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Saturday, March 31, 2007 @ 9:15 AM
shows i like wee~ seems like the shows i like are recognized by Hollywood too~ First wu jian dao, which was adapted as the departed and won an award.. now they're considering fang zu too and shang cheng too~~ ^_^ but then agian, i think i'd prefer to watch the original Chinese/Cantonese version rather than the revised Hollywood version.. =) but at least it shows that i'm not that weird in liking those shows when the craze is on other more popular hollywood hits.. =) @ 12:19 AM
eventful day what an eventful day siah.. Came back about 1hr 30mins ago.. =X haha.. supp to be totally tired, but after bathing i'm more awake! =) Oh yes! it was such a coincidence. was on the train when a man was reading shin ming daily news, with the back page covering on basically just sonija kwok. and that page was facing me. i tried to read ( though obviously not a nice thing to do ), but failed to do so. only caught the heading, which was sonija kwok and tao da yu. and also how she was put in cold-storage by her company. Came home and searched for the news but to no avail. later checked out xian zai and fortunately, there was a short para coverage on the news, though not as massive as that full page coverage.. ok, that was kinda Off topic and random.. had many things clashing today. lessons, MOE talk, recycling meeting，LEO orientation and Alpha house function.. Skipped last few minutes of GP to go for the MOE talk. but stil, we were late.. it was kinda inspiring, but not motivating enough. at least until i can alas find back the right feeling and overcome all the fears and uncertainties. i didn't like the way how they took neighbourhood schools as experimental fields though, but oh wells. another case of the cruelty of reality i guess. Maybe it was sort of a form of propaganda, but i guess teaching is really one of the few simplistic jobs left. not as in it's easy and simple, just that it isn't as complex. if you worked with ppl whom truely wants to make an impact on the students' life and sincerely wishes to contribute to the education, and you yourself are in the same category, i guess life would be a breeze and the job, a great joy to have. of course, piles of work and stress will be present, but it's inevitable in any jobs.. and i agree with one point raised up by the scholars.. teaching is one of the rare professions where people share their resources.. it's really a satisfying job.. this senario has always been in my mind.. no matter how tough the going gets, a teacher just needs 2 words -- thank you, sincerely from the heart of students who have graduated.. that's all that's really needed.. the simple 2 words embodies the hardship of many years and most importantly, the evolvement of maturation of a young mind whom you have made a differnce in his or her life.. i guess that's what truely matters.. for this talk, though i might just say that reception is so impt.. but the talk did mattered much too.. anwz, the food was ok.. choc eclair, nuggets, shao mai, cakes. helped myself to a hearty serving.. lol and because of the talk, i missed the recycling meeting.. sigh.. and later, rushed to join the LEO gathering at East Coast Park.. I have only one hting to say.. i nv knew East Coast was that far from Bedok Interchange! lolx. took me like 1 hr to reach pit D44.. and i got lost along the way.. luckily got sj's direction in an sms. oh, and also by some luck, met kenneth, who then directed me the way. Looks like the world is really small, and it's a nice thing that you know of a VJ student who happens to be nearby to help you, esp since their sch is just next to the beach. lolx. and dunno why, as i walked past VJ ( for the first time ), i get this very familiar feeling.. i really dunno why... it's my first time there, but somehow there's this deja vu feeling.. maybe because the ppl were cheering inside and gave me a very cosy feeling? and for the first time, i saw the weirdest overhead bridge, which was not only extremely long, but also had no stairs! lolx. interesting. but it was getting kinda dark and i was so afraid i was on the wrong way. =X and D34 and D44 pit isn't really that near after all. luckily i'm used to walking.. in fact for the whole day i was talking about how i am determined not to sit down. haha.. and i only sat down like 10 plus on the bus. from 7 to 10 +, with lots of walking in b/w. wahaha. quite pleased with myself siah. =) hmm.. food was ok.. didn't really get to eat alot. but cuase i was late, the others were concerned about whether i had food to eat. and i ended up being served all the time.haha. quite paiseh, but the feeling is great.. *oops* thanks to mic, eve, sj and my. =) it's a good feeling to know that you are being cared for by friends that truely mattered to you.. had a crazy time taking photos together. at certain point of time, we tot we were doing real stupid things that we burst out laughing out loud. which kinda attracted others attention. lolx. but seriously speaking, i wouldn't care much about whether others are bothered by our stupid acts. haha. because the main thing is that we are still present and existing at that point of time to do such stupid things togehter.. at least at our age.. in fact, i want them to look at us with that incredible look, so that it amplifies the fact that what we're doing is silly.. as our age increase, we laugh less often, smile less often, finds silly acts childish.. but those are really the fundamental sources of happiness that we complain lacking in us as we grow.. it's touching to know that we, this group of friends, are still together after so many years, despite being in diff classes, and just laughing for the sake of being happy. ever so carefree and truely laughing for the sake of laughing.. but because i finally get a taste of joy after so long, i'm really afraid of losing it all either suddenly or gradually.. shall choose to believe and have faith, in spite of being ever so cynical in recent years.. i hope my faith won't be misplaced, for i'd be utterly disappointed with myself when the day really arrives.. anw, left early at around 9.30 to go to MacAfe.. their coffee not that bad.. but i didn't buy anything. haha. which i regretted becuase someone by the inital sj gave me a mouth of the hot fudge. lol. the looks didn't appeal much to me cause i wasn't very much interested in having creamy stuff that's quite ni4 just by visual impact. but the taste was quite the contrary and yummy.. will buy it on my next visit to Mac! ^_^ which meant that i didn't go for Alpha function since by the time i left ECP at 10?, it'd have ended.. ( no goodie bag, no movie, no laughin nite )we almost got lost while leavin the place too. but it isn't that bad in a group. in fact, i have this crazy idea taht it'd be fun to just be lost with a group of friends.. lolx.. came home and missed half an hour of fei cui lian qu. Hmph! =X and wo! kinda late now, 12.55 on my com clock. gotta go sleep now.. maybe after visiting MDWAV forum~ wee~ so excting. lolx.. @ 12:16 AM
zuo tian Hmph.. Shi xin hui's zuo tian seemed to be getting stuck in my head recently.. was walking to school today when i suddenly hummed the tune. and in my head, there was lyrics to the song.. tried hard to search for who sang the song and what the song was but to no avail. tried matching to the theme songs of the various shows that i'm currently watching but didn't match.. and for that period of time, i was pretty very much convinced that i "Created" a new tune with lyrics filled on spontaneously some more la. =X it was only during bio spa that i suddenly rmb that it was a song by shi xin hui. most prob i was influenced unknowinly by the widespread tv advertisement.. lolx.. came home and listened to it.. seemed a bit diff from the tv version. it was less catchy and not as rythmic. i wonder if it's just the TV efect, but the version i had seemed much more weaker and softer,, more of a sad song than a fast-paced song.. Thursday, March 29, 2007 @ 6:52 PM
i need peace gimme some peace.. Days have never been peaceful for a long time to come.. will all troubles end come this saturday? i dunno.. Wednesday, March 28, 2007 @ 11:29 PM
fei cui lian qu fei qi lian qu is quite a fun show to watch.. =) it has a mystery side to it, funny side to it and a very lifestyle side to it.. the curse from the past generation has yet to be seen.. but it's certainly keeping me in the suspense, esp with the flicker of imagers from Xi'er's dreams.. and Liang Bo Yan is really a deep person.. When the show first started, it's easy to have this impression taht he's a perfect Mr Nice. even-tempered and exudes confidence in his own ways. in fact, though i know that he has a family in Canada, this didn't strike me when he was going out with Xi'er. it's as though i knew these 2 facts, but somewhat they didn't overlap with each other.. It's as though --> yes, he has a family in Canada. yes, he's together with Xi'er. nothing seemed wrong.. except when today's episode came and both events took place at the same time. lolx. suddenly i realise, yes! there's somehting wrong.. and to add on to the "something's wrong".. he has a wife in Canada and had a daughter. who came all the way here to look for her half-brother, who is the son of her father and a mistress in Cambodia. and the son likes xi'er who happens to be his father's girlfriend and his half-sister's love rival.. Hmmm.. It's hard to divert my attention away from the fact taht someone is cheating on other's feeling. To think i didn't note Liang Bo Yan's unfaithfulness till today. =X seems like his nice nice image takes priority over his unfaithfulness? And i think JiaMing should go with Ceci! Although i did find Ceci irritating initally, but she's really just a nice girl who dunno how to handle her emotions, eg. her love for JiaMing. So it seems as though she ends up throwing tantrum etc.. but it's really just a innocent simple little heart over there wishing for JiaMing, with a tinge of jealousy and zhan4 you3 lu ( can't think of the word ) @ 11:26 PM
upgrade internet wahaha.. seems like my connections has been upgraded? =) anw, can't be sure till i get my modem next week.. Wipee~~ Tuesday, March 27, 2007 @ 8:28 PM
MDWAV forums Muahaha.. somehow MDWAV forums are so alive nowadays.. had a great time reading and posting.. when interest suddenly rise, does this mean that MDWAV 4 is gonna be out soon? *gleams with hope* yet at the same time, there are ppl who hope to see a new injection to the cast. youthful and famous idols to replace the core group of MDWAV cast.. sigh.. actually frankly speaking, i don't see the big idea of attracting the attention of youths.. it's as good as saying they should add R&B and hip hop into say traditional teochew opera for the sake of attracting the youths. Is it worth sacrificing a group of die-hard fans so that more ppl will notice the series, maybe just for that short instance of time when it's played? the fact that the actors and actresses age is obvious and even though it's a rather disturbing fact ( since they're supp to be vampires ), but it doesn't affect me that much.. frankly speaking, if we were to put anyone thru that kinda torment taht the characters in MDWAV went thru, i bet no matter how immortal one might be, there'd surely be signs of tiredness and mental torment.. the vampires are ageless, yet they're not emotionless.. Monday, March 26, 2007 @ 11:37 PM
qing xian ye zhong huan 2 End of Qing Xian Ye Zhong Huan 2.. After a few hours lap, and the after effect of the show ending faded.. there's one thing i can say about the show.. It has a wonderful plot regarding the complexity of the corporate world; be it the unscruptulous methods used to obtain wealth and fame, or the ming zheng an dou.. The sad thing is that it might just be a close replica of Qing Xian 1.. Anw.. ZhenYu died in the end.. Killed by Luo Tian Yi.. i dunno why,for a split moment, my pity went out to Luo Tian Yi instead of Zhen Yu. Even though it was kinda obvious who's the baddie and who's the victim.. maybe it's just i'm just too obstinate, but i'm kinda highly intolerant of ppl who cheat others of their feelings, especially when the other party has given his or her 100%.. Luo Tian Yi deserves death for her wrong-doings, but on the note that she actually truely loved Zhen Yu and gave him all her trust just made me sway to her side regarding this issue. She might have her own agendas for being with him, but till the very last moment, even before she died, her mind is stil filled with Zhen Yu.. She shot him.. but extreme hatred is present when love is present.. the deeper the love, the greater the pain, the more intense the hatred.. She was wrong to take a life, but i can't bring myself to condemn her when she killed Zhen yu.. Anw.. found it kinda weird.. the way Zhen Yu died.. it seems as though he survived the operation. and was resting in the ICU. looked rather peaceful. but when HaiLan came, he spoke a few sentence to her. following whihc he just died.. it didn't appear to me that he was in pain or anything, but he just died.. Actually Tian Yi is quite a sad character.. She had someone who truely loved her, but she chose to ignore Xiao Long. She gave her heart to someone, but Zhen Yu shattered it all by betraying that love. but anw, i still don't like this character though.. =X And finally.. i began to see HaiLan in a more positive light.. I'd say she finally matured.. She tot she was smart by competing in the office politics and surviving in it. but most of her actions were that of an ignorant child. but alas, she saw the fact that everything she fought for were actually nothing.. but what she has given up in the process, is everything to her.. i like Hai chao's words.. "you finally realised what's important to you.." when hailan decided to turn in for killing zhen dong.. was touched by hailan words.. ( though so similiar to qing xian 1 ) "I have gained everything that i wanted.. but i have lost.. the one that i loved, and the oen that's dearest to me.." Sometimes in life, it's pointless to keep progressing.. we just lost track of what we really want and our purpose in life. yet we nv stop to think over the question of "what exactly am i doing"? it's only when disaster strikes, and we fall real badly, do we put in the effort to actually think of all the sacrifices that have been made in vain.. Losing the dearest in exchange for something that isn't really what we want.. sad isn't it? and the love plots in Qing Xian 2 was kinda confusing.. i couldn't feel the love b/w those that were supposedly a couple.. i can't feel the love b/w hailan and zhen yu. instead i tot it was zhen yu and hai chao.. hailan and zhennan, yet ironically, i saw the love more obviously in zhenyu and hailan. zhen yu and tian yi, but i tot it should be xiao long and tian yi.. aiyo. just weird.. towards the end.. Hailan stil chose zhennan.. and zhennan stil waited for her.. it should be touching that he actually didn't mind being used for the sake of hailan's happiness.. but i guess that didn't appeal much to me.. instead, he just appeared to me as someone who didn't have a mind of his own.. loving for the sake of loving.. tolerating her wrongs might be his way of loving her.. but somehow i prefer zhenyu's way of standing by his principles and not allowing hailan to err further.. the stronger personality was much more striking.. anw.. hailan is really lucky.. at any point of her life when she hit a low. there's always someone there to pick her up.. and give her support, showering her with love. i guess she deserved it.. at least the part about zhennan waiting for her to be released from jail.. @ 11:28 PM
K800 oh no! now a bit hooked up to SE K800.. the camera is a good 3.15MP.. it's like so much more better than i tot it was.. was lured by K618 and K610 at first.. but a bit diao at its no zoom disadvantage when in digicam mode.. =X @ 6:42 PM
di er ci gan mao  Really like ocean's di er ci gan mao.. i dunno why too.. his lyrics are forever in some sense, childish.. but it's that simplicity and child-like tranquility that attracts me ba.. maybe in this flowery world, we might lose track of where we're heading.. lose our peers.. lose our support.. or even lose ourselves to the traps of the surface world.. but his songs just pulls me back to reality, regardless of where i am.. reminding me that life is that simple.. and that we should nv forget the fundamentals.. even though now i still have my own doubts that true and pure happiness still exist.. but i stil have one word to say about the song.. touching.. @ 6:41 PM
ocean new song been searching high adn low for ocean new songs at a particular blog.. only to find that the main fansite has the song.. =X but it's pretty scary how the song started with a werid auntie singing.. =X luckily it's not at nite or something.. =X @ 6:10 PM
ocean's new album     can't wait for ocean's new album.. will definitely buy this album.. no more hesitation.. at least i hope.. @ 5:54 PM
some tots as i was strolling home just now.. tot about some stuff that comes to my head naturally.. the feeling is good at times when you just find yourself lost in tots suddenly while walking on a relatively empty street on your own.. i've always been thinking about what made me like some of the actors or actresses or characters from shows or in real life etc.. and now i guess the pulling force behind it would be the strong personality that lies within them.. the guts to be themselves, whether or not others would accept them for what they are.. Looking at wu zhen yu.. he's not particularly outstanding, has a silent personality, and expresses a cynical face most of the time. hmm. that seems to be points that i like about ppl. but anw. i think one main pulling force would be that he dares to be different from the rest. he doesn't care if it'd be bad for his image, he just says things that comes to his mind.. about how he's of course upset that he didn't win an award, rather than the conventional response of saying how being nominated is a confirmation in itself and all those standard answer.. of how he just gave a totally irritated and bu shuang look when he didn't feel like taking photo whilst walking on the red carpet.. Maybe that's considered rude or whatsoever.. but i guess the flaws present far attracts me more than the "near perfect" image that idols or stars try to portray in front of the camera. then looking at Kuang Tian You. he's a vampire, but a hesitant one. a po po ma ma one who dare not love nor hate. he leads his life in silence. but beyond that undecisiveness is ironically, the ability to command respect. the look in his eyes speaks of strong determination and strength. It's those kind of feel which for eg. when disaster strucks, he won't be in the crowd running for his life, instead he'd be fighting against the calamity. if nobody makes a decision, he'd stand out from the crowd and unknowingly become the decision-maker.. then looking at the various roles that xie jun hao acted in shows.. of how he was so diao er lang dang in his life.. zui sheng meng si.. but beyond his devil may care attitude lies someone who has so much story to tell.. he might heck care about many things in life, but there's always just one thing that he'd hold his stand, his belief and his love for.. that's enough.. And for those that has caused widespread misery in the world, resulting in much deaths.. somehow i just admire their ability to just execute whatever they want to do. express their hatred etc.. maybe morally, it's not right. and logically, it's the expense of others life.. but at least they had the courage to behave as themselves, as what they want to be.. having a mind of their own, regardlless of the right or wrong society might define.. Then again.. what's right and what's wrong.. we'll nv ever be able to quantify nor qualify the value of each. with each mind, comes differing views. instead of becoming the slaves of the invisible stereotyped structure put in place, i think the most important thing is that one should always be what one really is. near impossible goal though.. few have that courage.. we're just a by-product of what society shapes us to be.. @ 5:49 PM
wallpaper nowadays there's quite alot of cool hp wallpapers laying around.. Had a fun time looking thru them.. but only downloaded a few.. i guess it might be a pity to give up some that i found nice.. but when you download too many, the meaning of nice loses its definition.. having a few, but all of quality that you'd treasure is far more important than having alot but you get tired of them after a while.. maybe that's the logic of letting go of what's unnecessary, to see the bigger world of beauty out there.. to have love, you must first remove hatred in your heart.. Sunday, March 25, 2007 @ 6:54 PM
ou de yang  Yes! Ocean is finally back with his new album.. 101 feng qing shu.. 526 days of waiting.. finally.. heard one of the song, di er ci gan mao ( flu for the second time.. ) not bad.. his style is still there.. the touching feel.. esp liked the descriptive write-up of the album.. 13首暖情歌將再次暖化您早已冰封的心靈 13 heart-warming songs to melt your frozen cold soul and heart.. exactly what i need at the moment.. @ 4:32 PM
he ping de dai jia was watching he ping de dai jia.. suddenly just tot of this question.. what is the price to pay for peace, or simply anything? how do we measure the value of anything? Unlimited sacrifice when the cause is right? Anw, just a random question.. @ 4:21 PM
shows did watch bulletproof monk after all.. =X haha.. the few scenes i watched didn't seemed nice.. anw i read it on storybooks anwz.. but tonite.. ther's Qian Ji Bian.. yay~ vampire story.. wahahha.. but it kinda puzzles me why they played the show again barely a year since they last showed it.. and the way it was advertized made it sound like a comedy.. =X @ 4:18 PM
rain rained last nite.. rain.. it goes as fast.. as sudden.. as it comes.. the droplets of water, the reflection of life. the sound of thunder, the cries of life. the sight of lightning, the unpredictable nature of life. the darkness of rain, the solemn of life. Saturday, March 24, 2007 @ 12:05 AM
Qing Xian Ye Zhong Huan Qing Xian Ye Zhong Huan entered its climax.. last 2 episodes left.. I gotta admit i misunderstood ZhenYu when i saw the shots of the previous episode.. but yet, i feel quite contradicted when trying to decide whether i stil like this character.. Although his intention were good ( he was trying to get back CIG which his "father" built from scratch ), it's stil a fact that he's doing it via cheating Tian yi.. and although Tian Yi was downright evil, even to the extent of kiling ppl.. i stil can't bring myself to say that ZhenYu was right in cheating her to get back the inheritance that she tricked Old Qi to give to her.. I really hate it when i see characters in show playing on other ppl's trust on them.. No matter how evil Tian yi was, she does has her soft spot.. and it happens to be ZHenYu.. she placed her trust in him, yet he chose to betray her.. it's really annoying since he did it deliberately, wiht the ill intent of malice.. Put it simply, he's doing something good in an evil way that i can't agree with. No matter what, once the trust has been placed on you, you have to respect this fact. Even if you don't trust give the other party your trust, the least you could do would be to not betray this trust.. Somehow i feel that there's a switch of character role.. In first series, ye xuan was the one who plotted and went all out to get John's trust, which in reality was a move for revenge. In 2nd series, it's now ZhenYu.. Both times, i can't bring myself to agree with the notion of cheating for a good cause. Even though i badly wanted them to succeed and bring the baddies down to the rock bottom.. i think the 2nd series didn't have a good planning.. there's too much elaboration in front adn too little about the struggle towards the end. the conspiracies wasn't developed enough to show how hurt everyone was at the end of all those office politics. And another question i stil can't figure out was why ZhenYu's true love is HaiLan.. all along, i've always associated him with HaiChao.. in the beginning when they met each other, i was so confident that he's just treating HaiLan as his gf's sister and he'd be clear-minded enough to define the relationship clearly.. To think after HaiChao left him, he'd get into a relationship with HaiLan.. which i interpreted as a move to pacify HaiLan and to fill his numbed and hurt heart.. I just didn't feel the love b/w him and HaiLan.. it's as though suddenly they're just together.. and now, their love attained such a high level that it'd hurt so much that they're not togehter.. it's just weird.. but i rmb this sentence that HaiLan said while ZHenYu was in hospital.."no matter what you do, never sacrifice you love" which is kinda true.. no matter what you gain, when you sacrifice love, there's no meaning in whatsoever that you have gained.. A floating body with no soul, no love has no use for material wealth.. i guess it's almost like sloughing your minds and body out, pitting agianst each other, onyl to find that at the end of the day, you are just alone there to heal the wounds incurred from all those fighting.. I guess maybe HaiLan was just kinda too innocent.. she tot things were as simple as just gaining power and climbing over her sister. the truth is otherwise.. the higher you climb, the more you lose actually.. As you reach the top, you suddenly realise that the whole world has abandoned you, and that's just you alone up there.. how true this is, esp when ZHenYu left HaiLan after passing the inheritance to HaiLan.. she has gotten what she set herself to achieve in the first place, yet she has lost her love, ZhenYu.. And i kinda figured out why i couldn't bring myself to hate ZHenDong, despite him being such a hatable character in the show.. I guess it's because of the fact that he's that evil.. He shows his evilness so apparently that it's really your own fault if you ain't careful. At least he's real, and shows his feelings and emotions freely. He might plot against others, but that's the image that he's always been portraying.. it beats those who act ever so innocent but are truely backstabbers who will never fail to assure you a silent death.. I guess the world operates on the unseen, unheard and "unshown" Existence in non-existence? oh, another thing i found funny.. HaiLan didn't commit suicide just by a few sentece ZhenYu said.. kinda weird.. she was so devastated and disillusioned that nothing mattered to her anymore.adn those few sentence could just reveres her resolute that easily.. it just doesn't make sense that someone can be so rational and logical in the face of life and death.. Thursday, March 22, 2007 @ 6:58 PM
QX Sigh.. Qing Xian Ye ZHong Huan going to end soon.. and it's showing in a few minutes time.. i still find HaiLan in some sense childish.. she tries to be sophisticated and scheme in the settings of office politics.. but from what i see, she's still inexperienced and has yet to really see what the world is really like.. And it's kinda hard to judge whether she's good or bad.. It's the same in series 1 and 2.. it seems that her agenda is kinda right, and she isn't really doing things the wrong way. but somehow, i just can't agree with her actions.. And actually i'm quite disappointed with ZhengYu.. he was my fav char out of the 3 brothers.. but today's episode might reveal him to be someone disappointing.. not sure yet though.. only saw the shots.. gotta go watch now.. @ 6:57 PM
9 more weeks to school holidays A week is about to end.. meaning 9 more weeks to school holidays.. yay! was that supposed to be one of optimism, or one full of numbness that nothing really mattered anymore? @ 6:52 PM
weird Currently thinking about the fact that there's MDWAV in the world, with no reference to the show.. Or maybe it's not even MDWAV.. There's just this millions of werid feelings rushing all over me, that i can't decipher.. Maybe it's just the tot that nothing in the world feels real anymore.. Maybe it's just this feeling that i'm gonna lose something very important soon.. Maybe it's fear.. of what, i do not know.. Maybe it's just a need to scream out the fact that we should always go back to where we started from, and n0t lose track of who we originally were.. And yet maybe, i'm just not making any sense.. Wednesday, March 21, 2007 @ 6:29 PM
MDWAV craze so tired.. must be due to my late-nite yest.. haha.. so badly wanted to watch MDWAV on TV.. =) And! there's good news and bad news.. i tot i missed a scene that i so badly wanted to watch again.. tot it was Episode 5, which happened to be the one i missed on Monday.. in the end. wahaha.. that scene was in Episode 6, which is last nite! Supp to be JianTou leaving Yin Ping in Zhu Xian Zheng, as he wandered around the place, recalling all the moments he spent with his troops and how they died in front of him.. and the song was supp to play for like 5mins.. That scene is really nice.. but the bad news is that.. they played the song for like 5-10sec and jsut cut it away. jumped to next scene le.. =X sigh.. anw, Done my calculations ever since i heard it was aired.. it wil last for a week of school holidays of Term 2.. *smiles*.. meaning i can catch around 2 episodes during the holidays.. 36 - 4 - 10 x 3 = 2.. wahaha.. @ 6:21 PM
blogger woes it's kinda ironical how i can seldom sign in straight from blogger.. which will take more than an hour to load, and yet nothing appears.. so, i had to do a google search for blogger sign in.. sign in via old account, only to be told it's been shifted to new account. and then sign in via the new account.. lolx.. Tuesday, March 20, 2007 @ 6:25 PM
MDWAV blues sigh.. wanted to catch MDWAV at nite.. went to bedroom aka com room at 11.30.. told myself i'd just close my eyes, but i won't sleep.. opened eyes at 11.45.. assured taht i so badly can't sleep.. yet time was passing too slowly.. the next time i woke up.. time is.. 1.13am.. at first before i saw the time.. i was still thinking.. maybe i just missed a few minutes.. who knows.. sigh.. Luckily got the VCD, so ended up watching that missed episode from the VCD instead.. lolx.. Monday, March 19, 2007 @ 6:22 PM
first day school reopen First day of school re-open! wee~~~ Am i supposed to sound excited? Anw.. timetable became slightly better.. maths is mon, tues and wed. meaning, thurs we have one less lesson and so.. we end at 3.50! and because there's no more chinese, we end at 3pm.. so overall.. i end at 3pm.. only thurs at 3.50pm.. not particularly early, but i supp it's considered early, looking at JC schedule.. at least there's no free period in between ( aka. gotta go home later and yet waste so much time in school. ) Sunday, March 18, 2007 @ 6:40 PM
dilemma should i watch shuang long? or should i watch phantom of the opera? sigh.. shows clash at the wrong time don't there? even though there's 2 TV, the other one is to be used to view the charity show.. which leaves me in a position to choose only one of the two.. sigh.. @ 6:36 PM
last day of sch hols last day of school holiday le.. sobx.. actually i can't wait for time to pass quickly.. then i'd be free away from school for a good 6months.. yet at the same time, i wish for today to nv end.. lolx.. so contradicting.. if today nv ends, when would the year ever end? =X @ 6:30 PM
class gathering Yay! had a great steamboat dinner @marina bay.. =) it's kinda a nice feeling to know that actually nothing has changed after all.. your old classmates still looks the same and behave in the same manner.. just like those good old days.. haha.. More of such gatherings pls! =) hee.. came home v. tired ( since the dinner ended around 10. lolx ).. didn't even watch PTU.. intended to watch, but in the end, i was spending half an hour staring at the TV and nothing enters my mind.. lolx.. i just rmb it's a show with minimal talking.. but doesn't matter, think i watched before.. Saturday, March 17, 2007 @ 5:01 PM
silent fear for a moment, the world seemed distantly foreign to me.. yay! class gathering later.. distantly at the back of my mind, there's this fear that this could possibly be one of our last gathering.. much as i wish that ties would last forever.. much as i hate to face the fact or accept it.. but sooner or later, as time passes, as we proceed in life.. we tend to forget bits and pieces of our life.. Slowly we'd find excuses that we're busy.. slowly we'd drift away.. the ties slowly fade away from view, even though it's always there.. only many yrs down the road, would we suddenly stop to realise that there's something missnig from us.. yes.. that's when we'd start blaming ourselves why didn't we treasure things when we had it in the first place.. but allowed it to fade slowly out of our grasp.. the silent fear @ 4:51 PM
Busy day wahaha.. today's gonna be such an eventuful day.. just came back all the way from boon lay.. shopped a while at VCDs and music CDs shop around Bedok.. saw a few titles that i'm quite interested in, but hesistated to buy any of them since i have interest in all of them. and each cost like $12.90. meaning i'd have to fork up more than $50 at one go.. Keeping a lookout.. 1) Cha Wu ( not out apparently.. ) 2) Shang Cheng 3) Fang zhu 4) Wo Hu 5) Happy Birthday 6) prestige Yupz.. about there.. and i realised most of them have wu zheng yu.. seems like he's always in shows that i like.. and i realised that wo hu has guo xian ni.. hmmm.. chanced upon another show with guo xian ni in it too. but can't rmb the title. she was kinda cool in it. liked the dressing sense.. reminds me of cold-blooded killer... Anw, was researching on MDWAV cds too.. my usual habit.. lolx. i bet the person in those stores knows me by now liao la.. i just realised that MDWAV 3 had a new edition.. all 38 dics are in one box. and the design doesn't look that professional, but it's clearer with all the casts looking at their best? MDWAV 1 and MDWAV 2 had no changes ( lolx. say = nv say.. so many yrs ago de. ) And i happen to find a version of MDWAV 3 in Laser fair.. which has a white transparent box.. seldom enter that shop since it's so english.. but at least they're smart enough to display MDWAV.. hee.. *oops* Right.. better hurry le.. later late for class steamboat! yay! so looking forward to it.. wee~~ Friday, March 16, 2007 @ 9:26 PM
qing xian2 Qing Xian Ye Zhong Huan.. ZHengDong died.. killed by HaiLan.. it's kinda pity.. although he's portrayed as a baddy in the show, but i believe it was due to his spoilt and immature nature.. and since he had so much wealth at his disposal, he was able to carry many of the sinful acts at will and think he can get away with them.of course he was at fault, obviously, for numerous crimes commited.. but yet, he does has a kind side. of how he broke down when his mum died. how he tried to fight for Mary's right when she was dismissed for no reason. maybe he has his own personal agenda, but i choose to believe he has some kind nature deep in him. but his pride and desire to win and succeed has gotten the better of him that he kinda forgot what's it like to be kind.. Quite a sad case. but maybe it's just reality. or maybe he's just paranoid that everyone is out to get him. and being cynical and rebellious etc, he sees it as a neccessity to protect himself and hide in his shell.. i feel that HaiLan isn't that scheming. in the sense that she very badly want to scheme, but isn't mature enough nore experienced enough to see through people's mind and the way she schemes is full of loopholes.. she never bothers about the consequence.. like what ZhengYu says, office politics isn't as easy to play as she thought it'd be.. and i prefer to think that ZhengYu prefer HaiChao instead of HaiLan.. but i can't explain his outbreak of emotions when HaiLan married Zhennan. and how he has silently accepted the fact that HaiChao married ZhengDong.. the greatest evil is the hidden evil. one that never strikes, yet it deals damages.. @ 9:12 PM
MDWAV in series Holidays offically start on Thursday.. but at least i have 2 days of full holidays.. and of course i spent it meaningfully watching MDWAV clips.. The MDWAV2 and a half series.. the one before MDWAV 3 but after MDWAV 2.. The legend in Memory ah.. i liked episode one best so far.. haven finished the series.. but i dun think can finish ba.. the buffering time is so super long.. but nvm, good stuffs are always worth the patience enjoying bit by bit.. ah.. @ 8:56 PM
MDWAV3 Yay!!!! I'm so happy for Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday.. Esp from 12pm to 1am.. why?!?! Because... Got MDWAV 3!!!!!!!!!!! showing on Channel 8!!!! wahahaha.. It's my third time watching, considering the show as a whole.. and dunno how many times watching it, if i were to consider by sections.. no matter what, i think the most special time to see a show being screened is on TV.. because out of the millions of shows out there, they chose this particular show to be screened.. and out of the hundreds of past shows, they chose to retelecast MDWAV 3.. somewhat a matter of how lucky you are.. and when things don't come easy, you treasure them even more.. even though it was done quite artificially since it was done on a request basis. but still, the fact that the TV station accepted the request and retelecasted the show means something.. =) during my 2nd time watching it, i found the song dynasty prequel less appealing than the modern plots.. but now, it kinda worked the opposite way. not that i don't find the modern plots appealing (since theoretically, the show hasn't moved into the present..) but i was completely glued and attracted to the show whilst it's playing. and it was on the song dynasty stuff.. And it does help to watch another time in Chinese. since i couldn't catch certain lines previously when attempting to watch in Cantonese.. lolx.. Ah.. still gotta say the show rocks siah!! and i agree on one thing that has been widely discussed.. Jian Tou does seem younger than Tian You.Even though they're both Eric Wan. in fact, i sort of believe that Tian You was made to look old because of the ShengMu virus and not because he has really aged so much in the meantime.. looking at the newly updated photos of him and some other actors, Eric didn't seem as old as Tian You.. Talking about Eric, wonder what happened to his court case.. but anw, it's been such a long time.. since there's still news about him moving aroundin society, i bet he won the case after all.. yay~ Managed to catch the scene where Xiao Ling was looking at the image projected from the necklace.. About how even if the next moment were to be the end of the world, as long as that second has not arrived, it is not the truth. the truth is that at this current moment, they're together.. ah.. Next episode i think would be about the defeat of the city.. and i stil rmb that jia ru zai you yue hui will be played for a good whole 5mins as JianTou walked around the city in desperation and finally knelt down in devastation.. i guess that was one of the classical moments i found previously in the prequel.. And now i have a new question.. why did the advisor become green-eyed vampire when BuPo only bite him but did not let hiim drink his blood? @ 8:47 PM
finally.. I'm so super duper relieved.. finally see my post.. seems like it's a cache problem.. sigh.. @ 6:48 PM
what's wrong? why can't i see my new post? don't tell me the trojan horse is really at work? *worries* @ 6:37 PM
trojan horse incident Wa! after "ren-ing" for almost a week, i can finally lament on how super irritated i'm with trojan horses! lolx. but to start it off, i'm partially at fault. or should i say i was the one who looked for the trojan horse, not that it infected me for no reason.. It all started.. Closed my AVG because it's taking too much memory running in the background and draining the speed of my com that i so badly need.. Was searching for wu ming tian shi information and some photos.. When so unfortunately, the website happened to be so filled with viruses/ trojan horse.. (and whenever i search for TVB shows, there'd somehow be viruses in the website.. and all the sources come from china website. hmph! ) so the next time i logged onto the net, everything seemed fine.. until i typed www.blogger.com.. i was led to a page saying i was logged in as johnwailey.. and he had so many blogs, of which only 1 is working with 0 posts. the rest had to be restored. and they had weird names. which means that there is definitely something wrong.. not like i'd bother to hack into this account from nowhere, so i couldn't have logged onto this account accidently.. =X and when i went into yahoo.. the website become www.yahoo.com.sg/r=2etetsg (or some weird number-alphabet combi ), which is completely not so yahoo.. did a search and the website had no return.. in the end did a scan.. tio some trojan horse generic downloader 3. all my firewall, anti-spyware and antivirus software was somehow altered.. 9 alterations in all, and i've only fixed the crucial 3 so far.. not exactly fixed too anw, just reinstall.. and it can only be removed after 2 attempts. which is kinda not bad, since others can't remove using normal methods of AVG.. gotta do some tweaking of chim com language, mainly using hijackit ( which i still cannot understand till now ) anw, since ppl say that trojan horse will persist despite using AVG to delete it, i wasn't too confident that it's removed from my com already.. all that being said, i just hope that nothign wil go wrong with my account.. @ 6:33 PM
tricked into signing in Right.. i finally found enough confidence to sign into blogger with my account.. and actually i was tricked into signing in.. was testing with my other account to see if this blogger is a bogus one.. in the end i was forced to enter using google account. so i converted my blog from old account to new account.. but the mistake i made was to register the two different blogger account under the same google acocunt.. after the conversion finished, i found myself being signed into the account holding onto this blog with 1000+ post.. NOW, if the trojan horse (if it's still present, hope not) dares to do anything to my this account, i'm just so gonna go on intensive computer reading-up with emphasis on how to become a virus/trojan horse/spyware buster.. =X Wednesday, March 14, 2007 @ 9:08 PM
IRAS went for iras e-filing training today.. some confusing matters.. which explains why i'm not a accounting student.. lolx.. but anw, i was kinda excited.. sounds fun and all.. just hope i don't make any mistake.. the highlights is still.. refreshment! actually when i first reached there, i saw reception and i tot there was food.. -_-" turned out that it was really just reception.. =X got choc and cakes.. helped myself to a big serving.. lolx.. all ready to help others do e-filing =) Monday, March 12, 2007 @ 11:51 PM
Wu Ming Tian Shi last episode Wu ming tian shi last episode.. @ 6:50 PM
brightspark workshop Had a workshop today.. Sunday, March 11, 2007 @ 6:50 PM
NTU Olympiad Went to NTU for its science olympiad today.. Saturday, March 10, 2007 @ 6:46 PM
NUS Open House went NUS open house today.. Actually nothing really that much.. Mainly talks that's obviously meant to be a form of propaganda, esp with the obvious challenge to NTU.. Also, there was the exhibition at one of the halls. so we just went to the various stalls in hope to get the freebies and pamphlet.lolx And forensic science seems rather appealing. the person who presented it was attention-capturing and hmmm, psychotic? lolx. the way the speaks and all does give you the creeps at times but that's actually a good point.. =) Come to think of it, after the visit, i ended up feeling more vague somehow..but then again, it's just so me to get so lost when it comes to decision-making.. Had this preconception that i should be going into the faculty of science..yet the thought of majoring in any science area for 4 years seems scary and.. distant? just can't visualize myself doing that.. I guess i wouldn't mind studying human behaviour in psychology or programming games in computing, but i lack the foundation in these areas.. sigh.. perhaps life is so that you learn to not treasure things you can hold on to, but instead look for those that you can never possess? anw, enough of this "thinking about the future".. i think a good bet would be to let my strong instinct that can come any moment to guide my decision. you can take a lifetime pondering over a choice, but yet make a wrong decision. or you can choose for that split moment, and it could turn out to be the one that actually suits you best.. "ren qing xing, nan gan xing.." I tot the highlights of the day would be the free food, which i supposedly heard over the radio. unfortunately, ther wasn't any free food.. sigh.. but foruntately amongst the unfortunate is that there's food stalls set up.. wee~ in the end, bought the zhang yu shao.. first time eating.always wanted to try. hmm. not too bad, but not exactly the taste that i expected. the octopus was kinda tasteless.. it was the flour that's responsible for the favour of the entire octopus ball.. wanted to buy the nacho cheese too, but guess no one's interested in it adn we're going for lunch after that. so decided against the idea.. Ended up eating BK at Raffles City.. come to think of it, why didn't i go to Technoedge or PGP for lunch? lolx. it simply didn't crossed my mind that there was canteen/foodcourt in NUS itself. lolx. esp for PGP.. my long-awaited ma la hai xian tang.. =X Friday, March 09, 2007 @ 7:01 PM
HK ending for MDWAV 3 i found HK ending of MDWAV 3 le.. actually not i found de, but nvm.. http://9582hz.gbaopan.com/files/825b47d78bb64335b4ded1e6f5ff9396.gbp As i watched it again.. memories really gushed back.. I think i'm gonna watch it many many times before i sleep today.. after all, my room is now temp my com room.. that love.. that valuable love.. the one that a lifetime mattered no more than the short time they had together. even if the next moment were to be the end of the world, as long as the moment has not arrived, it is not the truth. truth is.. kuang tian you can't do w/o ma xiao ling.. i really loved the way how their love was so great that they can just forget the entire world for it.. leaving behind all obstacles.. yet such doesn't exist in reality.. shows might not be reality. shows might just reflect reality. but to be able to achieve somehting unachieveable in reality, shouldn't we just immerse ourselves in the beauty of shows? @ 6:40 PM
MDWAV craze!!! Wee~~ there's so much information about MDWAV once again! the spcnet forum is alive again.. *well done* after being dead for like one month, suddenly i see an influx of entries.. and the best thing is that they're discussing about the love b/w Ma Xiao ling, Kuang Tian You and kuang Guo Huo ( previously refered to as Kuang Tian you).. About how the first two were meant for each other and they truely loved each other. the first adn third were merely replacement for their first love, yet the replaced love was much more greater than the first love.. sounds kinda contradicting, but we do need a bit of controversy to spice up our lives.. =) And oh yeah! Channel 8 is replaying MDWAV 3 at 12.15pm! wee~~~ was so super excited when i heard the news from my classmate in class. lolx.. only thing is that i tot it was the first series, when it's supp to be the first episode of the MDWAV 3. lolx.. and it's now so widely publicized by the SG MDWAV forum. wee~ after 2 appeals, finally it worked and they're replaying it!!!! =) Oh, and one fact that i didn't know.. *guilty..* Ricky Chan acted in MDWAV 2 too.. as a blonde orange hair guy who could run faster than Tian You.. hmmm.. doesn't sound at all familiar to me.. =X sigh.. how could this be.. few years of tracking the show.. haix.. But anw, all sounds well.. there doesn't seem to be a strong indication that there won't be a MDWAV IV. although no news doesn't absolutely equates to good news, it certainly gives hope that a bad news won't arise.. Either us fans are really so desperate about the show that we live in this realm of self-denial that there's gonna be a sequel, otherwise there's always this high chance of the show having a sequel. it's not everyday where a show can garner so many fans from all over the world, who would remain loyal after so many years and the craze doesn't die out.. lolx.. i especially liked one entry about how talking about vampires brings back memories.. indeed.. it's been quite a while.. really quite a while.. when everything was ever so stagnant.. until someone initiated some point of discussion again, and the flame that seems to fade out of sight was once again ablazed.. memories fade.. but never goes out of sight.. unless you choose to.. @ 6:38 PM
blogger problem it kinda bugs me how i cannot access blogger website straight away.. instead i gotta do a google search and enter the old account sign in page, be directed to the new account sign in page and finally log in.. which alters my mood for blog entries. sigh. Thursday, March 08, 2007 @ 11:58 PM
Angel of Mission again. lol Hmmm.. Angels of mission today brought me new insights to the various characters.. Somehow Leqi seemed less of an angel today. less rational than ever, less calm, less mature.. I didn't quite liked the way she confronted LiHua and made it so obvious that she didn't want a third party to come in b/w her and Jian Qiang. The way her words sounded were so prickly that i can feel them practically stabbin into Lihua's heart. Even if it were just any othre girls on the street, she did sound a tad too harsh. what's more her close friend? after all, what LiHua wants is to be someone who's silently giving her love to JianQiang and she had no intention to snatch him away.. but of course, on the other hand, i can feel that insecurity developing in LeQi. After all, a sense of security is really important to a woman and how many ppl can really gracefully accept the fact that their other half is with them possibly because of a woman withdrawing from a love triangle, despite having silently contributed towards his happiness in her own silent, unseen way.. i got a shock when they were talking in the toilet and how LeQi shot this question at Lihua. "An apology does not solve the problem." I nv tot that she'd be angry or upset with LiHua at all. the anger that brewed occured too suddenly and aruptly. it was as though a lifetime of friendship soured to one of anger and hatred overnight. and to be fair, LiHua said nothign to suggest taht she was fighting for JianQiang's love at all. But then again, maybe that's LeQi once again. independent and confident. perhaps things are really meant to act as double-edged sword. one of her greatest attraction point turned out to be her major fault too. i guess a normal soft-hearted woman would soften when she sees how her friend gave in so much to ensure taht she's not upset. How she supresses her love, yet suffering real hard inside. How she sincerely apologises although it's not entirely her fault. but such was LeQi, so straight-forward and clear-minded. This is her man and you shouldn't overstep the border and even give the slightest hint that you like him. then again, i can't really fault LeQi. it's really just woman's nature and instinct to feel real nasty and uncomfortable inside when you suddenly realise that the love you treasured so much didn't really exist in the first place. but at the same time, i can't agree nor accept the way she responded to the situation and handled the love crisis. This particular episode, in fact, brought to my attention she shi man's acting skills. i liked that split moment when JianQiang was grabbing her and she just suddenly broke down and said that she feels so rotten and downright painful inside out. that outburst of emotions was really convincing and for that moment, i really felt that anguish gushing out of her organs and just running haywire in her body. I guess it's kinda easy to come down hard on LeQi, since she's supp to be like kinda a man's dream girl in the show. so when fault sets in, the image of an angel, the perfect girl, is cracked and causes a total shatter somehow? Anw, she still totally rocks though! No Man is perfect, the fact taht she's flawed, in a can't be blamed way at that, simply brings her image from somehow high up there to someone whom we can relate to on the same level. And sooner, i'd expect myself saying that LiHua rocks too! she's the slow-developing type. those that you won't see her goodness, only her bad and evil side in the short-run. but give her time, slowly understand and see the effort put in to hide her good side. and there we have it, hard on the outside but soft on the inside. the commonly misunderstooded people. yet ppl who nv failed to get my admiration. which reminds me of MXl? lolx i think the bodyguard should go with LeQi. both seems so hard-to-get and high-class? i think they have rather similiarly acceptable characters that's not too alike, yet not too contrasting to cause unnecessary disputes. i think they're those kind of independent ppl who are able to sense romance even as silence sets in. whereas JianQiang should really go with LiHua. i guess jian Qiang is just obsessed with leqi's dream girl image. that's all. they don't really match, no matter how true he might be to her. sooner or later, i bet he'd realise that the one that really suits him is someone wacky enough to be with him, eg. LiHua. life is filled with twists and turns. follow where the roller coaster takes you, it might be more fruitful that taking a short-cut.. @ 11:57 PM
scanner worked finally my scanner worked!!!! after so many months of not-working. ( and my ignoring of its malfunction ).. finally siah! @ 11:55 PM
so many stuffs so many stuffs to do!!!! 4 plans/ proposals to possibly rush thru the nite.. and some forms to fill in, which requires photo. and my scanner failed on me. =X when you so badly need to do something, all the tools that you need suddenly just falls apart, don't they? i think i won't be able to sleep until who knows when. duh! to think tomolo's the last day of the term.. @ 11:53 PM
sonija kwok wa! finally i can get into blogger, after trying so so long!!!! Anw, to start off on a lighter note.. found angels of mission 3D on youtube.. actually was searching for sonija kwok videos. and realised she got sing songs de.. but she didn't really feel quite her there..=X Wednesday, March 07, 2007 @ 8:36 PM
short entry 4 more episodes of wu ming tian shi.. Go Go Madam song. sounds so old? Leqi then. @ 8:35 PM
silence if speaking too much denotes trouble, silence is indeed golden. fullstop Tuesday, March 06, 2007 @ 6:02 PM
Wu Ming Tian Shi Sobz!!!! Wu Ming tian shi ending like in 5 more episodes.. =X haix. why didn't they make a 30 episode show??? Anw, i think LeQi is the soul of the entire show manz.. haha.. and i so agree with Quickie that if there's a beauty peagent in the police force, the stunnin ( and a madam at that ) LeQi will surely win.. And i kinda figured out why i didn't pai2 chi4 her despite her seeming to have loved so many differnt guys.. because she handled things in a matured way. the breakup with all these guys were one of consensus. they stil could stay friends despite going separate ways and there's no akwardness about it at all.. she knew when to put her entire heart to a relationship and that she should stop when there's no more feelings.. only thing is that she's losing her ability to be in control of such stuff with JianQiang.. lolx.. maybe cause that's not the typical kinda guys that she's with.. but after thinking thru. i think LeQi is kinda like those dream girl that every guy could have wished for.. but for me personally, to really be togetehr with someone in the long run, it's gotta be LiHua.. Although she's man and crude on the outside, she's still that fragile soul on the inside. those kinda of character that nv fails to fill me with admirations.. and the other girl.. shirley yeung? even forgot her chinese name.. yang si qi is it? and i forgot her name in the show.. is definitely those kinda of girls that i'd be so irritated with, if i were a guy.. brr.. i think the selling point of the show isn't the police cases, but instead the 3 Miss Hong Kong ( or was it Miss TVB. hmm. sounds weird.. haha.. ) but stil, the thrills in the shows is still wow.. =) @ 5:29 PM
Xiao Yu Er yu Hua Wu Que Chao ren.. a song.. undescribable.. it's just those type of songs that i wouldn't mind listening to over and over again.. Anw, just reailsed that i haven given a decent post regarding the ending of Xiao Yu Er and Hua Wu Que.. Both didn't die after all.. are they really lucky? i prefer to think that they're not ba.. but i guess, at least the two brothers had each other for company.. yet, the pain, the anguish of losing their loved ones, i'm sure will live on forever.. didn't symphatized with YuYan even as she regretted while breathing her last. she claimed she did everything out of love for WuQue.. but i have my own doubts about her this so called love. even if her one of her goals might be his love, it can't be all there is to the reason behind her actions.. it's just that she felt that her life was unfair, she nv gotten what others had, she always had to suffer. so much so that she should be getting everything that she set her mind to get. and in this process, Hua WuQue is just a by-product of her this wish.. is love selfish or is it all-encompassing? anw, i found some of her lines quite clinche.. if i were given a chance to start things all over agian, i wouldn't have done the things i did. instead, i'd just want to live a simple, happy life..but it's impossible. give her a chance to go back in time, everything would still happen the way it did. Sometimes we wished we could make other choices.. but given the same character, same person, no matter how many chances we were awarded, the outcome will still be the same.. the mentality guiding one towards that particular choice will stil preside after all, no matter how great the regrets are.. and i can't bring myself to pity yuyan.. maybe the way she regretted in the split second might be her true inherent kind nature.. but once again, i don't see what's the use of claiming that one has a kind nature if it only occurs for a split moment.. Maybe i've just become so disillusioned.. by nothing to a state of nothingness.. if one chose to be given a mask by the society and be dictated by the norm, they have simply lost themselves to the trap of reality.. anw, always found this kinda plot touching.. about wuque trying to recap the past to xiaoyuer while he's in coma.. the past always hold some form of beauty in it, no matter how much pain that may exist.. just because of the fact that the past is the past.. Which is mroe painful when you hit your head with a iron rod or wooden rod? your head. Which can move faster? red crab or green crab? green, because the red is cooked. Nv felt this way before, but recently, just tot that zhang wei jian is a rare actor.. he can undertake seemingly light-hearted and humourous characters with sophisticated inner side. i liked it best when the sense of lostness and sadness seeps into his eyes in place of the usual spark of happiness.. pity the show dragged for too long, making that special upheaval moment un-special.. imagine the pain of losing his 7 foster parents, LIttle Fairy and Suying.. but in some sense, if i were him, i'd rather i lose them than they lose me.. it's just a perception of which hurts more.. @ 5:12 PM
disillusioned been in such a neutral state of mind.. losing the deep opinions used to be present while watching shows.. so apparent with Qing Xian 2.. so disillusioned with life, society and reality.. so used to it that nothign matters anymore.. or maybe ceasing to bother to think and care about any things anymore.. the lifeless form of life --the ultimate creation of all.. Monday, March 05, 2007 @ 11:47 PM
Fan Jian Xin Xian Ren Fan Jian Xin Xian Ren ended.. should i say i liked the part about losing memory and recalling them and finally time travel? or should i say that they're so distantly familiar to me such that i can't help but to suspect that it's so alike to MDWAV? should that be a plus factor or a =( factor? Losing memory, but the feelings remains.. they lost their memory after yang jian and xiao mu mu (lol) administered the "super memory loss?" gadget on them.. but when they woke up and met each other at the vending machine, there's this feeling taht they know each other but yet it can't be the case.. Runs parallel to the plot where XL was hit by amnesia stick or when she was fed mengpo soup.. You view all the happenings in your life before you go for reincarnation.. Alhtough it might be a concept in hell, but the way it's conducted.. kinda similiar. highlighted the love experiences b/w niu lang and zhi nu.. xiao lign and tian you.. time travel.. i think the sciptwriter was rather weak when he tried to play with time travel.. quite some loopholes, especially when compared to some other shows. or rather a show, which is so obviously.. lolx.. but anw, it's always nice to have some cyclical paradoxes to ponder over in shows.. judging from the way the time travel was intiated, infinite parallel universe would have been created.. and actually, theoretically, tian ying and tian qin could be together forever because of this.. but that's beside the point, since the main thing about time travel is that there's a bet b/w yang jian and the emperor. TianYa being sent back to the past many times in an endless chain by Dizang Wang to faciliate the battle against Fate.. anw, the show was so-so overall la. good for laughs and lame-ness initially. and good for out-of-the-box kinda love towards the end of the show.. overall quite pleased with the ending and the joy the show brought me throughout the entire show.. lolx.. Sunday, March 04, 2007 @ 6:37 PM
grandma here to stay my grandma came over to live with us for a month.. hee hee.. and i've migrated to my com room to Zzz.. yay! although it's sleeping on the floor, but at least my com's with me.. the sad thing is that my radio isn't with me though.. and the radio in the com room dun have preset timing.. =X @ 6:18 PM
mossie bites been waking up these few days in the middle of the night because of mosquito bites. =X brr.. @ 6:10 PM
SE W610 Talk about beauty and functionality of a phone.. SE W610 has it all..  Hee hee.. may be considering it.. depends on price on release though.. ( later like K800i which costs like $800++ on release.. sob.. wasted more than half a year waiting for it.. =X ) @ 6:08 PM
Beta Version of vampire mail lolx. so cute siah.. looks like alot of email sever are going into beta version.. even my account with MDWAV also lidat.. haha.. Friday, March 02, 2007 @ 6:41 PM
Material Science and Engineering Quiz Finally the Material Science and Engineering Quiz has come and gone.. aka, finally it's over.. It's actually kinda fun. minus the part that i felt so ignorant that i didn't know much. for the theory paper i could only like answer 3 out of 50 questions, without looking at the book. and those questions are chemistry qn, eg. solubility product, not material science stuff. for some of the other questions, i had to do speed reading within 1 hr to search for the answer. the brain is literally saturated with overwhelming information under the stressed time limit. haha. but quite enjoyable la. only thing is that i wished it was individual and not group thingy. so that even if i flopped badly in the midst of enjoying the feeling of doign something w/o bothering about the outcome, the rest won't go down with me. didn't get carried away though. those that really can't find ans in the book, i just left blank. didn't tikam, since wrong ans got deduct marks. And there's 2 practical papers, each lasting like 2 hrs. =X didn't like the testing of strength etc. haha. and i saw that instron universal testing machine thingy ( forgot the full name le ). so i took the slack job of recording data. =) anw, i was kinda assigned this task by the in-charge too, who prob had little confidence that i could handle those machines or sand the samples. lolx. the other one that dealt with electrochemistry was much more pleasant. at least i knew what was going on. and preparing electrolyte solution was kinda fun. haha. but.. the main highligh.. FOOD! Reception! Lunch! haha.. i took so much food that the rest couldn't believe what they're seeing lorx. for the first day it was stil ok since they took quite alot of food too. but the second day, my plate was literally full. 2 of each type of reception dish: choc eclair, spring roll, chicken wing, fruit tarts.. lolx. and lunch my plate was like practically going to fall apart lidat lorx. there's so much to be eaten that after the rest left, i was still there eating amongst the organizers. haha.. 2nd day took the format of mainly games. for the 1st qualifying round, i think we're really v. unlucky. the questions that we picked were those we didn't know. =X and others picked those questions that we knew. for me, i was like grrr, when others chose qn on semiconductor and i knew the ans. and when i had qn on semiconductor, it happened to be the ones that i have nv seen before. -_-" 2nd qualifying round, i was really the weakest link. 1 out of 5 correct. the rest had at least 3 correct. the questions were distantly familiar. saw before those terms, but nv bothered to remember the facts or understand them. should have trusted my gut feelings instead of trying to figure out the answer with my vague memory of what wasn't even learnt or read. only while anyhow flipping the book. We got into the finals somehow, finishing 3rd for qualifyin round. but the semicon questions were those that i nv read about before and it's like a completely new concept to me. in fact, by some chance, one of the biomaterial qn was "is collagen a biomaterial or biological material?". lolx. lucky isn't it? and we didn't know what made up brass. now we know, it's zinc and copper. so malu.. there were times where i tot i knew the ans but didn't dare to intercept since i wasn't sure. like how the scanning electron microscopy and transmission electron microscopy could detect nanoparticles etc. i guess it's my problem again. supp to do semicon and ceramic and i ended up unable to answer the questions. sigh.. another thing is that we should stragetise mroe in the future like how we didn't answer a question and caused the other team who answered the qn wrongly to lose marks. =X in the end, HCI won. i think it's their core member that's really wow at material science. haha. and i tot RJ deserved the second placing. but they finished 2nd place with AJ, which i think won by strategizing and not really on their material science knowledge ba. we got 4th and somehow, TJ had a struggle with VJ once again. lolx.. |