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Tuesday, January 31, 2006 @ 1:17 AM
I believe in miracles I now believe in miracles.. After seeing so many of them happening right in front of me.. In the past, I dun think i believed in it.. Mircacles, fate, destines etc, were seen as some clinche stuffs always screened on TV.. It has never crossed my mind that such things might exist and I have never questioned myself as to whether i believed in their existence.. To me, they were just those same old stuff we see on screen.. However.. Now that I have seen the happenings in front of me.. I'm really speechless.. Miracles really do happen.. And it really happens when there's hope in the world.. "When there's hope, there's miracles.." I see truth in those words.. @ 1:02 AM
Teachers ahoy! Suddenly developed this thinking whilst on a bus trip just now.. Actually our teachers are quite pitiful.. In fact, all teachers are pitiful.. It's a job that is bound to torture those who treat it as a job. Joy will only be derived for those who treat teaching as a passion, not a career.. The irony of it all is that their greatest joy actually comes a loss.. And for that very moment, they have to slog their way through and put up with all sorts of nonsense as well as the never-ending workload.. And that moment is the very moment when the students get their good grades and thank them from the bottom of their heart.. That's really a moment of mixed feelings.. Ultimately touched yet sad at their departure yet hopeful of their future.. Their contributions is almost like what parents wil provide for their child. All their lives, they were like slaves to their children. Watch them grow, worry for them, care for them.. But all their effort was just to prepare them for the time when their wings should harden and when they are really to soar high and far in society. Waiting for the moment when their child grows up, yet relunctant to say goodbye to them.. Happy for their bright future, yet sad that a fullstop has been drawn.. Esp if a close rapport has been built with the class.. That's the only truest form of happiness and joy that a teacher can get in their career, in my opinion.. All others, be it promotions or pay rise, are just forms of incentives but definitely not the ultimate motivation for them. That is, for those who teach for the sake of their passion.. Material-wise, teaching is a lose-lose job.. But spiritually, it's really a very sacred job and all of them deserves our respect.. Sunday, January 29, 2006 @ 10:12 AM
Happy Chinese New Year! Happy Chinese New Year everyone! Today's the first day.. Just looking thru some photos taken in the past, mainly last year.. It seems so ironical that the happier we were in the photos, the sadder the feeling it will be now.. When it's end arrives, is it true that the happier the memories were, the more painful it would be to bid them goodbye? Seeing the happy faces of TMSians during their PE lessons on Fri.. Suddenly, I was overwhelmed by this sense of loneliness. As though something in me was missing.. Looking at the performance put up for the students, I was suddenly silent for a moment and lost in my own tots.. Still rmb that time when we, as sec 3s, were preparing for the sec 4's stand down.. It seems that the wider their smiles in the photos, the more unwilling we were to say goodbye and silence would just slowly find its way in.. The world we live in is such a irony.. Sadness emerge from happiness. And happiness only comes about when we have experienced sadness. But then again, that's the beauty of life anyway.. The paradox of it all.. Saturday, January 28, 2006 @ 5:15 PM
Happy CNY eve! Happy Chinese New Year Eve everyone! It seems that yet another year has passed once again.. Perhaps when we grow up, it's getting tougher to be truly happy.. Remembering those days when the sheer mention of CNY will bring loads of excitment to me as a child. Slowly, the process repeats itself annually, making everything seems so stereotyped. And as we grow older, that excitment is slowly fading off.. For there really isn't much to anticipate. Because we know what is going to take place, the visits and celebrations and all.. Maybe it's only wad's happening within the celebration that can bring about some sense of excitment.. No wonder it is said that to gain an immortal life is simply a torture by itself.. The loneliness and emptiness.. Well.. Just a sudden tot.. Yest's TMS CNY celebration touched me thoroughly.. Though it wasn't really that great, but i'm just touched by the fact that the teachers and PSG are participating in the performance itself.. The hard work and extra miles they took just for that few minutes on stage to spread the joy with the students.. Esp for the para para dance, i was simply swept by an unknown wave of feelings running thru all over my body.. Suddenly the teachers whom you have always known are no longer who they are, but are who they really are.. At that moment, i really missed my life in TMS.. A Lot.. But haiz.. Just when i was still reminiscing the memories of those good old days.. One of the teacher injured herself.. The sacrifices made.. Just to put up a good show for the day.. The brave front she put on despite that rather serious injury.. Though I dunno who she is, but still, i salute her with respect.. Did the past really happen before the present? Or maybe.. there's something else deep to it.. Maybe the future had determined what was going to happen.. Friday, January 27, 2006 @ 8:27 PM
TMS CNY visit Yay! Today went back to TMS for CNY celebrations! Well, din go back for morning assembly la. Suddenly we just found it weird to crash their morning assembly, so decided to abort this plan and head towards the Mac just round e other bend.. And have our.. BREAKFAST!  Sat around and slacked. Breathed in the TMS air. Saw the TMS views. Heard the TMS sounds. Smelt the TMS smell. Felt so homely and relaxed and familiar and just so comfortable.. Waited for teachers to come dropping down from nowhere. Lolx. No la. We shou3 zhu1 dai4 tu4 for teachers to come down for breakfast. Long process, but our efforts paid off! First, we have Ms Woon. She din see us, despite the fact that we were just beside the corridor that she walked by! Only turned towards us when we called her.. Chit chat for a short while and she had to rush for her breakfast le. ( later got lessons )  Next, Mr Eng followed soon after. Said hi to him and he went for his meals. When he was done with eating, he had a short chat with us. ( Only managed to ask us for our sub combi because he was interrupted by the principal ) **The story of the Principal** Yest went back to TMS. Stopped by security guard who demanded that we get a teacher to come down to pick us up so that we could tour around the school. Saved by a lady who was giving them ang paos. Walked us up, though down again cuz i wanna have my lunch first. Lolx. I asked, "Were you from this school previously?" ( obviously, i sounded as though i was asking if she were an ex-TMSian ) "I mean, I have nv seen you around previously.." She replied:"Did you hear about Mrs Ouyang..?" Me: "Are you the new principal?" She: "Yes. My name is Mrs Ong.. Blah Blah.." The two of us: ( Total shockness and lost for words. ) Walked off laughing like some mad women on the loose. Lolx.. **** Anyway, as i was saying, Mrs Ong came along and walked towards us. Mrs Ong:"Did i see you two yesterday?" Us: "Yes.." Mrs Ong:"So did you get to see your teachers?" SJ:"Some.." Then dunno wad was said le larx. Haha.. After that, 4ses ppl and others sec 4 ( 2005 ) came and we sort of organised ourselves into real huge groups. Went around disturbing teachers while they were having lessons.. In order.. Ms Rajah: I'm having lessons now. Come look for me in 30mins' time. Mrs Hong: We chatted with her.. Ms Neo: -- We dared not disturb.. Ms Woon: Closed the door and shoo-ed us away. Was doing some eye massage thingy.. -_-" Ms Lela: Asking qn about osmosis. We gave definations. Later on, kanna shoo-ed away again.. Mr Eng: Came out to chat. Ms Neo: We'll come back after 5mins. Ms Rajah: Real glad to see us back. Had a mini lesson ( actually chit-chat session ) and later, she had to rush off to prepare for CNY celebrations.. Ms Neo: Had a mega party inside. Lolx. Ppl crowd around her like she idol lidat. Me and SJ took shots of her and got her irritated. *Oopss..*  **The concert** We proceeded to the concert shortly after.. 1) Teachers perform with CO. This includes: Ms Rajah and Ms Lela with some other teachers. Quite nice man, considering the fact that they din really have prior knowledge on how to work on those instruments and the shortage of time to practise.. 2) TPS students performing wad cat dance. Lolx. Quite cute la, but I wasn't really paying attention.. 3) PSG singing 2 songs. Mice love Rice and New Year song. Haha.. 4) Teachers dance para para. Overall, i thikn they did great! Real lively and totally un-teacher-like. But.. During upper sec's performance, something bad happened.. One of the teacher appparently had her knee dislotched or her ankle sprained.. I was totally shocked when i saw her going down, tot it was a stunt or something.. But really gave me a big fright when i discovered that she can't even move.. Hope she recovers real soon.. 5) Wushu performance Every year's must have.. Upper and Lower sec had the same items. But the upper sec were far more enthu than the lower sec.. Actually.. I think our sch's culture gonna change le.. Once this batch of sec 4s leave, i dunno wad's gonna be remaining of TMS.. That's when the last of our closer batch leaves the school.. End of this year.. **** Slacked around in TMS after that. Talked to Chen Lao Shi about our current life and so on.. Later on we spotted Ms Woon and we proceeded to have a chat with her.. Wanted to scare her de.. but wel, din get too. Anyway, with or w/o that chance, i dun think i'll dare to actually execute the scare moves lorz. Lol.. First few lines said.. She: "Heard you changed.. From prom nite.." Me: "Who you hear from de??" She: "I got eyes ( or was it spies ) all around.." Me: "Ms Rajah is it?" She: "Yes.." Took some pix with her. Like idol meeting session siah. Haha..
     Some pix of the 12 sheng1 xiao4 outside the marine parade place ( wad do you call that place? ) @ 8:10 PM
Weird feeling? Been waking up for the last 2 days with this weird feeling in me. Those kind of feeling that creeps into your heart just before you're about to give a speech to the whole sch. That something's gonna happen feeling, yet I can't define what exactly it is.. Worse still, I'm sleeping not exactly early, but yet i can wake up before 6. Automatically.. And then that feeling slowly creeps in.. Dunno wad's wrong too.. Anyway, dun think too much rite? Cuz if thinking can change wad's gonna happen, it'd be scary to even think. If it can't change wad's gonna happen, no use thinking further. Lolx. Anyway, today was fine. Woke up feeling great! No more weird feelings or wadsoever le! Yay! Wednesday, January 25, 2006 @ 10:11 PM
So tired.. Feeling so sceptical about life at large currently.. Been so low battery today.. Feel so drained of energy, I dunno why. Such tiredness.. Which i think isn't caused by school but the lack of motivation.. Skit thingy today. Quite a flop. Haiz. I think it was my fault. I juz wanna go back to TMS.. What's wrong with TJ? Actually I dunno.. There's nothing wrong, but I just wanna go back to TMS.. It's so tough looking for a teacher in TJ. Wanna get back googles. First day, not in, despite trying twice. Today got the teacher, who asked me to collect from his table. Went to the office twice and found it locked.. Everyday you see many teachers walking all around, but when you need them, they're not around.. Somehow in TJ, I dun feel the close-knittedness.. Where's the bball ppl who would chill out on a nice sunny day? Or the soccer ppl playing on the field? Or ppl just chatting around? Why is it that i see practically everyone studying?? In the library some more.. Haiz.. Everyone seems together yet separated.. Saw an opinion expressed by the public. That teacher should not only concentrate on producing quality academic results, but also the emergence of potential talents as well as providence of a safe environment to maximize a student's potential.. Haiz. Actually just think, a teacher's primarily role is just simply to impart knowledge. For that meagre pay, they're already slogging their hearts and lungs and liver and everything in them out for us, the students. What more can we expect.. The extra miles taken by some of the teachers simply means that they're exceptionally good teachers and the students are just plain lucky. That's the distinction between a teacher and a good teacher, the extra mile they take to incorporate student's well-being in their teachings too.. Come on. What if you are just a low-ranked accountant receiving a pay of $3000 per month? And i expect you to make coffee for the boss, for the employees lower ranked than you, ppl who have to understudy you? And you have to take care of their well-being and maximize their potential so that they can be useful ppl in the company? Plus, you must report their progress to the boss, who will then decide on their fate. Then, you must inform their family members of their progress too to make them less worried. Crazy, isn't it? The same concept applies for the teachers. An accountant just needs to do his or her job. Whether he or she has a good networking skills, or cares for whoever's around them, it's just a bonus to the boss and others working with them.. A teacher just has to teach. Whether they go beyond their scope and become "friends" with the students, it's really up to their decision and the student's luck.. Just give them a break sometimes... They're humans... Not machines.. Haiz.. Tuesday, January 24, 2006 @ 6:40 PM
Theory of existence To add on to my theory of existence, as I would call it temporarily. Science is actually a creation of mankind's thoughts. It does not exist in nature at all. But the occurence is always present.. In another words, it is always there, but not so till we create its existence.. The building block of life should be cells and so cells shall be the building blocks of life. It is always there, but never till someone thinks of it existing and makes it come into existence literally.. And the way this surfaces, will literally be the way the original thinker thinks of how it should be surfaced.. In another words, the time that we have always known is turned upside down. The logic and common sense we have always known should occur in the opposite direction. Nothing exists till we think of it, though it's always present. We create what we want it to be. We do not discover things that's in existence but unknown. Instead they were never there, but always present.. Everything is present anywhere, but not so till we think of it, give it a definition and let the something take its form... @ 6:23 PM
The hunch feeling Has anyone gotten this feeling. That when something happens presently, you have a feeling it had occured before and flashes of that something comes running into your head.. Which exactly matches onto that particular something? Or when you said something about the future in the present, and that something really happens? Ever gotten a feeling that something is going to happen, but yet you dunno wad's going to happen? How does it feel to have past memories that should have never existed till you experience it in the present or in the future, at this moment in the present? It's really creepy isn't it? The feeling is just enough to scare you out of your wits man. But yeah, it does happens.. It's just like, let's say, a game.. There's this secret character that you have never heard of or seen before. But suddenly, at the present moment, upon seeing that split second of it, things start rushing through your head and you see that screenshot in your head, except that it ain't exactly what you are seeing literally in front of you now.. And you envision the next part of the game, which actually happens later on in the future.. But applying my previous theory, people think they're thinking too much, they're crazy. And so they create the fact that they're crazy. And so ppl who experience this are deemed as well, crazy. Taking subject into consideration.. When you have no prior knowledge to a concept or question, but yet, you know the answer. And you get it correct, not by blind guessing.. But there's this feeling creeping up your heart, making you feel the same way as when you're nervous.. And without your brain's control, you just mouth out the answer.. How scary is this phenomenon? What if you have never read or heard or know that the war in 1895 involving Japan was the Sino-Japanese war, but you just know it's the Sino-Japanese war? Not by wild guessing, but by that very feeling I have described earlier on.. The memory might disappear, but the feelings remain.. What if memories do not store informations, but it is the feeling that does the job. The feeling will generate the memories that we have now. And the feeling arise from somewhere though no where.. Sounds absurd? Well.. It's unacceptable and literally wrong once again.. but i just well.. think of things this way.. Everything exists but are in non-existence.. I'm just trying to challenge the fundamental theories of life that has been ruling the universe since the start of it.. Lolx. Wadever i'm doing.. Anyway, no one can stop me from thinking rite? Whether it's rite or wrong, as long as i dun hurt others.. But anyway, can anyone for sure define what's rite and wad's wrong? Pls let me know, if you do.. @ 6:07 PM
My theory derived from Time Paradox What if i were to say that in this world, nothing is impossible? It sounds clinche, the same old lines ppl use to encourage others.. But think again.. The universe.. Why did it even exist, or rather, come into our views? Why? It's because of those who dare to think beyond the horizon and challenge the unknown. Imagine no one does that in the past, and we have no prior knowledge of whatever's outside Earth. Who would even stop to think of this seemingly endless black space? And even if someone does that, it would have been deemed as a vague imagination by imbeciles. But if no one lies down these wild thinkings. That something lies beyond their lands, who would have found other countries? That Earth is a body by itself, surrounded by space, how would galaxies occured? That millions of galaxies lay beyond our view, how would the universe be created in the first place? So, literally, I dun think we discover things. Instead, we create them. It is becasue someone deemed as crazy tot of this universe and the big bang, that such things occured. It is really what we want that lays down the foundation of what happens so that it literally, happens. Just like Newton and his apple. Common sense says that there's gravity, and the apple drops and Newton discovered gravitational force. But i'm gonna challenge this theory. Newton saw that the apple drops, and thinks of a force acting downwards. He works things out to prove his theory of gravitational force. Thus, his theories literally define what gravity is. He created gravity, even though it is there. The gravity we know now, is the result of the fundamental principles that Newton worked out. It exists, but only due to Newton's thoughts. It's always there, but it was never there till Newton created it. Our knowledge is his knowledge and his viewpoint of gravity. Do anyone understand what i'm talking? Anyway, this theory of mine is very unacceptable, just like time paradox. Can anyone accept the fact that the future occurs before the present, which actually determines the past. When common sense says that it should be the other way round? Actually the concept of time being past, present of future is also another thought laid down by whoever that lived long time again. And it just forms a fixed mindset in our head. Such that bold deviations from this traditional thinking would be deemed as well, unacceptable.. Maybe time don't exist this way, but whoever from the past created this version of time made it so. Ok, wadever.. Lolx. Everyone's gonna think i've gone loose wire le! But my concept is that, anything is possible. You just gotta think of it, define it, explain it.. And that something that you think exists, will slowly form by itself. It will always be present literally, but it has never actually existed.. Aiya.. Haiz.. Everything actually don't exist, but are always present.. Can anyone accept this? @ 5:52 PM
True Love VS Love Just some tots running thru my head.. Isn't the world so sad? There's actually no more true love on Earth.. ( Nothing to do with my life, just inspired by wad happened in sch just now and some songs.. ) True love should be like the bright stars in the sky.. As the sky darkens.. and darkens.. and darkens.. The stars shine brighter.. And brighter and brighter.. Which actually means that the more the journey is fraught with difficulties, the more they will push on and create miracles. The dimmer hope seems, they will continue to shine the world with their everlasting flame. As endless as the road might seem, they will light up a new path for themselves. However, sad to say.. This has perished literally on Earth. Only love remains ( fortunately.. ) Love is just like the stars in the sky too. But as the sky darkens... The star dims off with it.. The cloud comes along and blocks off this source of light.. And the flame literally cease to exist. this means, when the going gets tough, they drift apart, no longer producing the sparks of life. External factors come into play but they are unable to penetrate through these obstacles and lights no longer shine.. Soon, it fades off.. And off.. With time, the chemistry disappears.. Even the feelings cease to exist.. Actually no one is to be blamed for this sad phenomenon. It's just the way society is now. That's just how the general population behaves now. Fragments of the purest and truest love remains, that is love. But the very origin of it no longer exists.. Confusing and theoretically wrong, but oh well, just a tot I suddenly have.. Sunday, January 22, 2006 @ 6:36 PM
Light after darkness Today was the old clothes collections.. Actually it's quite fun but yet tiring.. Somehow i found that i had a better time last week than this week.. Found all the guitar tabs for the songs that we have to play on Valentine's Day. Hopefully they're correct. I mean, i won't even know wad a guitar tab or score looks like.. Haha.. Next week, yet another school week.. Hopefully new things will be taught, otherwise things are getting real boring le.. =X Still got carnival on Thurs, can't go out to shop for CNY stuff.. But nvm, Fri at least we'll have a full day off.. To go to TMS!! Yay!! Let the TMS flame burn on forever in all TMS-ians. Let the 4Synergy spirit live on 4ever in all 2005 batch! Heard that ms neo is HOD humanities. Mrs Hong normal teacher le. Mr Oh is HOD asthetics. *Psst. Gossiping as usual. Lolx.. @ 6:33 PM
Touching sadness I'm so touched. Just went to TMS's asknlearn and guess wad? They have yet to delete my account! Yay! Haha.. 1 week and 1 days away from TMS. 5 more days before returning there.. 2 Weeks without MDWAV.. Saturday, January 21, 2006 @ 4:11 PM
CCA Ah. PDPs. Joined guitar and LEO, satisfied with both thus far. Guitar Wipee! We can strum le! Haha. As in not a song, but just strum out a groove. Hopefully, we'll be able to pick up more skills b4 our "performance" on Valetine's Day! ^_^ Btw, anyone know where i can get guitar scores? Can only find tabs. =X LEO Wipee! In Avalon. Personal Director being an ex-TMS. ( Which was the reason why i joined this group. ) But feel guilty towards Ole. The Personal Director has sort of asked me to join Ole but in the end, i went to join another group. But anyway, I'm beginning to like this PDP more and more! Unlike CIP in the past, there's no fixed quota to meet~ Yay! So you can enjoy the freedom of helping out as and when you like, without any incentives or wadsoever. That's the spirit of volunteer work man! Yay! Cause at TMS, we CARE! Friday, January 20, 2006 @ 10:42 PM
Missing TMS It just struck me that it has already been 3 weeks since school started, and I'm no longer in TMS.. It's kinda sad to think of it.. The TJ atmosphere and feeling it gives to me, is that it's just a school, that's all.. But TMS, you can just call it a home.. Look at TJ. Everyone is doing work and studying. Hiyo. My theory is that school is a place for fun!! Everytime there's break, first suggestion is to go library!! Hiyo!!! Whereas in TMS. Ppl slacing aroudn in canteen, talking, running, playing bball.. So relaxing.. everyone's like your bro and sis, playing around.. Not mugging day in and out! =X Once again, i dun like this transitional period. How do i share my time with current friends and my good old friends? I seriously think that those that will see me thru my life in the future, wil be my old friends, and I really wanna spend time with them.. But duty-wise, I stil must go along with the mass.. I mean, you can't just leave your new friends alone to go with your old ones. It doesn't feel good for the new friend rite? and I'll be feeling guilty.. Accidentally heard xia xue just now.. Memories came rushing back like nobody's business.. Sometimes, things happen in a certain way for a certain reason.. Actually, in reality, we can't really make a change, so as to speak.. I mean, you can make a change, but the change will undo itself one day.. Nvm, do anyone get wad i'm trying to say?? Some major changes to TMS. Heard from my frenz, who happened to return there, today!! Hmph. Luckily our teachers are still there. Lolx.. Oh ya, i just read the audience rating just now. Jiu Wu Zhi Jun was the top series for channel U! Yay! But i can't figure out why, nobody around me seems to watch it, except for one or two. Lolx. This coming Sun will be my 2nd week w/o MDWAV. Oh no, how am i gonna survive this two years of waiting? ( for my buying of VCD and the filming of MDWAV4 rumoured to be done after 2 years.. ) I'm stil listenign to the cantonese songs.. Yeah, and I joined guitar for a reason pertaining to this show too, oh well, nvm.. Usually i get tired of songs after 2 weeks, now it had been more than a month le.. Lolx. I demand for MDWAV 4, staring Eric and Joey! @ 10:32 PM
Compplaints about TJ I want to complain! Mainly about chem pracs! Lolx.. there's so much disparities b/w sec sch and jc. 1) burette doesn't use tap. Instead, we use this rusting clip that doesn't seem to be able to control any water flow. Lolx. Plus, we have this wiggly tail at the end that seems so weird.. 2) you can't waste solution from the top of the pipette. 3) Why use right hand to swirl de! Luckily, it's due to personal preference, but well, in sec sch, all of us gotta use left hands rite? 4) Don't tap the pipette on the bottom of the flask to get last drop out. 5) buy your own pipette. 6) Buy your own test-tube 7) buy own burette clip. If we once tot TMS was poor, think again.. Lolx. Use of air-con seems to be like a big matter, esp the one in the hall.. Apparatus all gotta buy our own due to budget.. -_0" 8) Physics graphing techniques are so diff. Things that we would once get scolding for doing can now be done. Lolx. 9) How many shirts must we buy? Aiyo, lost track. 10) Gotta buy hundred plus GC to draw graph.. Can't we just use our brain?? 11) Canteen food is so pathetically disgusting. Esp with my 100 days cough, i can't eat many things. Which reduces me to just one choice. Spaghetti. For 100 days. I think i'll vomit some day. Now i find TMS food so much more better. Hiyo! 12) The structure of the school is so weird. Everywhere is interlinked, but yet not so. As in, the more the links, the more confusing thigns gets and well. Yeah, gotten lost and so on.. 13) So little toilets!! Well, although the Arts HOD introduced me to all the toilets, i stil find that they're too little. Gotta travel so logn to reach one toilet! 13) So few water coolers! On the verge of breaking down some more de! 14) So little greeneries! No garden, no flowers!! No nothing!! alamak, aiya, better stop here le!! hmph.. Lolx.. @ 10:04 PM
TJ week 3 Ah.. Finally, the weekend has arrived. It's been a tiring week, practically exhausted of all energy. The battery level has started max on monday, and gradually depleting till zero today. Lolx. Everyday, you see me sleeping in school, whenever there's a chance for me to do so. Lolx. Breaks, lectures etc. Alright, just gonna give a brief overview of the school week thus far.. Teachers ( Tutorials ) Well. Almost all of them are HODs. Let's see, chem teacher is civics teacher. Bio is sci HOD ( she and me are the same type of ppl. Quite deaf and super lame. Oops. ) Physics is deputy sci HOD ( was an ex-TMS teacher ) Maths HOD ( funny and calculative. Lolx. ) Econs is Arts HOD ( a bit like Mrs Maesten those kinda of looks and accent. But she teachers well.. ) GP got a nice, smiling lady. Lecturers Lolx. This is more interesting. We have a Maths teacher that seems to be on a plane while we're still walking on our foot. And he's always talking to himself and following his own speed, dun really care if we can catch up. Bio is well, the HOD, so it's lame! ( Yay! ) Chem, alamak, the lecturer sit and talk until so ah-beng style and ya, his lessons are boring. Physics, omg.. Everyday play that ma-i-ah-hee song. Every lesson. The beginning and the end!! -_-" Subjects Basically, we've just started on everything, so it's mainly recap of sec sch stuff.. Which means i can sleep during lectures. Yay! Esp for physics and chem. ZzZz.. GP and PW: Preparing skit for EL week. Econs: Interesting. I like the study of such things as in social science. You need to have logic behind stuffs too, instead of sheer memorizing ( ZzZz.. ) Maths: I think i'm gonna be lagging behind le. Esp when you need a calculator to even draw a graph. Sigh, i'm always bad with calculators. Chemistry: Yay! Stoichiometry! But well, though this is one of my fav part of chem, i dun like to attend lessons on it. Cause it gets quite boring after a while. What we need most is practice! But anw, it just means more time to switch off and sleep, so not bad.. Redox, another fav part of chem! Mainly recapping, so also can sleep. Wahaha... Physics: Starting from basics. But at times, i get lost siah when doing the tutorials. Physcists ( wadever you call them ) are such precise creatures, my answer always miss by one sf or dp. Haiz. Biology: So fun, esp with the teacher. Wahaha. Just some jokes.. When i mentioned vampires, she replied, ginger slice. When i mentioned source, she said, you want chili or tomato sauce? ( worse still, i nv tot that teachers will crack this kinda joke and for a split second, i was seriously caught in tot about what she was trying to tell me. You know, just go deep in tots and suddenly, bingo, she's just joking.. -_-" ) Guess wad? New syllabus focus on molecular biology!! My fav!!! Dilemma The teachers come in " This class is siao" and "Do you all know what you all are in for?". Yes, 5 subjects.. Lolx. From their tone, i can tell that they're hinting for us to drop to 4 subs. Though they ain't forcing us, but I can detect that urgency and concern in their tone for us to discard this crazy combi. From our chem teacher, " This is the first time I'm teaching till 6.15. Usually at this time, i'll be having my dinner already.." I really can feel that having this triple sci thing will lead us nowhere far.. Sooner or later, we'll just break and snap.. Now it's just the beginning but i see that most of our classmates are already exhausted.. I'm afraid of overestimating my real abilities. Yet, i'm afraid of regretting not living my life to the fullest by grabbing all available opportunities in learning science. Thursday, January 19, 2006 @ 9:16 PM
Influenza Just came back from doc. My cough has yet to recover from the start of the year. Sigh. Seems that I kanna influenza or something? E person said qin2 liu2 gan3.. Well.. not the H5N1 de.. What did I want to say? i forgot le, oh wells. Till when i rmb again! No MDWAV last Sun, no MDWAV this coming Sun.. Sigh.. Wednesday, January 18, 2006 @ 9:45 PM
PE Today had first group PE. Real fun man! Say hello to the familiar tracks once again after biding goodbye to running for 4-5 months.. Felt real good to just run without any burden. Feel the wind against your face.. Your legs moving against air resistance. Your determination coming into place. Your stamina slowly depleting.. The feeling is just one word -- Shiok ah! I just like the freedom of running. oh wells. But anyway, my stamina has fallen after the long break. i almost walked. Luckily I din. Lolx. Tuesday, January 17, 2006 @ 4:03 PM
Millions of tots.. Millions of tots going thru my head now.. Yet I do not know what exactly are they. Guess my brain isn't working currently, only that my heart is still beating on.. That's why you feel something, yet you dunno exactly what it is.. Anyway, one of my tot. I'm just so tired.. Actually not much physically, but mentally, pyschologically.. Tired of things around me.. Tired of everything. But yet, i can't tell exactly what I'm tired about.. First swimming lesson today. I still dunno how to float. Mr Eng's words came true. Oh well, it's fun swimming. But my first dip into the water ended up in almost a drowned me. Guess I missed my footing or something.. and i slipped.. and fell.. and sort of suspended in the midst of the water.. can't float up, can't get my legs down to stand. Oh wells.. Anyway, the water is too hot for me. temp shld be lowered further. Sigh. I can't stand heat.. The colder it is, the better it is. After all, the world is supp to be a cold one.. Lessons.. I think they're getting more and more boring.. The lecturer should do less talking and give us more work. It's kinda boring to just listen on and on.. We can just simply read the lecture notes given.. Sigh.. It gets rather tiring listening to repeated facts over a period of time.. Just look at physics tutorial today.. He was practically repeating the lecture.. Until I get so sian.. Actually knowledge should be something fun rite? Wahaha. Like our bio teacher. I think she has a unique way of incorporating knowledge with fun stuffs.. adding some lame jokes in the process. Well, I thikn the best part about gaining knowledge is the fact that you can link them up with sheer use of lameology.. One thing I realised about myself today.. I really detest going to the library.. Monday, January 16, 2006 @ 9:45 PM
A day has passed.. so empty.. Haix. Felt so empty and lost yest nite. It's so weird to be sleeping early, when I have always been excitedly anticipating MDWAV from 11 to 1 at nite.. It feels like a part of you is lost somehow.. Look beyond the show, and I guess others will feel the same way too.. It's not just yet another show.. Oh well, nvm.. Maybe it's just special to me only. Such scary coincidences shown in the show that totally reflects my own thinking as well as incidences that I have come across in my own life.. Such striking similarity.. Anyway, today was simply one word. SCHOOL. Lolx. 6.15 is the dismissal time and I've already have quite some group work and research stuffs on my hands.. Sigh.. Actually I dun mind worksheets, even tonnes of them would do. Just spare me from too much projects. Can't learn anything much from it and the time committement is much more.. I must really gather more opinions man. To drop a sub or continue with it. At times, it really doesn't make sense to take on 5 sub, when you know that you ain't gonna use ALL of them. Plus, 4subbers are struggling like siao and dropping to a 3 sub, and here's one crazy ( known by most teachers ) class that takes on this bottomless and endless challenge that would most probably yield little results at the end of the day.. Yeah! The thing I like about today was.. The self-introduction part!! Cause i can say.. I like vampire shows. Haha. I'm already kind enuff to spare the teacher of the agony of listening to me promoting MDWAV le! Wahaha. instead, i just generalise everything as well, vampire shows. Lolx. Sunday, January 15, 2006 @ 9:39 PM
My Sunday Sigh.. Later no MDWAV.. No show on TV.. Nothing to look forward to.. So sad, the TV industry in Singapore seems to be devoid of good shows.. At least to me.. Sigh.. To add on to my misery, my throat infection is back once again. yeah, the same old symptoms. Hopefully this time it does not lead on to bronchitis like last time, which cost me my voice for a whole long week.. But anyway.. I finally finished reading Tian Ya Chuan Shuo lehX! Wahaha! As usual, Chen 13 is into his theory of time paradox. Those type where the future affects the past which you see in the present. Lolx. Those type of books that I like. Not straight-forward at all and requires some thinking in order to see the whole picture. ^_^ Just went out just now to shop for swim suit and new year stuff. In the end, only had time to shop for swim suit. Bought a black one with some orange pattern. Black and white googles too. Contemplating whether to buy cap or not. Hmmx.. Pls shoot MDWAV4! And use back original casts esp Joey and Eric. Pls Pls PLS. Dun let the recent rumour of NO MDWAV4 be the truth.. =X @ 12:16 AM
TMS + Neoprints pix Neoprints taken at Bugis with SJ, Mic and Tracy.. ^_^ Pardon poor quality. Scanned and cropped using Paint.  Creepy crawlies TMS reunion. Look at that ice-cream shit on my head. Lolx.  Don't we just look like killer agents on a mission?  Say cheese and do the twist! Erm, that stupid handsign that Ramesh can't figure out why girls enjoy doing..  Oh! We're a family of royalties.. See.. TMS rawks man. ( I so extra, din put the hand on the face.. ) Some shots of the school today..
Yeah, the lib changed their grey lockers to these wooden ones. To me, it doesn't really blend into the surroundings, do they?  Someone actually helped me complete my mosaic project. Lolx.
Me acting as vampire. Look like rite? Wahaha! Wathc out ppl manz!
Stil smiling? Wait till i suck your blood. Wahaha.. hu shi dan dan..
A rainy TMS ( Taken on 1st trip to TMS )
Protect the wildlife! ( I'm one of the contributor to this painting! Oh wells.. -_-" )
TMS is just so colourful, rite? Unlike..
Just to recap.. The never-changing artpieces by our juniors..
   New add-ons to our school. The time capsule. Haiz, when it next opens, i'll be like hmm.. 41? Hiyo.. Old le..
Main entrance to TMS.. Look at the beautiful fountain that sits neatly on the grass patch? So much more picturesque than..
  Welcome to TMS. Eh, wher's the security guard?? ok, that's all for the time being. Tired to upload one by one.. Haha.. Some beautiful pictures taken from above as well as sceneries have been left untouched. Lolx. Saturday, January 14, 2006 @ 11:48 PM
miracles Some miraculous coincidential incidents that occured today all at one go: 1) Met teachers just as we were about to leave school. 2) Met ex-TMSians at interchange who was rushing to TJ. Later on, met again in Mac. 3) Met Alvin in school. 4) Met Benny at interchange. 5) Met LEO friends at Bugis. 6) Met Aiysha when we were lost in Bugis. 7) Met Li Wen who gave instructions again when I hoped for another miracle help to occur. Well, I'm sure more than this amt of coincidential incidents occured today. Lolx. Wad a small world we are in.. Haha.. @ 11:24 PM
What an eventful day.. Wow! Today is simply a fun-filled day full of surprises and well, "miracles". The day kicked off with a LEO project. Yeah, that is to distribute flyers regarding old clothes collections in the neighbouring estate. Was attached to Ole's leader. Yupz, it's just a duo but we managed to finish 8 blocks of flats way before 12. Ok, a few minutes before 12. Real nice gal, blur and funny. Lolx. Quite fun though tiring. Feels real great to be serving the community out of genuine reasons, not for CIP hours etc. That's the Temasek spirit, We Care! ^_^ Later on, me and sj went back to TMS. Yeah, again. Wipee! TMS rocks man! Joined the councillors in their celebration of Jane's birthday for a while. Went around with SJ to take pix of the school later on. Realised that there's quite a bit of TMS that we have never ever noticed during our time there. That's so human, to treasure things when we lose them. Oh wells.. We were about to leave the school, when we decided to make a round back to the foyer. I was thinking of phoning up some teachers, though I knew they won't be there, or rather, i assumed. Guess wad? Just as we stepped into the foyer, a car turned in.. In there were.. The driver ( 4got who le ), Ms Rajah, Ms Shirin and Mr Oh. Lolx. What a miraculous meeting occuring out of sheer coincidence man. From outside the car, we could hear them exclaiming how much we've changed and how we're beyong recognition. ( I was with my contacts, hair let down and shirt untucked. Erm, O tee ) Had a short chat with them, followed by a long one with Ms Rajah. Who happened to rmb my CCA in TMS as Chinese Calligraphy and SJ's as library. -_-" But anyway, at least Ms Shirin recognised that I'm in Art ( which i think would be closed down soon.. Heard many members left the club for good. Wipee! *Oopss..* ) Told her about life in TJ and how everyone seems to be studying. Complained about my timetable and dismissal time. Notified her about the CCAs i'm gonna join in TJ. Updated her on well, wadever she asked. Haha. Feels real home to be standing with a familiar teacher and just talk on non-stop. Lolx. Well, anyway, we saw Alvin with his St. John ppl too and the 3 of us were "watching" how he's "ordering" his juniors around. Lolx. Which leaves me with only one teacher that I haven't officially seen. Not bad. But I won't give up going back to TMS till I meet every single one of them! ^_^ Saw Mrs CHen and Mrs Hong today again. They must be thinking "it's them again. Sick of seeing them again." Lolx. Saw Ms Neo leaving frantically in a taxi too. She bide goodbye to SJ but not to me. Sobz.. Ok la, I was behind her and I din say goodbye to her anyway. Haha.. Later, had lunch at bedok Mac. On our way there, we met ex-TMS and current TJian Year 2 who was rushing to TJ. Later on, while in Mac, we met her again. What a small world! Proceeded to Bugis to meet Mic and Tracy over at This Fashion. Shopped for New Year clothes with the 3 of them. Din know they came specially just to choose clothes for me and made them wait for hours. So guilty man.. Sigh.. Haha.. Anyway, went on shopping spree and bought lots of new clothes. Yeah, just me. haha. Esp liked the skirt with a chain attached to it. Gives a very attitude kinda feeling. Woopz! Ate Pastamania for dinner and went on to take NeoPrints. Haha. Seriously speaking, I seldom take NeoPrint and it's just such an exciting experience. Oh wells. I mean you will frantically try to look out for when the camera's gonna shoot and when it will time-out. Will be posting the photos up if possible later on.. Came home feeling a sense of great satisfation man! Such wonder day.. Perhaps one of the rare occasions in the near future of 2 years.. Friday, January 13, 2006 @ 6:50 PM
My school life in TJ thus far.. End of one school week! Yipee! Ok, this week was pretty slacky, with just lectures. ( Eh, and boring ones at that..xcept for bio..) I must say, from next week onwards, triple science students will be super slacky, cause we get to "enjoy" SPA every week.. Is that "cool" and "relaxing"? Lolx. And one good news for today! I got my wish of becoming chem rep. In exchange for a maths rep. Hee. To me, being nothing is betta than being a maths rep but being a maths rep is better than becoming other reps eg. Econs/GP. However, what thrills me most is to become CHEM REP! ^_^ Oh wells.. Pardon my excitement.. Hee.. Guess I'll be getting 2 PDPs. Yeah, sort of committing suicide on top of my heavy timetable. One, guitar. Two, LEO. Ok, guitar and LEO totally rawks man for their orientation. I dun resist doing anything there and i'm sure that I can enjoy myself to the fullest. ^_^ Went back to TMS once again today. Yeah, twice in a week. But once again, teachers going for a course and so, din get to meet alot of them. Sigh. At least got to meet Ms Neo though. Who was rushing to save her fish and later on, to a meeting/course or wadever la. Saw Ms Lela once again ( y she like so ying2 one? everytime free. ) Had a mini gathering with Mrs Chen. Did not get to see: Ms Rajah and Ms Woon ( who was said to be in the canteen.. Actually i tot i saw her, but not too sure plus i was going to meet XYN so yup.. ) Anyway, my idea to drop one science sub has been shaken somehow by an advice passed by mouth. "Hang on.." But well, I dun find the combi stressful -- yet. It's just that I dun like going home late almost everyday, plus i wanna take 2 CCAs, an elective, Bio H3, etc. Aiya, in short, I wanna a holistic education, developing various aspects of me, not just a study machine. I actually don't fear the workload (I believe nothing can be worse than what I went thru in sec sch).. oh well, i'll have my chance to have a face-to-face talk one day.. Meanwhile, i see our class gel-ing together more and more in our own fragmented ways. As in, scholars are sticking together more and more and the group I'm always in in the class is getting to know each other better too. haha. So yeah, good start anyway.. Pity thing is that there's too much studying going on. I dun like to study in school.. I find some lectures useless. Basically they're repeating their lecture notes. Which can be read at home and digested. Kinda boring to hear the things that's identical to wad you have in your hands. Instead of saying they teach, I would say they read from the "script". Lolx. Perhaps that's because we're only at fundamental concepts ba. Really feel like skipping lectures man. But I won't, of course.. Hee.. My conclusion is still as such. TMS is where I call my second home. TJ is where I call my school. If you all can get wad I mean lorx. In TMS, we have fun, talk, chat, play bball, crack jokes. We're like a big family.. In TJ, everyone is studying, mugging. Perhaps my third home would be within my PDP groups, where I guess would be sort of relaxing. Yeah.. ^_^ Next week start lesson full-blast. 2 days going home at 6.15. 2 days going home at 7. Only one day is slightly earlier. But still later than sec sch time-table. Mixed feelings. Looking forward to it, yet resisting it. Oh well.. "Believe and can achieve, dun believe and can't achieve.." Wednesday, January 11, 2006 @ 8:44 PM
Looking 4ward to JC life.. Wahaha! I have recovered about 90% of my voice le. Yay! Wopee! At least I dun cough all day long and there isn't really alot of phlegm le, though at times, I still can't project out my voice. Well, 3 more days. When Sat comes knocking on my door, I would have been fully cured of my bronchitis and all symptoms associated with it! With the recovery of my voice, I do not feel so sore about JC life le. At least i can talk to my frenz and CG-mates.. Hee. Though i still try to keep silent as I do not wish to exert my voice further b4 a full recovery! ^_^ Still, i realise that my CG is still rather divided. Well, between the locals and the scholars, but oh well.. It takes time.. Wipee! Hit a real down time when I first started school, mainly due to the illnesses. Now that recovery is just round the corner, i guess I will enjoy school life more le! But still, same sentence, TMS is still NOT replaceable.. ^_^ Rmbering those words.. "Keep Going.." "Participate a 100%".. Yes! I will participate more actively in class le, no longer that withdrawn, but on the other hand, playing a more proactive role in the class! But all this has gotta wait till next Mon, when I'm confident that I have fully recovered.. From that moment, i will be reborn. A new me. Hopefully an improved version of the previous me, and not a downgraded version. ^_^ Wahaha. Shocked to say this, but biology is the lesson i enjoyed the most. The science HOD really rawks a million tonnes man. Lolx. Plus, bio will touch on ALL the topics that i like, which is mainly molecular biology. ^_^ Chemistry started with stoiciometry, which is one of my fav part. Unfortunately, the teacher was those kind that try to be funny, but not funny ( sounds like me hor.. ) type.. Sigh.. Complete change from my previous teacher. Hee.. Physics started out quite boringly. Oopss.. Haha.. seems like all physics teachers are of the almost same pattern de. Lolx.. Maths.. wad happened ah? Can't recall la, that day sitted with my friends.. Only rmb the calculator part.. ^_^ Econs started out well, precisely what I would like to learn.. Hee.. So coincidential that the theory of supply and demand turned out to the be 1st topic we're gonna touch on.. Well, i have some idea on this theory because i read it from dunno wher dunno when.. haha.. GP gonna commerce tomolo.. Hopefully it'd turn out well. But anyway, I bet it's gonna be more interseting than the flat old English. Haha. At least no more narratives and all argumentative. ^_^ My fav part of english.. Hee.. Not that I'm confident of doing better than before, just that I know i'll enjoy it doubly than b4.. Yeah! Think I'm gonna join guitar club and LEO for PDPs or rather CCAs! Well, primary reason being that I wanna play Chong Sheng on the guitar. Lame rite? Oh well.. Plus, guan huai fang shi too.. ^_^ At least i can relax and have fun in these 2 CCAs. Ppl in guitar were great too, friendly and all. Expect a great time there, just hope that i can get in even w/o music background.. ^_^ Guess what? my CG got ALOT of ppl who have watched MDWAV b4!!! OMG.. Well, not really alot, but in comparison to my previous class, which was like.. zero, it's really a great leap forward.. Lolx. One even had VCD for part 2 and 3. Feel like borrowing from her, but oh well.. Not very nice rite? Plus if i bought on my own, i can watching it zillion times over.. Lolx. Even guys do watch the show too.. All 3 series somemore! So HAPPY! To think a one day promotion-cum-asking-around in my CG would yield more results than what i could have totally imagined! ^_^ ^_^ Tuesday, January 10, 2006 @ 3:32 PM
Lucky charm test buru, your lucky charm is a Lucky Penny! Stop looking to the sky to thank your lucky stars. You need to keep your eyes on the ground because lucky pennies are the good luck charms that could change your life. Starting now, you should see pennies in a whole new light. They're not just copper pieces destined to sit at the bottom of your coin jar. They're neglected pieces of American currency that carry with them a small piece of history—a history that has fatefully wound up in your hand. But before you go diving for every Abraham Lincoln you see on the street, remember that only heads-up pennies are considered lucky. If they're minted the same year you were (born that is), even better. But a penny with a hole in it is the luckiest of all. Wear it around your neck as a charm and watch your fortunes change. Tossing your lucky penny into a fountain could make your wildest wish come true. And if it doesn't, it's just time to find a new lucky penny. @ 3:11 PM
An eventful day Yay! Yesterday was a rather you3 shou1 huo4 day! First, went back to TMS! Wopee.. Sad thing was that most of the teachers were having a meeting.. Though i won't mind waiting till they were "dismissed". Lolx. Anyway, saw Ms Lela, who commented on my hair. Disturbed Chen Lao Shi in her class, who also commented on my hair. Last of all, we "ran" towards Mrs Hong, who well, commented on me too. Haha.. I changed that much mehx? Sad thing was that all 3 of them seemed busy. ML with her lunch. CLS with her class. MH with her girl guide thing and meeting. So yeah, conversations were brief and short. Well, nvm.. I guess I'd get my chance soon.. Dunno if i should change specs. This lens had been with me for 4 years and over these 4 years, my eyesight had not worsen much. The shop seemed to have shifted to a real faraway place and I 4got where it is. But, in lecture halls etc, esp when sitted at the back, things appeared to be quite blur. As in, slightly blur only.. Afraid of making a new spec from a new shop.. Wad if my eyesight worsen by a lot more?? Anyway, yest went to tampines lib to borrow TIAN YA CHUAN SHUO!!! So HAPPY!! Oh well, it's the 1st time in my life stepping into a library to borrow a book!! Lolx. Usually, i dun go lib de. If i do, it's just for fun and i'll just anyhow take some books to borrow, put at home to rot and return them just b4 the due date. Haha.. Not into the habit of reading books la in short.. Haha.. But this book is die die must borrow de!! Tian Ya Chuan Shuo aka Fly Me to THe Moon by Chen Shi San, erm.. call him Chan 13. Lolx. Hope that all my unanswered questions will all be answered by this book. Even though i sense that it's 2 complete diff things altogether, but nvm.. Wonder if i should finish reading the book today.. Life is such a major contradiction. I wanna just jump into it and finish reading. yet i fear the loneliness of "there's nothing left for me to do" after i finish reading.. Esp since i anticipated it so much.. Yest read a few page.. THere seemed to be an attractive force propelling me to read on but i stopped myself.. Lolx.. Otherwise i can see myself reading thru e night man.. MDWAV3 ended officially le. Agreeing with the rest, TELL ME THE SHOW DID NOT END JUST LIKE THAT.. Waited 8 years for this moment. from 1998 to 2006. That's half of my lifetime spent thus far ( 16 yr old ).. But well, on a lighter note, if the story ended like that, it only means that there must be a MDWAV 4.. So yah.. gotta wait again.. rumoured to be at least 3-4 yrs b4 they'll plan the story.. Some more years of waiting.. >.< @ 1:23 AM
First day of schooling.. Today was officially the first day of school. Well, mainly lectures. And a talk. Which i think was not necessary. Lolx. Erm. Though i think lecture was more of my way of studying, it's still well, boring. Considering the fact that I'm still in holiday mood. Yes, and I haven gotten enough of my MDWAV. Think I will be researching on vampires in the future. The next on my list thing, once I cleared all my doubts in the shows.. I stil dun think Tj teachers could beat those in TMS. Well, they can't really rite? Talking to a "class" of hundred odd students..-_-" They can just give a speech. They can't teach. Like "Anyone got any questions" kinda thing. Of course there's the tutorials. But well.. Things would never be the same again.. Considering giving up one science sub. Because after thinking thru, what's the use of having 3 sicence if at the end of the day, you dun need it at all? If my interest is there, i can always do self-study on the subject.. It's just, to put it bluntly, a waste of time, resources, money and brain cells.. So, now i gotta try out my 2 science, bio and physics and see which to give up.. In this way, i can dedicate time to my PDP and also join pyscho ( real pyscho, not sci-co ) electives.. That's a more all-rounded education and it's more balanced too.. Dunon why, that's just a sudden tot that came to my head today.. What's more, by doing so, i am opening doors to a H3 subject too.. A subject in exhange for a balanced education and time for my own life. What could be more worth than that? Saturday, January 07, 2006 @ 12:24 PM
In a dilemma Most probably going back to TMS next week. Looking forward to it.. For two reasons i guess.. One is basically to be back in this familiar place and look for the teachers too.. Two.. Weakling ba... Actually i would prefer to have two choices for CG. one, real close friends in the class. Two, gimme a class which has no Temasekians at all. You either retain your friends or attempt to make new ones. To be stranded in a class wher you do have friends there, but yet not exactly your close group, you'd really be caught in a dilemma at times. You would want to sort of stick around with TMSians, because after all same school. Yet, you'd wanna make new friends. And when you stick with TMSians, the rest are making new friends. When you try to make new friends, the other TMSians are also doing so. And when you are with your new friends, you wanna be in existence with the other TMSians too, so you'd leave the new friends for a while. But TMSians would already have new friends and won't really stick as a TMSians group or bother much about you le. And your new friends would have bonded w/o you already. Aiya, wadever i'm talking larx. Just trying to say you lose friends at both ends la in short.. And diff clans from my old friends is also a major prob too. You hope that they'd contact you or something, but they don't. You hope that we'd go home together, but that's not the case. You hope to be with them when they're near you, but yet you're "duty-bound" to stick with your clan. Diff OGs is also a prob. you hope to stick together, but yet you won't wanna segregate yourself from your own CG or OG. You want to socialize with new friends, but yet in your heart, you wished that you could just have fun with your old friends, esp if they're just a few cm from you.. I guess this is just the a normal proccess that everyone go thru. It's jsut a matter of how you can handle such situations. To satisfy everyone. Sad to say, I have poor interpersonal skills, which means I can't cope with this. I'm used to living a life by myself b4 I entered TMS. ( shan't go into details about my past ) It's only in TMS that i started to pick up these skills. And i can't apply them now because i can't even talk! Sigh.. wad more further can I say? Maybe it's destined that I have to face such a challenge in life. You won't grow up till you meet difficulties? No use fighting against fate.. @ 12:01 PM
Orientation week Finally the long awaited break.. It seems that a week has passed so soon yet so slowly.. And sigh.. Tomolo is the last episode of MDWAV.. Haiz.. But anway, a show is coming up on Channel U next week, which i tot did have vampires in it ( though it's a wu3 xia2 pian4?? ) Yay! ^_^ Orientation has ended. Well, my conclusion is that I still prefered TMS's orientation. Dun ask me why, i dunno. It's just a personal preference. I just found TJ's way weird. We weren't even brought to tour around the school and familiarize ourselves with the routes. Instead, we were made to blindly run all around the school for the 1st dat. Lolx. I don't even know where all the diff blocks of classrooms are honestly.. Well, found the activities a bit too little. ( although many complained that it was tiring, I found the timing too relaxed already.. ) The most memorable one is the Suntec mass dance thingy. Yeah. Though I made a fool out of myself by dancing rubbish, at least it was a nite where you just go crazy and be SIAO! Ran around that fountain ( of wealth? ). Wished i could run more rounds.. Wasn't even panting or tired or anything. When you run, you must completely exhaust yourself, that's the best feeling of running.. To free yourself from everything till you have no more energy to think further. ^_^ CG 01/06.. Well, i must say, i still find that the class would be a close-bonded one. But sigh.. I couldn't really bond with them because of these reasons: senstive throat --> throat infection --> bronchitis --> too much mucus --> lose voice --> left ear gone partially deaf when I held my nose and tried to force the phlegm out --> breathing difficulty ( due to bronchitis ). And oh ya, i was diagnosed with bronchitis, not chronic bronchitis, so don't link it with smoking.. Din bother to explain all my illnesses too, because it's already a miracle that i can voice out one sentence. Lolx. Because of all these illness that started that Friday just before school re-opened, i couldn't really catch up with the rest whom were walking so fast. ( due to the bronchitis ) When they're talking, i can't really catch what they're trying to say.( due to the left ear, dunno wad happened to it. I guess giving it some time, after which i have to go to a specialist ) When i try to say something, they can't really get wad i'm talking ( when you ask a question, sometimes, they tot i was just talking and nodded politely. Lolx. It's a question and i was expecting an answer.. ) so i gave up talking. Except to a few whom can understand what I'm trying to say anyway.. So ya. The class bonded, but i wasn't really bonded in. Lolx. Basically, i'm already an introvert when i meet new people. To top it up, I had to be "inflicted" with all these illnesses coming simultaneously. Feels really downright rotten at times. Anyway, our class is sort of split into 3 groups, in my opinion. One, the more el type of ppl. Two, the more chinese type and shy type of ppl. Three, the weird and un-N2 type... i guess i would fall into the 2nd category. but with my illnesses, i bet the impression i gave others would be type 3. Sigh.. Haiz. Wat to do? Live with it lor. And hope for 2nd orientation to change their views. ( and of course, i should have no illnesses by then! ) And YEAH! Best clan... Zenith! I tot we would emerge 1st too, so intially when the news came that we were last, i was totally taken aback. "Are you sure??" Luckily, all went well later on. Not only were we not last, we were best too! Good one, CGs, OGs, OGLs and clan master ( Ben Tay? ) Tuesday, January 03, 2006 @ 7:03 PM
My 1st day's reflections Today was the first day of school.. A new life.. Bodes well and ill for me.. In a sense, it's a good thing that you're in a new place, where no one knows you, nothing is familiar.. Finally, the burden shouldered could be put down.. Finally, the space to breathe comes back.. Finally, the life i live is for myself.. But it also means starting everything from scratch.. It doesn't feel good to just lose everything and start all over from zero again.. Seeing new ppl, separated from old friends. Looking at new staffs, no longer having the exact same ties once shared with TMS teachers. Looking at the environment, no longer that familiar, that green, that cosy, that Home.. Suddenly, everything that I onced had, school, environment, friends, teachers are all "refreshed".. Suddenly you need to build up your new network of friends, classmates, teachers.. Constantly, a song was playing at the back of my mind.. When i simply just daze, i recall that very music.. Suddenly, it just feels like you lose everything.. Suddenly, it just feels like it's the end of the world.. Honestly speaking, I don't mind sacrificing my carefree life in exchange for the life i used to lead in the last 2 years.. Honestly, i hate the idea of adapting to a new environment.. I simply resist changes.. But circumstances dun allow me to be that xiao1 sa3.. ( Finally, i understood wad those words mean, the wu2 nai4 behind them.. ) In this world, everything has a certain pattern to go by, you can't act as you wish.. The only road out is actually to carry on moving forward.. There's nothing wrong with my new class... Everyone is still kinda stranger to each other.. It's just a normal process.. Just needa have some more time together.. But i know it's never be the same as 4Synergy 2005. There's no 2nd 4S ever.. I find myself trapped in the same senario in the past.. Those dark memories in TMS.. That very same feeling.. The fact that you seem to be physically in a group, but not mentally nor socially.. When you meet people of your type, you form a group naturally with them.. When you try to join a group, it ain't the same.. When i finally found my group, reality has to tear us apart by separating us.. That's the way of life.. I won't attempt to change this inevitable process, for when you try to change something, the change hits you back doubly hard.. Just gotta live with it.. Today basically was orientation. A bit of talk. Team building. Class bonding. Played ice-breakers. Basically, i like my class. The feeling that, yes good time will lie ahead is there.. But i dun like the Trivia thing.. We're not in our CGs.. Suddenly, those dark memories will just come haunting and leave me running back behind my shell once again.. Anyway, SC there were great. Independent. Esp that guy that held the mike most of the time. Know his priorities and won't hesitate to even correct the actions of his fellow OGLs and SCs. That's a true leader. One that I would salute to.. Basically, I still prefer the orientation in TMS. TJ's wasn't bad, but just not to my liking.. Oh well.. Council do the admin, PSL do the fun, Sports Cap do the cheers, Class Managers do some leading.. You do things in the classroom, bond as a class.. Those good old days.. Once today ends, tomolo will arrive. And it'd mark another new beginning for me, though in a smaller form.. I'll stil be the same old me once again.. The days spent struggling will be pulled through soon.. But i seriously dunno how much longer i can hang on.. Before i end this entry, just wanna share a character.. Ma Xiao Ling.. She's stubborn, dun wanna lose face, determined, strong, real sarcastic when scolding others and seems to be totally unfeeling.. In actual fact.. She's someone cold and hard on the outside, but real fragile inside. She is also someone who doesn't dare to express her own feelings freely. Deep inside her, she wishes to do those things that she want to do.. Monday, January 02, 2006 @ 1:00 PM
Hello New Life! Finally I decided to renew my Links section. Lolx. After procrastinating for so long! Lolx. Tomolo shall mark the start of a new chapter in my life. Lots of mixed feelings. But I must say, excitement is the strongest feeling that I have now.. ( Even though I sort of dun wanna it to start cause i wanna be immersed in MDWAV, but oh well.. It's time to wake up from my dream and come back to reality.. ) New school. New class. New classmates. In short, new environment. A brand new start. A perfect fullstop to my sec sch life and the beginning of my JC paragraph. Things would never be the same again. But just wanna say once again, TMS and Temaskians and 4Sians will always live on 4eva in my heart! *The memories might disappear, but the feelings remains* Been posted to 01/06. The only remaining 4S classmate there is Joe. 5 Temasekians in the class. Includes John and Peng Soon too. Well. An official Hi to my old Temasekians cum new TJ classmates! ^_^ Things would never be the same in the physically sense. But as long as we believe, nothing would have changed actually.. Believe and it is the same, Don't believe and it isn't the same..~~ Sunday, January 01, 2006 @ 10:14 PM
MDWAC coming soon! Wow.. MDWAV is just a few minutes away.. So excited!! Story hitting climax le! Where all the mysteries start to unveil themselves. As the once-heroes of MDWAV 1 and 2 awakes and undertake their supposed role ( not the current, talk and talk and talk somemore role.. can't be helped though, she's injured.. sigh.. ) And i realised that MDWAV is simply a story built purely on science theories. No wonder it attracted me that much. Lolx. Even in the past.. This show both explores humanity as well as explains chim chim science theories ( that scientists currently still can't come up with an answer de) in a more not-so-science-journal way but in a visual-and-more-accepted way.. Oh well. Mysteries, science theories, time travel, ideology of life, meaningful and inspiring quotes that can set you thinking. All my fav. What reason can I give not to like this show? Lolx. School re-opening soon le.. Can postpone one week? Then i can watch the final episode of MDWAV and read thru the spoiler threads. Lolx. @ 2:03 PM
Handphone bought. Samsung E640 I have finally bought my phone on 30/12. Well, yes, that day when i fell sick. Lolx. It's a Samsung E640 phone. Clamshell design. Sleek and elegant. Small and compact multimedia handphone.  Description: - Bluetooth enabled. USB port available. - 32 MB internal memory. No external memory slot. - MP3 player. - 1.3MP camera. - Tri-band. - Java-enabled. - Stores up to 200 sms. These are basically some of the more important functions that I look out for. Downfall: - Small memory space. - Photos taken in the dark have poor quality. - No message counter. - Default photos etc taking up loads of space and can't be deleted!! Thumbs-up: - Great display resolution. ( Quite like SE's quality ) - Pictures very clear when uploaded onto com. - Easy synchronizing with computer or other devices. - Fast despite having taken up almost all the space on the phone ( which is much more better SE which lags like nobody's business.. lolx. ) - User-friendly ( combination of nokia and samsung - i happen to use both. Lolx ) - MP3 sound quality great despite having compressed it to a small size of around 2MB. - Soft keys means easy access to shortcuts. - Cool design. - Keypad size just right and nicely spaced. ( Goodbye to my widely spaced Nokia phone and small and squeezed-up SE phone. ) - Protection given to important messages. - Voice clarity great. This is indeed a power phone considering both sides of the story, with just the main prob being the small memory space. But it doesn't bother me much, not gonna treat it as my MP3 anyway. Have just like 8 songs and some pix in the phone and there's still room for more.. So far, 2 days of using it, I only have praises for it. Whether it's gonna be good in the long-term, I can't say, but I certainly hope so! ( and i believe it will be.. ) ^_^ * Wil not be buying MP3 or listening to many songs with the ear piece. Been afraid it'd spoil my ear and this was affirmed by a recent report. So yup, my ear sort of have ringing problems le, so dun wanna spoil it further. Anyway, i seldom listen to songs outside de. Kinda deaf now already. Lolx. @ 1:50 PM
The arrival of 2006 Goodbye 2005 and Hello 2006.. While watching the countdown show last night, I was just suddenly sadden by the end of 2005.. That particularly eventful year.. 1) The end of my 4 years sec school life. 2) The year of 0-level. 3) The pioneer generation of 4Synergy. 4) The hide-and-seek. Well, there's lots more, but I guess it won't help living in the past and reminscing in history. At the same time, there's also a surge of joy as to the upcoming 2006. New life, new school, new friends. Would this be a change for the better? Or will this prove to be the greateset challenge of the year - to adapt to the new environment? Things have changed physically and will never be the same as ever. But mentally, I'm sure the memories in everyone out there will not fade that easily. ^_^ Good luck everyone in the year 2006! |
The familiar road to humanities room..
The stairway to...??
Our school's guardian "tortoise"..
Haix.. Rmbering those days.. We would always pass by this route..
