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Sunday, November 30, 2008 @ 11:46 AM
nobody knows "你永远不懂我伤悲，就像白天不懂夜的黑" nobody knows. shhh.. Saturday, November 29, 2008 @ 10:06 AM
Nerd's birthday yest was nerd's birthday (happy birthday) and me,qh,vin and him went to PP :) to get his pet. haha. anw there was this super uber active hamster. ran so fast on that circular looking exercise track (i dunno wads that called). at some point of time, it made 360 degree turn cuz it was going much too fast. lolx. here's the final hamster bought :)    and that's a christmas tree! -.- random enough @ 9:36 AM
当情已不在 read about Quan Yi feng and her husband's divorce case. hmm, wad caught my attention was the 宣言 they published on the newspaper. "虽然不能白头偕老，但至少曾经一起笑过，哭过，一起度过快乐的日子与伤心的日子” （not in exact words, but the meaning is somewhat that.） 感觉有时说来就来，说走就走。感觉已不在时，应该果断地结束，让彼此留下最美好的回忆；还是应该试着挽回，不让那份情淡化至消失？但或许这个问题一点也不重要，重要的是有过曾经在一起的回忆，也能说是无怨无悔。曾经真心付出过，轰轰烈烈的写出一篇属于他们的故事，哪怕未来是如何 - 那或许才是最重要的。 是一种执着或是一种固执？ 是一个交代或是一个借口？ 是对彼此的负责或是包袱？ 答案：无 Wednesday, November 26, 2008 @ 7:10 PM
Some magic tricks shall randomly post 2 simple magic tricks over here :) They're really simple to carry out and easy to know the trick behind them. haha. 1) How to get your hp no. on your calculator
How to solve this should be quite obvious ba. haha the hint is to think simple - there is nothing complicated over here. :) 2) http://www.readthemind.com/ well apparently this crystal ball can read your mind. but there's a simply logic behind it actually. and the person who posted this link stil hasn't gotten a reply on how to solve it (LOL) I think there are 3 crucial things to note for this trick and you are on your way to solving this magic. and don't worry, the crystal ball isn't reading your mind. =.= tada~ have fun! Tuesday, November 25, 2008 @ 2:53 PM
4 papers down, 1 more to go wow. 3 official day of NUS exams. and guess wad? i've completed 4 out of my 5 papers. lolx. started my first paper on the first day of the exam period, had 2 exams yesterday and 1 "final" paper today. :) and i think i prefer cramped timetable than a spread out one, cuz you can end your misery ASAP. yest was really tiring. first thing, i couldn't sleep the nite before, despite going to bed at 11pm. ended up with only 3+ hr of sleep. zzz. and gotta go for 2 tests somemore. lolx. and to make things worse, the next day (aka today), there's an early paper. AH! reached home at 9pm+ yest. *tired* but it all ended today. ok not officially. still got one more module. one week of rest! wohoo~ anw just a short comment about yest's bu fan de ai's ending. i kinda liked wad was portrayed - how bufan's family was shocked initially, but they din give up on him; and through their support, he finally stood up again. sometimes it might feel easy to give up, and that it's useless to persist onel; but always remember that your persistence might mean alot to others. anyhow, it ought to be a happy ending, but as usual i felt quite sad. sad that such concern only seems to surface when a crisis strikes, when people suddenly realise the importance of people around them. it's touching to see how they stood by each other in the toughest of time; it's just sad to see that they know (consciously) that they have each other only in that period of time. but of cos, the qn of "is it necessarily to know about all these? can such feelings exist just like that without a conscious effort of knowing?" maybe if Bufan wasn't striken by the disease, his family might not have drawn that close. or rather, their closeness wouldn't have surfaced. and maybe, they might grow further apart with time. Who knows? the uncertainties of life.. Sunday, November 23, 2008 @ 8:25 PM
45th anniversary show currently watching the 45 Anniversary Show.. even though i wasn't from the generation of 80s, but just felt that the songs sung could really connect people from that generation together. i dunno why i have such a sudden thought also. usually i will just get rather sian listening to those oldies. but today as i look at how some of the audiences (aka artistes) swayed and sang along with the song and wore that smile, it gave me a rather feel-good feeling. and i stopped to wonder if there'd be any songs that are able to connect people of my generations together. no song came readily to my mind actually when i try to think of one. but maybe 20 years down the road, the songs that i din really notice now will become songs that trigger memories of the past (aka the present) in the future. was becoming more skeptical about my generations (and beyond) being able to have anything that they have real solid connections to, since we have so many choices available. tv is no longer a scarcity nor luxury; it has become a necessity. and maybe more is less. since we can get so many things so easily, they are not so well-treasured by us. maybe they're really things that we'd lik to treasure, just that we've never noticed this fact. when it's gone, it doesn't really affect us. that is until one fine day when that part of the memory was once again awakened, and we begin to realise wad have we missed in our lives. and just then.. they showed stuff from my generation. star search; city beat; Liang si mei. :) and just felt touched - i dunno why got this feeling also la. so random. haha. these are shows that grew with me, and i definitely enjoyed watching them, yet if there weren't this deliberate effort to showcase all these memories of the past, i wouldn't have even recalled them out of the blue. maybe that's wad we call losing our memories - we don't really lose that memory, we simply lose memory of the memory. once we remember that such a memory exist, we recall that memory. nice nice show! at first i thought it'd be quite lame. but hu knows it'd have such an impact on me. :) @ 1:17 PM
What does my birthday tell about me Just did a test about "What does my birthday tell about me" on facebook. "You often have problem in promoting yourself, just because you don't know how to express your true self. On the other hand, you don't really care what they think. This is why people misunderstand you until they really get a chance to learn about your pleasant personality. Opposite sex find you mysterious and worth searching. Your wit is remarkable but sometimes you are too fast to follow. Your Love, You won't reveal your feeling even after dreaming about the same guy over and over. Your first love lasts forever. You are responsible to the feeling of your lover. The chance to betray your lover is none. You have luck with children. " Saturday, November 22, 2008 @ 6:29 PM
A Forbidden Pensee AHHHHH!!!! i finally found it!!!!!! :)) THAT anime song that i was searching for for a LONG LONG TIME. i first heard it when i was in pri sch. and i dun even know what anime is that. i just heard the song. and at such a small age, the lyrics were stuck in my head. they just grew on me - i din even make the effort to take a look at the lyrics or something. been trying to search for the song by typing the lyrics (Thoughts forbidden to see you once again; angels from above are telling me to pray.) all these while. and finally, now i get search result, that is the totally correct one!! English version - A Forbidden Pensee it sounds VERY weird and unlike what i have in my mind - but the lyrics are there. tune is right and music is there, just that the person singing it has a very weird tone? Lyrics Thinking of all the times that we have shared, Can no longer live between the two of us You bare the strength to go on with your life, Who knows when we’ll meet again.. I,feel you in the summer wind, The love inside of me is keeping me alive, No time to think of the mistake, The one mistake I have made, Is causing me pain. Soar through the sky to see how high you go, No one can touch you, So fly to and fro,. Dreams shall always remain untold and low, Awake and realize it’s all true. Thoughts forbidden, To see you once again, Angels from above are telling me to pray, Stars in the sky, Are showing us the way, Never let go of all the hope Thoughts forbidden, Can’t justify this pain, Don’t lose the love that Lights up all the stars, Lay me down, I pray your soul to keep, Where love can be found I,see your smile everything, The beauty flows inside for me, And keep me alive, Do you think of the past, The past that brought joy to you, And filled up your heart Memories filled with pain still linger on, Must face the truth, Cause our love is now gone, Never forget the joy, That we had, Come hold my hand while we can. Thoughts forbidden, To see you once again, Angels from above are telling me to pray Stars in the sky, Are showing us the way, Never let go of all the hope, Thoughts forbidden,Can’t justify this pain, Don’t lose the love that, Lights up all the stars, Lay me down, I pray your soul to keep, Where love can be found. Japanese Version - 禁断のパンセ Sounds more lik what i have in my mind - though not exactly. nicer than el version, but i dun understand a single thing. =X @ 2:13 PM
GEM is over! wee~ just came back from my first final exam! that proclaims the end of my GEM module! haha.. actually the final exam was quite fun :) anw i realised wad was my weak area le - it's about questions which asked for "which is the best statement that.." and my strongest area is "what is consistent/inconsistent" but the thing is, we were supp to find out about this weakness before the exam, which i actually found out during the exams. LOL! and as usual, just like my other MCQ tests, i'm here to complain about the same thing again.. i changed a right ans to a wrong one. oh wells. =X my GEM is officially over~ Bye plato/socrates (whoever is hiding behind whoever, or whatsoever relationship they might have) and various theories of justice! it's been an exciting journey isn't it? "So long, and thanks for all the fish!" (*tssk* tonite got Hitch-hiker's guide to the galaxy :)) **** heard over the radio that Japan might be considering legalising virtual marriage. and the DJ made an interesting comment. it's a 精神上的寄托罢了，岂能对不真实；虚幻的东西有感情？ hmm. how real are things that we can literally see and feel; and how fake are things that isn't supposed to there? I mean things over the net - ain't they things that is seenable, yet it's considered virtual; so what exactly is the thing that makes something real? Is it necessary to have emotions only towards thing that is real? Let's say.. you fantasize about something, is that emotion that you devoted to that something in just your mind not supposed to be there in the first place, by virtue of the fact that it isn't real? Real world; fake world? wad's the difference? **** wow just 4 more days and 4 of my modules will be done. then 1 more week to the end of one module! wee~ Thursday, November 20, 2008 @ 6:36 PM
students are not as happy Just heard this research findings conducted at NTU over radio: In the process of learning/studying, students lose some happiness. LOL. obviously since the target group is students, this kind of results wil be obtained. haha. aka dun need to survey in the first place. isn't that an understood fact?? =P I WANT A NEW BLOGSKIN! Wednesday, November 19, 2008 @ 6:37 PM
Advantage of the stronger? Think about this possibility: When someone is a stickler for definition, is the person really concerned about the conclusion that will arise? Or maybe the person is simply trying to show that no definition can be reached? The latter is an interesting thought. When a person says or does something, is he/she really doing or saying that thing, or is he/she trying to mean the other thing? Anw, I am disturbed by the fact that when others demand the need of clarity from us, we assume many things to be held constant; and when we demand the need of clarity from others, we are so picky about the nitty gritty details and making sure that defintion/explanation holds true all the time, that is, even if we think of some bizarre things to dispel the stand. haha! Doesn't this sound familiar?? What am I trying to say? haha.. Clue: Was just looking at some stuff for my GEM module. lol. @ 6:26 PM
Y2J' performance @ NUS Y2J's performance @ NUS. Ai Zai Mo Ri Qian Wu Zhuang de Xiao Qiang Wei Le Ni Er Huo Tuesday, November 18, 2008 @ 4:28 PM
Some touching songs 黄靖伦 - 月光 小时候妈妈唱的一首歌 陪我走过春夏秋冬 漫长黑夜里点亮了远方的灯 指引着我往前走 长大后身边的人总是沉默 把自己的心反锁 幸好有你这首歌温暖着我 不会忘记了初衷 慢慢地一二三 渐渐地在两端 独自穿过陌生街头 不让泪逗留 一样的月光 蒸发了泪光 爱让有情的人可以去跟痛抵抗 一样的月光 照在我的心上 有爱我的人陪我生活就有方向 喜悦 悲伤 因你而发光 陪我 去闯 长大后身边的人总是沉默 把自己的心反锁 幸好有你这首歌温暖着我 不会忘记了初衷 慢慢地一二三 渐渐地在两端 独自穿过陌生街头 不让泪逗留 一样的月光 蒸发了泪光 爱让有情的人可以去跟痛抵抗 一样的月光 照在我的心上 有爱我的人陪我生活就有方向 一样的月光 蒸发了泪光 爱让有情的人可以去跟痛抵抗 一样的月光 照在我的心上 有爱我的人陪我生活就有方向 喜悦 悲伤 因你而发光 陪我 去闯 长大后身边的人总是沉默 把自己的心反锁 幸好有你这首歌温暖着我 不会忘记了初衷 well (intentionally dissecting this song), i like what part of the lyrics is saying. "as time passes, there are changes that comes along, eg. people becoming more distant and withdrawn; yet there are things that still remains constant, eg. the moonlight you see (ok not things as literal as this). no matter how things have changed, i guess it's only the apparent outlook that has changed; the true inherent self cannot change with time, it can only be thought to have changed over time. sometimes i dunno if we're indeed changing, that forms the social norm that as we grow up, ABCD will occur; or is it the other way round, that is, we are so affected by the social norms that it becomes a self-fulfiling prophecy. 老夫老妻潘裕文 我能為你試著聊星座 妳卻不肯陪我看棒球 從前會計較誰付出的多 現在卻變成樂在其中 時間的手 牽著我們慢慢走 終於找到和諧的節奏 我不再浪漫 妳也不再溫柔 卻能異口同聲的說想吃些什麼 貼心的小動作 盡在不言中 默契隨著時間更深厚 原來老夫老妻真不錯 我做的飯妳嫌西嫌東 妳開車時換我變囉唆 生活中的芝麻和綠豆 淡是淡些回味卻無窮 時間的手 牽著我們往哪走 走到哪裡都有妳陪我 我不在浪漫 妳也不在溫柔 卻能同時歡呼說今晚星星好多 很幸福的感受 盡在不言中 白頭髮的情人和朋友 原來老夫老妻真不錯 我少了擁抱 妳也少了撒嬌 卻能成為彼此最堅定的依靠 再牽著妳的手 少了點悸動 卻多了份安心和感動 原來老夫老妻真不錯 I never really took note of the lyrics when i was shi-ting-ing the song; yet when it was introduced on 933fm that day, i actually listened to the lyrics and i really liked it. Just a sudden thought, Peter Pan seems to be like the next Ocean - his image and style of songs. Anw, i guess as time passes, we begin to find what truly matters to us and forsake being overly concerned about those nitty gritty stuff that doesn't really have any meaning behind it at all. it's just like the old couples in this song - they might no longer be romantic as ever and express their love through deliberate words and actions; yet what they are experiencing is a love that has transcended all those formalities, that is, finding security, happiness, chemistry, etc by virtue of the fact that they are with each other. i guess this maps onto a type of process? as a kid, we dunno anything. as we grow up, we begin to be corrupted by the environment/social norms and become blinded to things that truly matters; instead, we pursue things that might not have any meaning at all. after battling for that half a century, we finally realised that what we have isn't wad we really want, and grow to see what happiness truly mean to us. hopefully that final stage comes to all of us and sooner. :) 不知曾几何时忘了自己喜欢过的那种感动。。正在找回的途中。 Monday, November 17, 2008 @ 3:05 PM
義峰~忠實聽眾 感谢你在世界还没遗弃我时，唱了许多好歌，让我不寂寞。 - 忠实听众 Sunday, November 16, 2008 @ 9:43 PM
Forensic dilemma case Saw this interesting article today on LianHe ZaoBao.. it's about forensic. :) well there's this hypothetical situation: A person jumps off a building from the 10th floor. well suicide? When he was at the 9th floor (while falling), a gun shot hit him. it was diagnosed that the gun shot killed him. so was it suicide or murder? to complicate things, there's a safety net on the 8th floor so there's so way he could hav died from the jump. so the person who pulled the trigger killed him? however, the one who pulled the trigger was actually a man having a fight with his wife. his son hated his mum and hence knowing that the father loved to show off his gun without bullet, actually loaded his gun with bullet (so that the mother will die from the gun shot) so the person who loaded the bullet was the killer? but.. the guy who made that jump was the son of the guy who pulled the trigger, aka the guy who loaded the bullet. so the guy killed himself, though not suicide?!? haha. interesting isn't it? forget the possibility that it could even happen. eg. why would someone commit suicide when he can see the safety net on the 8th floor? (if he can't c, the net won't save him anyway). why would the son commit suicide when his plan to kill his mum is about to succeed? (or maybe he's feeling guilty?) wells. no matter how, i think that's how i c it. it's just simply suicide. the person who pulled the trigger din meant to kill the guy, who was out to kill himself anyway. it's just quite unfortunate that he happened to kill him, and the guy happened to be his son. (yeah, all the anti-"diminished responsibility" argument comes in, but to me, intention is still the main thing) and wad's more, the guy deserved his death for plotting to kill his mother in the first place. it's his misfortune tat he died from his own plans, yet it's just his just desert. if i were to analyse the case, it might seem complicated initially, but it's a matter of looking more closely into each component, and perhaps there'd be an answer? this is such a cool and hard dilemma case mans. nice one. haha. @ 9:41 PM
IQ game Chanced upon this rather interesting game.. http://freeweb.siol.net/danej/riverIQGame.swf The situation: - the 6 people need to get across the river: father, mother, 2 daughter, 2 son, one criminal and 1 cop - father can't be left with daughter, mother can't be left with son. - criminal cannot be left alone with the family. haha apparently those who played this game felt pretty disturbed with the rules. lol Friday, November 14, 2008 @ 8:41 PM
Last Day of Sem last day of school le! wells.. it's really fast.. esp term 2 - it just seems to fly by. hmms.. am i sad or happy? i guess happy that one sem is over - and dun need to go back sch except for exams. but perhaps (instead of sad) feeling a bit weird that things ended as aruptly as they started. maybe i'm used to having school for at least 2yrs? such that coming and going just like that makes me feel a bit akward.. wells. last few lectures - and all the lecturers started thanking us for being patient with them and for taking their module and hoped it has been enjoyable for us. (quotes econs lecturer: "wow im so proud of all of u. now you know all about macro econs. all in 6 weeks"! and her tone was really funny. lol) i dunno how much they meant those words - whether they said them because it seems the right thing to do, or if they really felt as though we've grown with them, it did make me feel a little tinge of sadness that it's coming to an end. but i dun really feel much for the modules la though. i guess my most enjoyed module this sem has to be my GEM. i guess i was quite lucky to have decided to read the description of what the module was about - because the title "reasoning and persuasion" definitely wouldn't attract me much. (i was desperate for a module to make up 5 modules back then) wells, although i alw say that i'm cheated by the description (which said we will do Descartes. hmph), but overall the module isn't really all that painful la. although Plato talks about things that i ain't really interested in (justice, virtues blah), but i lik the thinking process that i went through in this module. really tested my extremes in thinking capacities siah - and with the subsequent discovery that i have a warped mind. (lol) and at the end of the day, still gotta credit Plato la - he's such a loveable-cum-hatable character (you know when u read his dialogues - he's so interestingly ironical that u can't wait to give him a slap or tape his mouth. haha!) and yes lecturer was definitely interesting and funny and the-usual-philosopher-qualities. :) overall impression of uni: life's pretty good, nothing terrible has happened to me yet. Perhaps uni is a lonely place - but i'm quite lucky to hav a rather fixed group of frens to move around. i guess i'll get used to this kind of loneliness somehow sometime. Thursday, November 13, 2008 @ 9:43 PM
MVs and more MVs 許仁杰 - 夢見 hmmm.. i think it's more of those 耐听 song. din hav very good impression of it when i first heard it; but now i feel the sincerity in his voice. :) and just so happen that the related search list has jinglun's song too! wow the search list knows how to categorise stuff according to my likes! 黃靖倫 - 月光MV \ and coincidentally, 周定緯 寂寞包廂 is there too 悲伤舞曲。。hmmm.. Monday, November 10, 2008 @ 9:42 PM
Birthday Thanks to all the birthday wishes from those who remembered: (sms) qh, ruiqi, cuixia, cherylene, nerd, sj, john, florence, see hui, evelyn, sarah, meiyin, michelle, binfang, benny, jason (facebook) everyone hu wished me.. thanks! haha. a bit lazy to check out facebook which is very laggy. anw, really glad that frens whom i have not met for a long time stil bothered to leave me a msg. greatly appreciated :) and also new frens met at engin oweek made the effort to write on my wall. thanks! yest went to Giant with parents. lol. one of the most random place to go on birthdays. oh wells. anw, saw something happy. the digi cam that i'm looking at has dropped in prx! only 289 now. wohoo~ thanks to the following ppl for the gifts too: - Qh nerd vin: for the laptop bag and card (but NOT THE PORK!) came in handy :) - cherylene: the bracelet! nice :) @ 9:10 PM
Fake world 活 著 詞 : 崔惟楷 ／ 曲 : 宋 念 宇 是誰讓冰冷的世界突然 變得火熱 是誰讓我感覺我不是 孤單一個 是誰讓所有簡單的心情 失而復得 是誰讓煩腦挫折不再那麼 苦澀 太多的虛偽 在我們面前 無所謂 為你唱首歌 為生命嘶吼著 摧毀多餘的 對錯的規則 這世界太扯 那些悲傷的 該停了 為你唱首歌 慶祝我們活著 這是快樂的 值得感動的 你我的心跳 都該被附和 被記得 是誰把每個平淡日子都變得深刻 是誰把我的天空塗上燦爛顏色 太多的虛偽 在我們面前 無所謂 為你唱首歌 為生命嘶吼著 摧毀多餘的 對錯的規則 這世界太扯 那些悲傷的 該停了 為你唱首歌 慶祝我們活著 這是快樂的 值得感動的 你我的心跳 都該被附和 被記得 there's so much fakeness in this world - maybe it comes in the form of a lie; maybe it comes in the form of lies to cover up for lies (and infinite no. of lies); maybe it comes in the form of smiling in front of others, only to backstab them in the dark; maybe it comes in the form of knowing that all these are occurring yet still needing to pretend that all these are not existing (so that maybe life is better for you; life is better for others; or simply to live in a a fake world of happiness) and there's this idea of right and wrong; what ought to be and what ought not to be. when it works to one's advantage, one will state everything in black and white and follow strictly by it. when it disadvantage one, one will start to tweak right and wrong, making it favourable to one's situation. so in the first place, it's redundant to have concepts of right and wrong - you simply just do wad you think is something you really want to do, and admit to it. even if you have a warped mind, it beats seeing people with a slippery mind. = JingLiang Char rocks! :) So does ah Qiao! it's alw better to come clean than to hide a lie with more and more and more lies. in fact, when one think ppl dunno about the stacks of lies; but actually having so many lies simply made the first lie so obvious - just a matter of whether one is exposed that's all. Sunday, November 09, 2008 @ 12:22 AM
Yi Wu Fan Gu Yi Wu Fan Gu ended. hmms. i like the starting part of the show. the atmosphere was great and the 铺排 of the plots :) but it got draggy along the way (think 40 eps too long). but the ending was quite good. Aaron finally saw something wrong with wad he was doing towards the very end. but actually i din think he tot he did wrong, just that there was something wrong with what he did. he simply realised that at the end of the day with all the wealth and power he had, he ends up getting nothing at all. that's a wrong move, but not his wrong - as seen from his constant blame on heaven. anw. that's one villian character that i din like.. (unlike jingliang and ah qiao ^^) and i guess.. he's just someone who does evil and don't think he's doing evil and doesn't admit to his wrongdoings but just blame every other people for it. he just likes to create excuses for himself, not having real reasons behind his acts. and if he can even use his close family as a mean to achieve his ends - that speaks alot about him. but i really liked the scene which shows him helpless on his bed and eventually his death in hospital. it was rather touching.. he has done his loved ones wrong, yet at the end of the day, those who stood by him are still his close ones. i lik that concern they have for him. i liked the way he cried and suffer. I think Aunt Qiao is really a strong woman and the actress has shown that strong side of her well. she stands steadfast to her own beliefs. she does not do what everyone thinks it's rite, she simply does wad she thinks she ought to do. when jingjing committed murder, she took the blame. when her son was on life support, she made the decision to end his life. she was strong in making those decisions; she went mad in the end. there's only so much one can take. i quite like the fact that she went mad (as in not like but wells..) cuz it shows that everyone has a breaking point somehow. she decides wad's best for her son and she accepts the madness that wil come along with that decision. anw, it was really a story doomed for tragedy. everyone in the family suffered. aaron and baorong died. aunt qiao and jingjing died. the only person left was that lawyer (i forgot his name). yet he's all torn and tattered by all that has happened. and his wife is nowhere to be found. i personally think that ATV is rather good at making open ending stories. i liked wad he said at the end "Sam, though our fate might have yet to continue now; but i won't give up". as weird as ever, i like this sense of tragedy.. oh wells.. and aaron is one lucky guy to have a wife that stands by him. even though she ratted on his wrongdoing, but it's really cuz she loved him. she wun do anything to explicitly harm him. and im glad aaron sees that he has a wife hu loved him; though he did not reciprocate that love. it's a show that leaves me with a feel-good factor. i must be mad.. Friday, November 07, 2008 @ 11:40 PM
Le Femme Desperado Le Femme Desperado ended le =( ok la, it's not that sad to see this show ending; all i can say that this show has been quite entertaining for me! and what's entertaining to me isn't the main point that the show is trying to bring across; rather it's something that really didn't seem to matter. lol! anw, my favourites r... Hilda (Ah Qiao) and JingLiang!! initially i only like Hilda and personally i was quite -.- to c JingLiang paired with her in the MV of the opening theme. BUT! first impressions form fast, but they're usually wrong. in fact, first impression of Hilda ought to be bad; but since i;m used to liking such characters, i was able to lik her cold-bloodedness since wad lies beyond would simply be for weak and soft side. Jingliang is really a character with multiple dimensions. we do see evil and irritating people every now and then, or perhaps that's an understatement. anyhow, those traits usually r just on the surface. when we look at those people in greater depth, there's usually surprises to be found. maybe they're fighting for self-preservation; mayb they have this sense of inferiority so they constantly want to assert that they are much more superior than others; maybe they were once hurt so badly that they subconsciously learn to protect themselve by harming others or distrusting others; maybe they were never confident of their ability to commit themselves to a decent relationship (except for a treacherous one out to harm others; since the harm is obviously real and present, yet all those smiles and nice gestures might all be a mere fake). and i personally see all of these manifesting in the form of Jingliang =P perhaps a qn might arise of whether all these reasons can discount his evilness. harm was indeed executed and inflicted on others; why should we even look beyond this harm and try to understand the state of mind and the difficulties the perpetrator was going through and even sympathise and forgive him? yet i do. i will in fact admire people like Jingliang. perhaps i have no solution to this question over here. but one thing i know jingliang is 奸人 who declares himself as a 奸人. for that, my take is, how wrong can he be? (but then again maybe it's just me and my warped morality again) i personally would adore such type of people than "nice" people doing evil under that kind mask of theirs. same goes for Hilda. both of them are almost the same type of people. ain't they such a perfect match? evil comes together with evil. wad's great over here is this: when a treacherous person invites a treacherous person into his/her life, they fear the potential threat of being cheated out; yet over time, this pair of 奸人 are able to build trust in each other - trust which are of greater level than they can ever place on just you and me. and that really says alot about what's good and what's evil and they form they manifest - but i'm not going into details anw. just note that this is a very disturbing idea isn't it? maybe i'm just warped enough a personality to lik evil characters. or maybe they're just 2 lonely souls not understood by the world; and thus decides to forsake the world which has abandoned them. maybe their distrust for the world was too alluring for me to ignore. maybe their world is really so elegantly simple despite the facade that they're complicated and scheming people. as for the alternative endings.. i think i prefer the first one. when i saw the second one, i just felt uncomfortable - dun really know why. based on what i think of Hilda, i think she fits more into the image portrayed in the first ending. i dun think she will open up that completely to say "she's your biological child". but she wil say "she's your child". and if he doesn't get it, he doesn't get it. no point forcing this point on him. anw, does the fact tat he gets it matter to her? no. but by not opening up completely, i dun mean building up that defensive wall against Jingliang - i simply mean she wun find the need to say wad she deem as unnecessary (as long as she has said wad she wants to say). in fact their relationship has grown so much onto each other that all these didn't matter anymore. they are just merely a form of something; but not that something. and that something is the love and trust they had for each other. =) Anw, i just had to comment on this. Xiaoqi didn't appear to me as immature with wad he did. yet he said something that simply striked me as being immatured - i did so many things to prove that i was mature, why do you still see me as being childish?? that's simply so.. like wad a child will say and do to prove others wrong. all those talks about being chlidish vs matured; and also how Gao Ling passed the comment that he has indeed matured made me feel rather disturbed. dunno why. is being matured a showcase of your maturity? does it really need to manifest itself in a certain form? do you need to prove it? or rather will you try to prove that you are mature to show that you are matured? all in all, all i can say is that i really like the 2 characters introduced by the show!! =) all the sad lonely souls living in this world hu have lost the ability to trust anyone. haha.. @ 12:36 AM
GEM essay done got a reply from the forensic minor coordinator. well im glad i made the first move to send an email to enquire about the programme. anw. i can't apply for it now cuz i haven taken GEK forensic science. but to take it, i will need to save so many G points that i think i'd be in Yr 3 by the time i get to do it. and by then, there will most prob be no time for me to complete that minor. so maybe 我和我追逐的梦擦肩而过。mayeb im just someone who really wants to have something to wish for; just that i dun exact wish to see the wish being realised. mmmx. dunno la, think about this some other time since there's nothing much i can do now anyway. haha HERH! i finally finished my essay due tomolo. and i really hate last minute work. everything is so rushed. =x esp when it's philo paper - i think it's really an interesting process to think about things; yet such a great journey has to be killed by the pressure of time. oh wells. even though i said i wanted to just submit whatever i had now and not address the problems i saw in my essay, i still attempted to fix those problems after all. so feeling quite good and relieved now. 做得问心无愧! and having finished the essay, i can say that i really kinda enjoyed the thinking process i went through. As i noted flaws in the way i thought; or how i can think differently from others. but the biggest lesson i learnt: i have very warped moral beliefs that differs from others; and that i indeed need to have a mind of my own and not allow myself to be swayed easily by others comments (well but of cos must take good comments into consideration, just that don't listen to comments without thinking through) and of course! though i dun think they'd see it (but that's not the point), wan2 thank all those who have given me their input about my essay. i think this essay must be my biggest "project" of this sem man. going was tough but really enjoyed it. beats writing my science essay where i dun really enjoy it. OOPPPSSS.. Thursday, November 06, 2008 @ 11:44 PM
photos Just had this sudden thought.. Maybe photos are representation of bad omen.. Especially when it's a photo taken purposefully with a rare occurrence of happiness.. maybe sometimes when happiness are not there to stay, and you purposefully want to capture moment of happiness, it simply means that that is the final moment. and beyond that what you thought suddenly happened which is there to stay was never there in the first place. oh wells. @ 11:30 PM
so weird.. feels so weird.. the place where justice should prevail.. is the place where the person who is able to best present himself and shoot the other person down can win.. i can't believe i'm making such kind of suggestion.. but yet we have to do as this kind of suggestion.. Wednesday, November 05, 2008 @ 9:47 AM
Application for Forensic Science Minor *heart skips a beat* just received an email saying that Application for Forensic Science Minor is opened! of cos feeling very excited.. but almost immediately, that feeling was replaced by one of confusion and sian-ness. why? cuz after much thinking, i finally found a route that best suits me now - dd without econs honours. and suddenly, what i have been waiting for all these while - forensic science minor, is now available. and hence i have to think through my choice again.. maybe i wasn't too firm with what i wanted.. maybe i should hav waited instead of jumping to alternatives immediately.. maybe.. maybe if there's no maybe.. let's c.. if i choose this path.. i will need..
i don't think i will be choosing this one: LSM3211 cuz need too many rerequisite le!! so essentially, if i do apply and get chosen, then i will be doing 5 extra modules. gotta mix and match a bit. lolx. Tuesday, November 04, 2008 @ 3:49 PM
Distortion of beliefs rules, customs and cultures are here for a reason - a significance in meaning behind it. yet over time, that meaning has been eroded. till the point where we are simply conforming to them, doing it for the sake of doing it. worst still, it has been distorted to be just a kind of "show". many things have become so literal that we dunno why we are doing that; except perhaps for reasons that ain't really the true meaning behind those acts. @ 3:45 PM
萧敬腾's MV !_! how could i have missed this?? 萧敬腾's Blues MV =) got vampire!!! and it's really a very cool mv. his eyes are blue. lolx. n apparently he was bitten by vampire in one scene - that was when i realised that there was vampire. haha. and here's his 疼爱. =) i think soon my fav song in his album will no longer be yuan liang wo and stuff.. but rather all these more 冷门 song. Monday, November 03, 2008 @ 11:50 AM
喜欢 习惯 认命 我想。。。喜欢，习惯 与 认命 是三个截然不同的概念但往往都会有着一样的结果。 我想我可以习惯一个人生活。 你决定不恨了，也决定不恨了； 你的笑只是你穿的保护色； 你的伤痕根本没真正完全愈合。 慢慢地拼成一个不属于自己的我。 哪一些是打从心里真正的喜欢；或只是习惯罢了；或只不过是认命 - 真是难分。 或许当一个人发现说自己喜欢只不过是对自己撒的最大谎言，而因此麻木时就是习惯；习惯至心寒过后所留下的泪，就是代表着一个人已认命了。 Sunday, November 02, 2008 @ 4:56 PM
虚伪 所谓的虚伪或许是刻意的做出或说出一些有的没有； 但一个不虚伪的人也不一定是一个刻意去避免这些的人 - 那也是一种虚伪。 真正的不虚伪根本无范围；而是做出自己打从心里想做的事，哪怕那一件事对别人而言只不过是一种虚伪的举动。 当一个真正的我吧。 “太多的虚伪 在我面前 无所谓” -- 活着 萧敬腾 @ 4:44 PM
Class outing went to k with classmates today. haha. and i gotta promise myself that i wun go K until i completely recover my voice; otherwise i will never ever recover my voice. lolx. there were only 3 of us, but it was ok. sometimes less is more and more is less. oh wells. haha. quite enjoyable.. talk talk a bit here and there. searched for series 3 of a game (something like comand and conquer but i'm quite sure that's not the game they were looking for; the game that has Tanya all these i think - just can't recall the name) looking thru some albums and stuff.. hmm feels kinda weird. i'm pretty updated with the latest music released and stuff but as i look at those album, there's just this sense of detachment from those albums. mmm..? anw today as i finally look closely at the song, 疼爱，i finally realise and agree that it isn't all that happy a song, despite its light-heartedness tune. 我沉默 不代表我不痛 我不痛 眼泪就不会流 anw, after talking to ps and vin, i kinda changed my mind about dropping my dd. in fact, after coming home, i sort of thought it'd be better if i could instead aim for honours in Eng and just bachelor for Econs. first, i can save half a year (and in fact one year if i were to accelerate) - but that's not the main thing. the main thing is i can still specialise in biomolecules for my Eng technical electives. and i can do my honours thesis in biomolecules, rather than some XF integrate honours thesis in topics that's really totally more inclining towards econs. - which happens to be very competitive (apparently you need to submit proposal and stuff to get that project) essentially, i think most prob i will be using my Engin degree and not really my Econs module; so prob that's the best choice for me. oh wells, i shall plan in more details later on ba. and i'm glad i haven screwed my timetable too much - i can stil continue with DD if i want, and if i exit from it now, i wouldn't hav suffered any losses. phew! except for that one unit spent on EC1301 but i guess even without dd i would have chosen it (cuz nothing can fit into my preallocated timetable =.=) Saturday, November 01, 2008 @ 1:23 PM
LG Secret KF750 wow. was looking around at hp randomly.. when i chanced upon this phone on singtel website and decided to do a further research on it. LG Secret KF750  5MP camera, good audio quality, cool user interface, nice touchscree and touchpad. sounds good. and it's going for 48 dollars only at singtel hello shop. up. 238. ARGH! my contract hasn't ended. and seems like unlimited sms to all operator is available! but my contract isnt up!! =XX oh mans.. i shall wait. =) @ 12:10 PM
Singapore Hit Awards Clips i finally found it.. Mayday's performance in Singapore Hit Awards 2008 =) There wasn't a vid with only Ni Bu Shi Zhen Zhen de kuai le, but both songs r nice so it's ok =) Eason's Ain't you Glad Eason's Lu Yi Zhi Dou Zai. haha. felt he looked rather funny when he hopped around. LOL. and here's yoga's performance. initially i thot he got some mistake but on rewatching, seems lik actually i might hav hallucinated the mistake. -,- but actually when i watch the clip again, i think it was not bad. *oops* must be i watched his performance with the mindset that there will be mistake, tat's y. lolx. |