er died? 4) Do you understand the pain i am feeling now? Alright, there's many interpretation, which is why i kinda liked this part of the ending.. ANd i realised, many ppl are askign for XJ 2. Lolx. I doubt it'd be the case la. With only Xiao Yao surviving? Anw, i dun wan XJ 2.. give me MDWAV 4 or re-telecast of MDWAV 2.. Friday, May 12, 2006 @ 11:28 PM
Psychology and Past entries Gonna be a selection test for those taking pyschology.. And it's actually a reflective write-up based on my Big 5 Profile.. haha.. Which actually means.. 1) Get back to my past blog entry. 2) Copy and paste 3) Make necessary changes. 4) Hand in.. Haha.. By stroke of luck, i happened to have written my thoughts about the report in my blog. So just gotta recycle everything.. ^_^ *Glads* But anw, competition's tough. Hundred over ppl fighting for just 10-18 places for the elective. Which means that my chances of getting it will be low.. haha.. but nvm, at least i'd have tried.. Whilst searching for the entry, i probed further and looked at my previous posts.. Esp those from Aug 2005.. Since they hold my memories of Jiu Wu Zhi Jun.. haha. And i realised that my style of writing has improved, at least to me.. Lolx. Last time i sounded really -leh -lah -loh.. And sometimes i really can't comprehand wad i was trying to bring across.. and my para wasn't separated well, leading to some wrong linkage of ideas.. haha.. Plus, basically, my entries nowadays mainly explore the realm of human mind and the mystery of the universe, rather than just simply a write-up on my everyday life.. In all living entities, there lies a good and a bad.. The worse things get, the better it is.. The balance of the paradoxes of life.. @ 12:02 AM
Evil Vs Good It seems that i often share the same thinking as the most hateful characters in ideological-based shows, eg. MDWAV and Xian Jian.. First, it was Fate.. I rmb before i was completely immersed in MDWAV 3, and began my fanatical in-depth research on the show, I posted many entries in my blog regarding how disappointing humans are.. And later on, Fate expressed the same view as I did.. Later on, in Xian Jian, there's this character that evoked fear in everyone that sees him. his ability to brainwash ppl and all.. Bai Yue.. He has ideology that are deemed as evil by the ppl, but yet he claims that he is being misunderstood by the ppl.. The striking similiarity b/w these two cases is that whilst i celebrate their ideology, i loathe the two characters at the same time.. Actually, their ideology basically reveals the fundamental weakness and problems present in humans. However, their way of bringing across this idea is not widely accepted by the civilians. But if we were to think back, doesn't everything all trace back to one thing? Humans. If humans lived in harmony and loved each other, showed care and concern for each other, why would some even turn to such extreme ideologies and create chaos in society? If their minds were pure, how would the so-called "evil" penetrate through the strong threshold and attack their basic principles? Indeed, Bai Yue is merely trying to prove himself correct.. he wants to see love in the world. He needs to test this out.. But he ends up in disappointment each time.. Fate creates and destroys civilisation one after another, in search of the perfect one.. However, he ends up disappointed with every race he creates.. Why is that so? It's because nothing can be perfect. Maybe their perfectionist thinkings are driving them too far and leading them to extremist ideas.. But still, the conclusion is that the world isn't perfect. So what's wrong with them trying to prove this statement, with a bit of hope that maybe there reside a perfect world somewhere? Here, i'm not trying to blame the imperfectness within the universe, but i'm just trying to rationalise the thinking behind the 2 characters.. From another point of view.. We deem ourselves as the good, always looking for the bad and punishing them.. However, for them, they see themselves as good ( though always misunderstood as having ill intent of malice ), don't believe in goodness in the world, but are always constantly in search of beauty in the universe.. So do they have a sceptical view of the world, or is it just humans that tends to place too much emphasis on clear distinction between black and white, evil and good? Evil does harm to others, or does it simply reveals fundamental problems pre-existing in society? Are good always positive, or does it just symbolises a stop point to pin-point out the bad? Thursday, May 11, 2006 @ 11:57 PM
The Flame of MDWAV Ah.. Searching for MDWAV stuff online.. The best thing about this show is that.. It's not a show that just die out after its screening is over. Instead, it is a show that can evoked the deepest feelings in oneself, leading to the spirit of the show burning as passionately as before.. Even till now, 13, the scripwriter of the show still responds to questions from fans. It is not a show that is absolute and definite. it's a show full of why? And you have to keep thinking.. Plus, you are just so close to the actors, actress, director, scripwriter etc. They feel so near to you.. Though the story plot might seems a bit off reality ( maybe a lot off.. ), but the support behind the show is real and the ideology behind the show truely reflects reality, even if the physical aspect might be totally deviating from reality.. So much satisfaction derived from visiting the website.. Ah.. The show that goes on forever.. and MDWAV 4 has a high chance of being shown and chances are that Joey and Eric will still be starring in it.. ^_^ @ 7:11 PM
Sad society arAh.. End of the tiring week and the start of yet another long weekend! haha.. Just 2 more weeks to end of term, which is effectively translated into just 8 days! But the bad news is.. In this 8 days, we'd be spending 4 days on test.. Of which one is directly linked to A-level. That is Physics SPA. Then we have Bio Mock SPA, Chem test and Bio test. ah.. Anw, on a more positive note.. I realised that in JC, every effort that you put in really counts a lot.. I think JC is indeed a more accurate representation of one's intelligence and capability in contrast to Sec Sch. it really puts your brain through rigour training and challenges and I believe that at the end of the day, i'd really learn alot more.. Like, during sec sch life.. Who would actually bother to read the newspaper, even every once and then only? Who would bother about the world at large? To most students, it's just going out, shopping, entertainment, etc.. Maybe in some sense, we are maturing and i sound as though i approve of this change. Well, I would agree that this change is making us more sensible as we become more sensitive to global issues. On the other hand, I'm actually quite sadden at how society eventually decides on the future fate of the ppl.. FOr instance.. In sec sch, we see ppl slacking, playing, enjoying.. Suddenly in JC, they do study.. Why is that so? To a small extent, maybe they want to do well. But to a larger extent, it's due to the pressure of society. There's this template which dictates the behaviour of JC students, eg. be more independent and mature. Thus, it is this unknown forces that's propelling them to assume the current situation that they are in. Whether it is in their inherent nature or whatsoever, it's still an unknown factor with no concrete conclusion.. It'd be fun to see ppl with a spectrum of differing inherent characters. But the sad thing is, society is defining each and everyone of us in a rather stereotyped manner. Perhaps there's shades of differences in ppl, but the underlying purpose etc, have all been generalised to fit the society.. Is this a good thing? Or is this not? *Sigh, tot of some things to say on the blog, but when i finally log in, i forgotten about wad i wanted to say.. Some add-ons to my theory of after-life.. To be as one with the Way, is to accept things as they come along, not to fight against them.. The ultimate question of all.. Monday, May 08, 2006 @ 6:38 PM
New show on Channel 8 Yest was the last episode of Xing Yuan 2. I'm quite sure i watched the Xing Yuan 1 long time ago, but nvmz.. haha.. Anw, i never did watch the show before.. But yest, the 1st 15 mins caught my attention!! Cause first. Alice who acted as Yao Chi Sheng Mu in MDWAV appeared!! And then..!!! Kylie Kwok who acted as Tian Ya in MDWAV appeared too!!! Well.. Not that i like these two characters.. But well, ya lor! they're one big MDWAV family after all!!! haha.. ANw, Tian Ya din look that good in this show.. Plus, i nv liked her nor thought she looked good.. But since otehrs feel that way, so ya lor, i must just be weird somehow.. haha.. But the main thing is!!!! Next week, there's a new show!! And i saw Ma Xiao Hu in it!!!! As a lead i think, since the advert kept showing him!!! And.. I thought for a split second, i really did see Joey Meng.. Just that split second, not even one second!!! OMG!! haha.. Pity no Eric la.. sigh.. They ought to buy Eric's film, he's a good actor.. Many have said that and i totally agree.. in MDWAV, he was so dead serious, i can't associate him being a joker.. yet later on, when i read his profile and his fans posts plus some of his videos.. He's a real big joker man.. Whihc is so totally diff from his portrayal in MDWAV.. And i was really convinced that he's really that serious in real life when i watched him in MDWAV.. I tot it'd start yest.. got me so excited.. but apparently i got my dates wrong.. sigh.. Anw, wad i rmb of the advert for that show.. Everyone is born with sin.. @ 6:26 PM
Xiao Yao Yue Ru Ling Er Listened to Xian Jian Qi Xia Zhuan songs just now too.. Sigh.. there's this song that i suspect is dedicated to the love b/w xiao yao and ling'er.. But yet, i can't help but to associate it with the love b/w xiao Yao and Yue Ru instead.. I know in the show, Ling'er is supp to be Xiao Yao's true love.. But.. Somehow, i think Xiao Yao and Yue Ru should be together and are more destined and compatible to be together.. To me, i find that Ling'er and Xiao yao's love is more of like a fantasy.. The love that's distant, yet heart-wrenching at the same time.. yet.. THe love b/w Xiao Yao and Yue Ru is much more real and solid.. It's not a dream.. It's not of denial.. It's of real chemistry between the two of them.. They have striking similiar characters, yet so contrasting that they fight each time they meet.. They have been through the worst of all hardships together.. Been through life and death.. And even culminating in Yue Ru making the ultimate sacrifice, dying for Xiao Yao for him to be with Ling'er.. But Xiao Yao and Ling'er.. they claim to love each other. And i don't deny that fact.. I'm not doubting their love.. BUt their love.. Is but merely words and no actions.. Who went through obstacles to help Xiao Yao locate Ling'er? Xiao Yao was looking for his ultimate love, Ling'er.. That goal.. That aim.. But.. Who has always been beside him? Supporting him silently.. DOing things for him, even at the expense of him hating her? Being together.. is it just supp to be fantasy.. or should it be based on a foundation that's so real? Xiao Yao and Ling'er.. they're just like.. Say, in real life.. A sees a girl B, and like her looks a lot. at the same time, she is sweet. He sets his eyes on B.. Later on, along the road, he has a good friend C, and a girl at that. Together they spend moments togehter. They know wat each other wants. C knows that A wants to be with B and helps him to win her heart. But.. the A-B relationship just stops at that moment isn't it? THat particular time frame.. Whereas A-C relationship was been strongly developed over time. Withstanding the test of time.. Being through everything together.. it's not a fantasy.. It's so real.. It's so solid.. That someone is just next to you, supporting you always.. Yet A just fails to stop and look at C, instead, A is always looking forward in search of B.. ANd the music just reminds me that Yue Ru is dead.. Why should she be dead?? Sigh.. Maybe love is weird.. But to sacrifice a love next to you that feels ever so solid and real, over a love that's just a mere fantasy after all.. Is it worth it? @ 6:12 PM
Old ties will never fade.. Just listened to a series of songs just now.. Yeah.. Some songs never fail to evoke some feelings in me.. First.. I realise that i still miss TMS, 4S, my bunch of close friends as much as before.. Time can make you memories fade away from view, but it can't delete that memory from you completely.. Moreover, time has no control over your feelings, which can penetrate through the realm of all dimensions.. Memories might fade.. But the feeling will not.. The close bonds shared and the ties among us will not be lost.. Moving ahead with our life, we will always rmb that somewhere, sometime in our lives, we have been through something that we'll never ever forget.. We might forget the details, the memories might completely disappear, but the very heartbeat is still the undeniable truth.. I was imagining this scene.. That me and my friends got thru the pyschology selection test.. and we wanan attend the lesson together.. But my classmates got selected too.. But i still went ahead and sat with my old friends.. And the sentence that went thru my brain was.. "I will be seeing you all everyday.. So.. I'd really like to spend this moment with my friends.." At this point of time, everything seems like such a normal plot.. Such a mundane scene?? But yet.. There was this unknown feeling rushing up my heart and spreading towards the rest of me.. And suddenly.. I knew that past memories have been securely locked up in not just my heart, but all over me.. I'm looking forward to the class BBQ.. and i really hope that there's one.. Even though there were some rumours that the whole thing might be a flop after all, since chalet wasn't booked or something.. Time is emotionless; living beings are emotional. Yet emotions evoked time and traps living being in a viscious cycle of no return.. Friday, May 05, 2006 @ 7:04 PM
Point of reflection Meeting and parting is but a fleeting moment in our lives. However, while we do recognize this undeniable process, the worst part of it all, is that, we have to see this happening, yet having no power or ability to stop this from occuring.. To see something you wouldn't wanna see occuring in front of you, yet powerless to walk away or change destiny is a real painful process.. Time is unemotional. Time waits for no man nor tide. Time is an arbitrary constant. Time inflict no harm on oneself. Yet, time can be considered as one of the most hated thing in the universe. Why? Time can't think for itself, it doesn't play a direct role in determining the fate of one. Yet, it is what we blame when we cannot complete our task, be punctual, or even when we anticipate something to happen, yet the day appears so far away. Be it fast or slow, time is always what we push all the blame to.. But yet again.. Who is really to be blamed? The mind which created the concept of time? Time itself? Or is it just us who do not know how to maximize the use of time? Is it just us who holds on too tightly to the past, unwilling to face the present, and fear the future at the same time? The present. Is it really the current moment we are living in? The past. Is it really the period where we have lived through? The future. Is it really an "era" filled with uncertainty? No. Every moment of the present is filled with shadow of the past. Such overlapping of events deters the present from being a perfect reflection of this current moment. The past instead, is the dominant factor lingering on in our head, living through all the moments and governing our actions and thoughts. The future is but filled with regrets of the present, coupled with regrets of the past. Thus, Future = past + present. And thus, it is a mere reflection of what we define our lives prior to this current moment. So why should it be full of uncertainty? To break out of this vicious cycle, we have to forsake all memories of the past. However, before we let go, we must first possess. But if we can let go, it means that the memories weren't real and true in the first place, and thus we have never ever possessed them in the first place. How do we break free of the trap laid by the innocent time? The answer is to overcome the barrier we set upon ourselves. It is but our ownself who should be responsible for what we are experiencing. Nothing is out of our control, yet everything is.. Maybe having feelings kill off feelings, ironically.. But given a choice, would you prefer to lead a life of contradiction or a life of nothingness? Which is worse? A dilemma or the sense of emptiness? The past, present and future.. As time wraps and becomes embroiled as one, it is tough to differentiate between these three terms.. Life is such a contradiction, that when we are happy, are we really happy? When we are sad, are we really sad? Thursday, May 04, 2006 @ 6:37 PM
The Human Mind Sceptical of life and of it all.. I realise that there's too much suspicions, too much uncertainties.. Too much mistrust.. Too much doubt.. Anyway, signed up for pyschology elective programme le.. I guess that's one approach that can at least give me a rough guide to how the human brain works.. Till then, i might realise that the simple things are complex, but the complexity of it all are but mere simplicity.. Maybe.. haha. But think there's selection test.. So.. ya lorx.. haha.. Study of the human brain. But how do we study human behaviour governed by our heart at the same time? How? @ 6:30 PM
PI completed! yay! Hiyo, the word count in microsoft word is so irritating! haha. One bullet used equals to one word. And since there's this word limit for PI, every single word matters. And i gotta manually count the words, which didn't correspond to the number provided by the word count minus away the unnecessary words.. Finally, after alot of work, i realised it was due to human error. I mixed up some important titles with unnecessary titles. haha.. The thing to note is that the music that accompanied me was MDWAV songs.. haha. When i listened to other songs, there wasn't much effect. Fianlly, ( since my player on shuffle mode ) i reached on MDWAV song, and memories came rushing back and i found myself much calmer and more ready to face all sorts of challenges or obstacles that will hinder my way forward.. Till now, the music still accompanies me.. Ah.. No wonder it's always good to have something for you to look forward to and motivate you, no matter how insignificant or lame it might appear to be to others.. ^_^ And now! My PI is done! Yay!! Thanks for everything that has allowed me to complete the PI. Sometimes, we think that computers and music are non-living things. But are they really so? Maybe it needs encouragement, just like us. haha.. Life.. The worst mechanism that kills emotions is but the ability to feel.. Ironically.. Wednesday, May 03, 2006 @ 5:53 PM
LEO Board Election Finale AH.. Yesterday was the LEO Board Interview.. Actually, i prefer interviews to husting or self-intro. Cause first, i have nothing to self-intro. And also, after self-intro and husting, it doesn't make any difference in my opinion. Unless you're really really different from the rest, otherwise at the end of the day, you'd stil be ?? as to who the candidates are. haha. At least that's wad happened for me, dunno who to vote because i forgot the face + names.. I thikn i screwed everything up. haha. I din prepare for the speech. Then the interview i had very little things to say. In fact, i think i made a fool out of myself there.. BUt at the end of the day, i din feel bad or inferior or anything.. In fact, i was smiling and rather cheerful as i left the interview room. I guess it's because the current Board members are nice and friendly ppl.. So they weren't harsh and the atmosphere wasn't that tensed. You dun feel any hostility at all, instead wad you feel is the sense of warmness surrounding the whole room.. I guess that's wad made me stay in LEO. When i first wrote down my name to join LEO, i almost wanted to withdraw immediately. But since i happened to lose my voice for the first week, i couldn't really bring across my wish to delete my name. So i went for the first meeting. And the feeling is. Yes! I'm welcomed.. haha. Unlike some other PDPs i went to, where ppl were stern and strict and all. In LEO, you really feel yes! That's the place for me. So from a PDP which i din intend to join initially, it become a PDP that i really liked alot.. ^_^ Monday, May 01, 2006 @ 1:24 PM
Happy Labour Day Happy Labour Day ppl! Yay! This week is a special week for the whole of SIngapore, with a pulic holiday, and later on the GE! ^_^ |