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Thursday, July 31, 2008 @ 11:39 PM
Bidding woes been trying to piece my timetable for the past 10hrs. and my conclusion is that: nothing is done. anw, my previous timetable can't work cuz the SS module was removed from this sem - just like that.
this is the bare skeleton that i have to work with and i really dunno why it is just so difficult trying to squeeze just 2 more modules into this scaffold. =.= oh yes, i might not the english module this sem too - the balloting results r not out yet. haix. and i do have lots of question marks..
@ 11:05 PM
Dinner with TMS colleagues met some of my frens and colleagues from TMS tonight for dinner. last week for the 2 office staff working there le. and last few days for the IT ppl hu r entering uni this yr too. feels quite good to see them again. but somehow i felt that it could be the last time i might be seeing some of them le. i'd probably see those going to NUS again, but the likelihood of meeting those hu r going other uni or working in TMS is real low. wells, but i pushed these thoughts aside as i enjoyed my dinner with them. no point thinking about the future, if it deters u from enjoying the present isn't it? had chicken salsama (ok tat's totally not the name=.=). was attracted by the pix cuz it kinda looked lik mac's chicken foldover and KFC's latest banditto-looking thing. (wrong spelling=.=) was disappointed with its taste. it's just sour - must be lemon/lime added to the chicken. and the dough is just tasteless. the fries and colesaw was good though. we celebrated PC's belated birthday too. had this chocolate exotic, which tasted rather good. but eating too much of it makes u a bit sick cuz of the sweetness. lol. drifted away from reality when i saw the water refill jug. it reminded me of a jug that i saw somewhere. *hint: it is sighted in Forget-It bar. **another hint: i have nv been to a bar before. a melody played in my head. stared at the cup. it's transparent with intricate designs on it. as u hold it nearer to u, u see blue lights glowing filling you with a mystified feeling. (well the blue light came from the lighting) was kinda lost in my own world during that few moments. on my way home, i didn't say anything. was stoning away, with my eyes fixed on what lies outside the car window. i've never really looked at the night scenery of Singapore before. and before i knew it, i was lost in my own thoughts again. Thought of many things, some inspired by the songs played in the car. Eternal Flame. If only i could turn back time (ok dunno if that's the title, but that's the statement that kept ringing in my head) all i can say is that, even if i can turn back time, i will choose not too; for it makes the present lose its meaning. If everything that was done/said/experienced can be undone, mistakes can be corrected just like that, then there is no point in doing anything at all. if moments can be re-lived just by turning back time, memories are no longer meant to be treasured. well, the present can be said to be disintegrated and we will be living in a dimensionless and timeless world. if i were given the opportunity to rethink some of my decisions, no matter how much regrets i have now, i know that i will still make the decisions no matter wad. because i am me, and me put in the same situation with my character will push I towards the same ending. life is precious because we only live it once; the present gives us memories of the past to be treasured and to provide us with the momentum to move on to the future. all that being said, i'm glad for the memories i had back at TMS for relief teaching. i dunno if the world out there is here to stay, but at least i still have my memories to hold on to and smile because it once existed. =) Wednesday, July 30, 2008 @ 8:41 PM
Timeable for Semester 1 ok after much hard work, i finally settled down for this timetable. well, there's only one time that i gotta rush for lesson. and the modules that almost clash come from Engin and Design faculty, which r quite near to each other. only thing is that i dunno wher 47SR9 is. anyone care to enlighten me? modules taken are: 2 core = Maths1 + Intro to Material Sci and Engin. 1 El = Critical Thinking and Writing. 1GEM = Intro to Jap Studies. 1SS = Managing Singapore's Built Environment (none of the SS modules are particularly exciting, so i just picked one that best fits me timetable) Class Timetable for Year 2008/2009 Semester 1
@ 6:49 PM
headache about timetable ARGH so headache. =X trying to find SS and GEM that i want to study this sem. but the thing is, they can't fit into my timetable no matter how i try. HAIX. and the problem stems from the fact that i have 2 preallocated modules. =.= meaning i can't adjust the timing as and when i lik to fit whatever i m trying to piece together. been at it for lik 3hrs le. =X headache headache. it's lik a massive jigsaw puzzle. i do hav one timetable now, but it's really bad on Fri. 5hrs of consecutive lessons of which i need to rush from Engin to Sci and back to Engin. haix. i'm glad i have mdwav songs to listen to to calm myself down. at least i know it is there for me to fall back on. 不切实际也好，不属于现实世界也好，人有了精神寄托总是踏实多了，哪怕那是一个根本不存在着的空间。 anw, finished watching MDWAV 2 yesterday. once again i was swept with lots of thoughts and emotions, leaving me immersed in the show as i tried to sleep last night. many things touched me, many things puzzled me, and many questions r left unanswered. but i shall just leave the details to the appropriate place ba.. all i can say is that.. i held back far too many times.. 人清醒难感性，但我却不知觉地压抑着一切。one thing i know for sure, i wil definitely rewatch it. **** Matriculation Fair for Engin student is today. =) arrived super early la. i estimated 1.5hr of travelling time. hu knows 95 came immediately after i reached the bus stop hence 15min of waiting time waivered. thus i arrived 15min earlier. but there was alr a queue le. met my pri sch classmate there. doing chem eng too. i'm glad she recognises me and actually came forth to me. 也许现实世界并不如想象中糟吧。matriculated together and looked at labtops. i bought my toshiba portege M800. well done! it was upgraded from 1GB RAM to 4GB RAM. and there's free printer to come along with it. all in all, i paid 1.9k+ (GST included) worthy buy. i kinda acted lik the saleperson there trying to sell this model =.= and i kinda clicked with the sales lady over there (sounds weird, she's just maybe 2yrs my senior?) and someone whenever she/i said something, the other party will just nod the head in agreement and exclaim yes yes yes! not those type of being polite and acknowledging what the other person is saying kinda reaction. rather, it's just some spontaneous reaction that u give when u r in total agreement. ROFL. AND I GOT MY FREE 1GB THUMBDRIVE. ok everyone gets it, but i was pretty afraid that it will run out of stock. ROFL. yes cs but hu can say no to FREE thumbdrive? haha. visited the cca booths. quite interested in some. Kendo, Rotaract, Some Gaming club, archery, and this helpline cca. shall c how's their welcome session is lik. ^^ at this moment, i can say i m all ready to withdraw from DD. i'm just so excited to enjoy a wholesome and vibrant uni life participating actively in all these exciting activities. =) Tuesday, July 29, 2008 @ 12:15 PM
decision making again din go for FASS talk after all. i'm beginning to think that it's a mistake in the first place to apply for dd. i guess i just have to admit that no matter how high my interest for economics might be, it will stil be below the limit that will make me want to commit myself to a five year programme willingly. in fact, i am better able to see myself proceeding in this manner. 4 yrs of eng degree --> work rather than 5yr of dd --> work. but what i fear is that i dunno what's my real stand. mayb it's because i'm in dd now tat i dun wan dd and hope for a 4 yr course. maybe if i withdraw from dd, i might on the other hand hope that i m in it after all. as i say this.. suddenly i just felt as though material science and engineering might be the right choice for me. after all, it's more chemistry and less technical in nature. it's really the softer aspect of engineering, closer to science. and i do know for sure that with a material science degree, i have chances of getting a job in forensic science because what i will be learning is something that is relevant to the job. and honestly, even though i have heard of ppl with chemical (processing) engineering degree in a forensic science career, i dun c the link between what is taught and what might be used in that job. ok. i shld just cease to think for a moment and go hav lunch =.= @ 12:07 AM
你没想象中爱我 -石欣卉 (Perfect Cut Theme Song) 你没想象中爱我 -石欣卉 (Perfect Cut Theme Song) 动人的旋律深深吸引着我，让我无法自拔。两个字：好听。 Monday, July 28, 2008 @ 11:36 PM
很多事都是发生在那一瞬间 很多事都是发生在那一瞬间。 无意之间进入了一个毫不相干的人的部落格。我被那部落格深深吸引住了。里头的思想是如此的成熟，如此的简略。 在平凡之中，我看见一个人的真情流露，也领悟到了其中的不平凡。原来许多感觉无需花花绿绿的言语，只需三两真挚的话，就足够了。最真的就是最能让人感动的。 然后又不知如何，我很幸运的终于能在youtube听见石心卉的《原来你没想象中爱我》。如此好听，如此动人的歌。 找了许久，但总是得到“video is not available"的讯息。也许能说是倒霉吧，但也是不幸中的大幸。我因绕了一圈而找到的那部落格。 也许命运冥冥之中有所安排吧。许多事情发生都有原因的。就因为以上两件事的发生，我感到如此平静。有了当时想有个能让我写有的没有的的不落格的冲动。但也因为如此发现我无意之中一直躲在别人的身份里。因此，我毫不犹豫的将我的yahoo户口删除了。那也许是我的第一个email account，但既然需要结束，就得干脆一些。 也许很多事都是发生在一瞬间，但只要这一瞬间的事能让你感到无怨无悔，哪怕只不过是命运的安排，也能让你感到心满意足。 @ 6:55 PM
Welcome tea session cum chemical science programme before i can start to blog on anything, i received this email that's lik so sudden. being laid back as ever, i was lazy to go for the chemical science programme briefing last friday. now do i realise from the email that the deadline for application for this programme is 1st August. oopss.. i have so many questions in my mind. =X i shld have just went for the briefing. zzz.. looking at the presentation slides that were uploaded.. the modules sounds interesting.. Semester 1 Singapore Studies Critical thinking and writing Basic organic chemistry Maths 1 Introduction to Materials Science and Engineering Semester 2 Chem eng principles organic chem biochemistry of biomolecules maths II Intro to Matlab ok there's nothing terribly exciting, but i quite lik the chem/bio modules that's in this programme. they're so biochem. dunno y recently my interest has shifted from physics to bio, with chem remaining at the helm of course. anw, just sent in my enquiry email to the person who emailed me (though i think it's the wrong person to ask..) about whether the graduate programme is compulsory. if i get a negative reply, then i guess i should just minor analytical chemistry. **** alright. today's welcome tea session went pretty well. quite informative and useful. food was good. wahaha. =) well. actually this session didn't really answer some of the confusion that i had. mainly because i dun even know what i'm confused about. anw, i realise i knew most of the things that were said so the tea session served to give me the reassurance that whatever i was thinking about is on the right track. before the dd talk.. i was considering dropping DD to pursue major in chemistry/minor in analytical chemistry. i stil patiently await the start of minor in forensic science. but circumstances leave me with no time to wait. i really hope that it will come to pass real soon (or totally fail to come to pass. choy) otherwise i will forever be stuck in this situation whereby i am afraid of stepping out into other areas for fear that i will 擦肩而过 with forensic science. after the dd talk.. i was still not convinced to stay in the programme. although the speaker did emphasize that it's not easy to get in here and we're very lucky to be here. and i guess it's irresponsible of me to drop out of this programme after denying another potential candidate of a chance to be admitted into this programme. but mayb cuz the speaker spoke exactly what's on my mind, tt's y i decided to just take an econs module in my 1st sem just to try it out and also to做一个不负责任的交代. "Don't think of dropping this programme even before it has started. since u r already in it, just give it a try" but now with the chem sci email, i m totally in another confused state. and the deadline is real close. this fri. meaning if i really want it, i gotta certify all my doc tomolo. =.= forget about this issue. anw today one engin prof earned my respect for him. did had a short chat with him during lunch time. he approached us and gave us some useful advice. it wasn't authoritative at all, it just felt lik a fren sharing his experiences with us. but tat wasn't anyhting significant to me at that point of time. it became obvious only during the dd talk. even when the integrity of his faculty came under attack, he didn't express fury nor did he jump to self-defence. rather, he addressed the issue maturely, giving credit to the other parties involved but subtly showing making his stand as a dedicated and loyal engin prof. mayb i'm too sensitive, but if i'm his shoes, i can't guarantee i won't lose my cool lo. or at least i know i can't smile and see to the matter so calmly yet suitably. i liked one statement he said when mentioning about some students switching faculty away from engin faculty. "we are one big family. you will always be with us. it isn't up to us to decide whether you will go to the other faculty, the choice is on the accepting faculty. but remember you are always part of us. If you are not accepted on the other side, we will not leave you out. you can still come back." i know the words doesn't seem lik anything great. but it's the way he said it that made me feel touched. it definitely wasn't anything sarcastic. you can feel the sincerity in his words. on the contrary, i also saw other responses to other questions by other people. there was someone in dd business and eng, with home faculty in business. Qn: "Can i switch my home faculty?" A: "if u r in eng, and you hope to switch over to business, there's no direct way of transfering using DD. you still need to go through the same application procedures. Anyway, business is really hot - you might not be assured of a place there." Q: "No no, my home faculty is business and i'm just wondering if i could transfer over to Eng." A: "OH! definitely you can. WOW! you make history man. you are the first person who wants to go the other way round. we will definitely love you." pls infer. infer wad? well, infer what you need to infer. oh. and did anyone mention this dd briefing is actually Double Degree in Eng and Business briefing? cuz the other dd is that "oh it's bascially the same thing as dd in eng and business" and "honestly dd in econs is of lower (??) as dd in business" and yes, "dd with business gives you banking job in (some well know international banks) which you cannot achieve with Eng degree" and btw, if you happen to be "in eg. science faculty, and you bid for business module, you will fail to get it. i'm telling you the truth here. business is really hot. don't believe you can ask your seniors, they will tell you the same thing." well i do have many things to say, starting with speechless. anw, i saw from the engin prof the qualities of a quiet leader. someone that might not be rara, someone that wun crack jokes to lighten the atmosphere during his speech. but just someone with this quiet aura capable of making you listen to what he says, not because you are forced to, but because you want to. gained quite a bit of insights from this welcome tea session. ^^ Sunday, July 27, 2008 @ 6:57 PM
events unfold tomolo going to nus for Eng welcome tea session. it's gonna be my first trip to NUS for official academic stuff. quite looking forward to it. gonna register for oweek tomolo too. looking at the website makes me feel excited and all ready to join in the orientation activities. and i think that the activities r rather relaxing - not that hiong as ocamp, which is what i prefer. =) just had a look at their mass dance video. they used "pop by Nsync". nice song. it's only 2.25min long and the steps look relatively alright. haha. but now i'm worrying bout whether i can secure a position in the oweek. there's only 500 vacancies n the quota has exceeded le (from online registration i think). dunno if i wil sign up in time tomolo considering that there's this signing up session today at Raffles City Star Bucks. Hopefully i wil get a place ^^ the seniors sound really friendly and nice people. haha. after this week, things will happen real fast. mon - Engin welcome tea session. tues - FASS briefing (i might go if the DD talk doesn't clarify my doubts). wed - matriculation fair (my labtop!! =P ) thurs - bidding (i think i dun need to participate in this round). Sat - Oweek starts. Mon to Fri - Oweek. Next Mon to Fri - Lectures. Next Mon to Fri and from then onwards - Lectures and Tutorials. actually i'm quite looking forward to uni. tho i'm unsure of the events that will unfold and whether they will be something pleasant. but i do know that the outcome is ultimately dependent on how i view things and what i intend to do to get the best out of my uni life. i've been laid back thus far. i hope that i wil hav the courage to break out of myself and search for the true me there. sometimes it's useless holding back and hiding in some corner, generating silly excuses for yourself when you know that isn't what you want. but sometimes, it really isn't that easy to push yourself forward to be who you want to be. then again, when you escape, you ain't really running away from anyone or anything or even reality, you are simply running away from yourself. Friday, July 25, 2008 @ 11:56 PM
《一切完美》 《一切完美》 ended le. i quite lik this new 尝试. The show gives a "movie-like" feeling and it's a rather short show comprising of 1 story per episode. appreciate this effort by mediacorp to present an alternative outlook to its show. it would hav been too draggy if this show is dealt with using the usual method. it brought up several issues pertaining to aesthetics surgery - especially the part about what's more important? Beauty on the surface or inner beauty? it's a tug-of-war between the "looks" and the "purity of the soul" (as we can see from the frequent arguments Alex and Kelly regarding the definition of beauty) it was pretty entertaining to see their war of words. Witty and straight to the point, putting across the essential ideas without over-usage of bombastic words which served on meaning. i guess perhaps the "model" answer will be this: inner beauty is more important because looks don't last forever. what's the point of looking the best on the outside when ur inside is ever so empty or simply ugly? and the condemnation of Alex's view goes on about how superficial these people are etc. but my answer (at least at this point of time) is: Beauty on the surface isn't everything but it is something. if u are obsessed with good looks, and u don't hav good looks, then yes you can be destroyed by this superficial beauty. if u hav the good looks,but do not hav the confidence to bring it out, or if u hav a terribly ugly inner beauty, then ur beauty isn't a wholesome one. if you don't have the good looks, but u are at ease with yourself, then ur confidence as a person will shine and the inner beauty from within will show and you can still be beautiful. but truthfully, how many people can actually say that they are totally immune to what's on the outside? i think nobody will have nil outer beauty and nil inner beauty - it's just a matter of discovering them, developing them, balancing the two element such that ultimately, u can be at ease with yourself and accept yourself for who you are, and not what others want you to be. you can say you are at ease with yourself when one day you no longer need to see ur reflection through others. rather you can confidently say that you do not need to have a mirror. you can change ur inner beauty by cultivating good/bad habits. u can change ur outlook by going under the knife. mayb in the past i would hav quickly denounced those that underwent such surgeries (not for medical reasons) as being silly and superficial, but now i no longer hav this rigid thoughts. sometimes u hav to go through the procedure so that u r no longer reminded of the scar, thus faciliating the process of the healing of the soul. sometimes it just serves as a form of escaptism. when you think that the problem is no longer seenable = it has ceased to exist, it might still be deep within u eroding ur soul away. ultimately, the "feel good" aspect comes back. the decision will be weighed upon whether it can give you true happiness. and what is true happiness? there's no universal definition. we all hav our own world to live in. sometimes we make decisions based on lies. it's bad enough to be lying to the rest of the world, but the saddest of it all is when we are lying to ourselves. as for the storyline itself, i guess i kinda neglected them. as i was watching the show, i feel that i was thinking about certain issues more than watching the plots. haha.. but one thing i know is that.. the songs are nice!! Esp the ending song!!! but for some weird reason, all the utube vid with the ending songs r not available. =(( You can attain perfection when you learn to accept imperfections. @ 6:24 PM
modules! aiyo i'm getting more and more confused about all the module things. =X and it just occurred to me that i have to take FASS exposure modules if i decide to carry on with my econs degree. haix.. and the crucial question now is.. is introduction to economic analysis a GEM module? i tot i saw it under this category last time, but i can't seem to find it now. =X if it is.. then Yr 1 sem 1 timetable with or without dd is the same. (ok seems lik it's not in GEM now that i checked the list i've just made) what makes me puzzled is the way the dd timetable is structured for yr 4 and 5. just take the 4.5yr scheme for those under non-honours econs degree. u spend the 5th year studying SS and GEM. isn't it better if i simply slot each module somewhere and finish everything in 4 yrs? i know it's really up to us how long we want to take in order to complete the degree.. BUT the point is.. i'm just feeling so 烦 now so i just can't help but to find fault with everything i c. and get even more 烦. listening to the song 心战 from Red Cliff 让我的心更乱. but i just can't help but to listen to it again and again. it's so.. alluring.. the feeling it gives is just.. fortunately, all my core has already been registered for me le, meaning i dun hav to start bidding on the 30th which gives me more time to understand this whole system. lolx. speaking of which i dunno how to register my El module. seems lik i hav to declare what group i fall under, but the thing is -- i dunno. =.= anw, i'm so gonna check out some entertainment stuff NOW to 缓和情绪. lolx. @ 3:39 PM
nose nose nose manx. received an email from my faculty, which left me with lots of ?? i had so many windows opened just to figure out how to piece the puzzle together. and then i decided to.. close all of them, and just concentrate on bloggin. so confusing =X almost couldn't sleep last night.. this time not cuz i wasn't tired or anything. but it's due to my sensitive nose. it just keeps blowing and blowing. and i can sneeze consequtively for lik 1min? it's not a flu nor cold. i'm just sneezing for dunno wad reason. =.= and the amount of tissue used was lik Whooa.. i was so afraid i wil fall asleep cuz i could hardly breathe.. the previous time when i went to the doc, he alr commented that my nose hole (is nostril used to describe the hole u can see on ur nose, or the hole within ur nose?) is closing up le. haix. sensitive nose --> blow nose --> swelling on nose --> nose hole smaller and smaller.. it's really tough breathing.. even as i attempt to just sit up, i'm already panting away and taking in big mouthful of air. and the strange thing is that this time my lungs and windpipe feel perfectly alright. it's just the nose. finally i resorted to using my mouth to breathe. but i just feel as though the oxygen i m taking in is just not sufficient. and just by opening my mouth for 5 minutes makes my throat dry. and.. open mouth to breathe --> dry throat --> throat infection. so i shut my mouth after a while. =.= and used alot of force to inspire and expire air. haix.. it's as though i'm blowing lots of balloons. and the aftereffects i got -- dizzy and cold head. weirdly enough.. when i decided to had to get out of bed and take a walk, my condition improved. seems lik when i'm lying down, the pull of gravity closes my nose hole and when i stand up, somehow the situation cleared a bit. so ya.. alas i managed to fall asleep with an ease of mind. *phew* Thursday, July 24, 2008 @ 9:13 PM
Klunch session with CC went for klunch with cc today. =) haha. had a great time singing. ^^ and klunch is really worth it. 3hr of singing (check in anytime from 11-2) + jap food (choice of chicken set/sushi set today) + 1cold/hot drink for just 10++ (for cineleisure branch). and with all the ++, it just adds up to 13.50 each only, which is pretty worth it. ^^
and i realised that Angela's Qing Ai De Na Bu Shi Ai Qing is really tough to sing. it was the song that i had the most difficulty singing today. =(( it doesn't sound difficult though, but when u try it out, it's lik a killer. =X it wasn't a big problem when i sung it at home, but mayb cuz i was singing very softly. the biggest problem about this song is that it goes from high note to low note and back again so rapidly and ever so frequently. i can't change my breath fast enough. haha.. and i realise i have this problem of not being able to move from high notes to low notes. LOL! usually it should be the other way that's tough. =X i rmb when i was singing tian hui, upon reaching the high notes, my pitch remains there. when in fact i should hav returned to normal pitch. but my voice is stil floating up there and i can't bring it lower until i stop and change my breath. lolx. there's lik this air in my stomach or lungs preventing me from pushign my voice lower. towards the end, i attempted some suicidal songs -- those from Shin Group. ROFL. Tried Li Ge and Si Le Dou Yao Ai. so happy that i was able to reach some high high notes with explosive force once with Li Ge. but only once -- the first time the chorus was on. lolx. after that when the chorus came on again, there was alot of po yin. =.= Si Le Dou Yao Ai was quite a bad attempt. it starts off with high notes. but once in a while, u hav to go low. but the thing is, i can only reach high and remain there, so throughout the whole intro, my voice was floating around with all those high notes. LOL! after taht we shopped a bit around far east. ^^ bought some tshirts. haha. need to stock up for uni u c. =) next destination was bugis. bought lots of things - tshirts, blouse and vests. and my dream watch wasn't that dream-lik after all. cuz it cost either 12 or 22. =.= i might as well buy a proper watch, which is what i think i'm gonna do. no more buying of these 5bucks watch, which i use and throw. lolx. fickle-mindedness isn't a good habit to hav. =P Wednesday, July 23, 2008 @ 6:53 PM
Crab with Dong Fen I DECIDED TO COOK CRAB WITH DONG FEN TODAY. =) no O.o looks pls, this isn't an April Fool's joke. lolx. went to shop for the ingredients with my mum in the afternoon. picked a medium live crab and bought some spring onion. the rest of the ingredients can be found at home. ^^ cuz i seldom cook, my preparation time was lik super long lorx. =.= cutting and chopping things lik garlic etc wasn't much of a prob. haha. i've always liked to chop all these garnishes. the only thing is that i m too lazy to do that often. lol! handling the crab was a bit of a problem, cuz it's the first time i'm gonna kill and chop it up. lolx. the first blow was dealt my mum. and it's dead! i roughly know where to strike but i wasn't confident about the strength with which i was about to strike the point. haha. later on, gave the crab a good scrub and wash. removed its big shell; chopped off pincers; separated body into 4 parts; helped it "trim its nails =.="
when the real cooking came, i was lik totally frantic initially. haha. in that split second, u hav to be precise and sure about what to add, when to add, to cook it for how long etc. lolx. when i hear all those sizzling sounds, i can't help but to jump as tho it's some reflex action. first prepared garlic oil (the scariest step cuz of the frightening sound it produces), then spring onion. then the crab proper followed by stock then dong feng. added some seasoning too. my white wine became hua diao jiu cuz that's the only thing available at home. LOL! my biggest mistake was to add crabstick meat. =.= cuz i lik to eat it and i tot it has the word crab so shld be no harm adding it ba.. hu knows.. the artificial smell of this crabstick meat overwhelmed the original seafood smell of my crab, making my final product sound not as crab-by as i expected. =(  my attempt to beautify the dish with some greeneries turned out to be far from ideal. so i decided to do without the greeneries after all.. haha. yes everything looks dark, but nothing's burnt!! it's just the poor lighting =P it's edible =) i quite liked it. only thing was that the crab meat wasn't that fresh. pretty soggy =( but the dong fen was alright. ^^ we finished the entire plate. wahahah. if yan (shan) can cook, so can you. LOL! Tuesday, July 22, 2008 @ 4:41 PM
Chem Eng timetable was told by my friend that chem eng timetable (for preallocated modules) is out. BEFORE i checked out what the various modules code represent, i was kinda of lik YES YES YES when i saw the first few combi. cuz. it's a three day week, lessons start only from 10. however, lessons usually end at 6. but there's ample break in between, so i guess it's ok. AFTER i did a module check, i realise that i dun hav to take one of the module stated. (if they say preclusion = H2 Maths. does it mean u have H2 maths = you dun need to take the module? o.o anw, the description reads, this modules aims to act as a bridge for those who have yet to take A-level maths.) and hence, i am supposed to follow the second half of the combination. which is.. four day week. still ends at 6 for the days that's supp to end at 6. the only reason why it is a four day week is because.. the English module that's supposed to be conducted on Monday was pushed back to Tuesday. Yes, which means that I'm supp to travel 3 hrs for that 2 hr English module. and yes, my monday becomes so empty - 4hr break. =.= AND this means that i have only 3 preallocated modules = i have to bid for 2 more. haha. i was stil silently glad that i only hav to bid for 1 more = less headache. but the instructions in the timetable is makign me worried. cuz it's saying things lik you hav to ballot in CORS, or you need to bid blah blah. so do i stil need to bid for preallocated modules? O.o OH! something occurred to me that made me quite happy. week 1 = no tutorial. Hence school on mon = 3pm - 6pm; thurs = 4-5 =.=; fri = 4-6. er.. ok mayb nothing really worth rejoicing about. =.= i want to skew my timetable forward!! i dun wanna school to start in the afternoon. lol! anw, welcome tea session is on 28th July. =) hopefully all my ?_? will be dispelled then. *phew* im stil blur blur over wad to do for bidding. just when i tot i got it, new questions comes to my head, and i realise i dun get anything at all. lol.. Monday, July 21, 2008 @ 12:25 PM
My Labtop Choice wahaha.. i have my eyes set on this labtop that i'm so gonna buy during the IT fair. =) It's Toshiba Portege M800, costing only $1825. For its specs, i think that's a reasonable price. =)  Looks quite nice. Pearl white and i thikn there's a plastic covering over it, so hopefully it wouldn't get dirty easily?
Some of the Specs @ 11:19 AM
Uni Uni accompanied mum to the exercising area in the morning. the "gym-like" place with all the blue and yellow equipment. haha. it's quite a nice feeling to take a walk in the morning. the air's fresh and cooling. wanted to pack my desk and cupboard and tables in preparation for the new things that's gonna come in when uni starts. but when i look at all my stuff, consisting of upper sec books, files, notes, TYS and JC notes, notes and more notes, i gave up trying to pack. wells, so i kinda procrastinated from Dec 07 to June 08 to currently 21 July. =.= nvm, i'll get it done next week.. suddenly "inspired" to check out what i can do with my NUS online account. logged onto the IVLE thingy. saw this webcast hyperlink, so i decided to have to look. well, now i'm listening to a Maths lecture and i totally dunno wad the lecturer is saying cuz he speaks real fast and has a strong American/British (i dunno how to differentiate) accent. and now i c some ppt slides on artificial intelligence. lolx. suddenly i just can't wait for uni to start. then i'd hav something to do and by then i'd wish that i'll hav a break. but when i hav a break, i'd wish that there's something for me to do, eg. for uni to start. LOL! ok, so now.. shall i play maple or watch MDWAV 1 or watch MDWAV 2 or watch Forensic Heroes 2 or watch the Battle of the In-laws 2? O.o Sunday, July 20, 2008 @ 12:56 PM
Class Gathering to "Red Cliff" Movie went out with my class yesterday. wow the turnout was great. haha. we almost occupied the entire row in the cinema. lolx. had sakae sushi for lunch. the tempura was really just 2 small little prawn. lolx. next time i'm so gonna try the hotplate and soba. =) oh yes, we took such a long time to order that the waiter had this irritated face while serving us. lol. wanted to buy watch from bugis street. but!! the design that i wanted was no longer in stock. or rather, the sellers all agreed that there's no such pattern for the white version. but i really did see it last time!! i shld have bought it back then. sighxx.. i wanted to wait to c if there's new and better design. haix. but i did ended up buying Eason's Don't let go and Jam's Album!! =PP sian la, eason's album lacked some songs and within one song, it was cut off. haix. but it's ok.. at least i can listen to majority of the songs. ^^ the main highlight of the day was.. watching Red Cliff!! Out of 5 stars, i think i'd give it 3 stars. and i'd revise my rating for the Warlord to 4 stars instead. I rmb reading this comment "Because i went without any expectation, I left without disappointment". for me, i went with great expectation, so the disappointment was there.. interesting happenings --> there was a blackout for 15min. my interesting line spoken "how did ppl in the past cut their nails?"  review as below.. **** The biggest issue i have with this film was the flatness of the plot. it isn't a show that bores you; in fact i had my eyes glued onto the screen all the time. however, it was just that. enough to keep my attention there, but there wasn't any scenes that would evoke strong feelings in me. and also, there wasn't much character development. i can walk out of the cinema and if someone ask me, what is your favourite scene or who is your favourite character, i dun think i can find an answer for the former. for the latter, i can make a choice, but not because of the character in the show, but rather the actor was really good. in comparison, i recall some thought-provoking and sensational scenes in the warlord. (if i may make a comparison) The mass killing of the surrendered troops. the internal struggles of each characters. it's really as though they're alive and i can just feel what they feel. and the fear i felt when the war scenes were presented to me in their most native form, without any special effects. it doesn't really bother me if the script remained loyal to the historical facts. however, the fact that the movie didn't give me new insights to the Romance of Three Kingdom did made me feel a bit low. i know that cao cao is the ambitious guy, that liu bei and another guy (which i found out it's sun quan from this show) formed the lords of the other 2 kingdoms. Liu Bei had capable people lik GuanYu and Zhang Fei and Zhuge Liang, etc. but the movie only fortified what i knew. ok, it did introduce me to Sun Quan and Zhao Yun, but that's only at the surface level. i want to know the thoughts that went on in their mind and the emotions that the characters felt. i dun wan to konw just the hard cold facts and see some war scenes with heroes solo-ing and defeating almost everyone that comes their way. maybe i expected too much.. or mayb i just dun lik films that's too comercialised, which john woo happened to specialise in. i guess i prefer the softer touch to movies, such as those filmed by peter chan, which has strong emotional touch to them. but of course, if i were to let go of all these opinions, and just look at the movie as it is, i will say that the movie was entertaining. the war scenes were spectacular. the war strategies were really witty. the war formations were really smart. but being someone who dun really lik those action films, eg. X men, spiderman, batman and all the other mans, these factors take a secondary position when i look at a movie.  Zhao Yun acted by Tony Leung!!! =)) and zhang zhen (as Sun Quan) and Hou Yong behind Friday, July 18, 2008 @ 9:56 PM
心战 red cliff 心战 from Red Cliff is not bad. the first time i heard it was over radio in the wee hours. i was awaken by the song. and for a moment i tot my radio was haunted. cuz of the tune of the song. and the middle part which goes lalala in a draggy tune and suddenly the female voice returned. hence i tot it was 2 separate eerie song. lolx. but i've been listening to it over and over for the past 1hr. i lik the feelign it gives me. totally not the typical pop music, but i just lik it. going to catch the movie tomolo. yay ^^ @ 9:11 PM
Last Day as TMS RT well.. last day of work.. the teacher "in charge" of reminding me this carried out his duties early in the morning before assembly. lol. well some of the NIE teachers left today too. well.. i'm still quite bothered about the fact that it's the last day. as i see the kids settle down for assembly for the last time; as i hear the national athem being played for the last time; as i listen to the students take their pledge that can hardly be heard for the last time (and the first time they were being scolded for doing such an awful job. lol); as i walk away from the assembly ground for the last time, i have to admit that i can hardly ignore the fact bout it being my last day. there were some that came to me to wish me all the best and i really appreciate that. some gave me handshakes, some had short conversations with me, some gave me a pat on the shoulder, some gave me a smile. some told me to visit once in a while and i'd of course hope to return once in a while. i'm really happy and contented to see all these sincere well-wishes. but.. at the same time there's this tingling bit of emptiness. wondering about the rest of the RTs that were here with me back then. thinking about what the situation will be if they were here. we promised to meet up, but thus far there was no outings yet. it's just quite down to know that we once shared almost everyday together, but somehow that bond was just lost. just like that. mayb that's what things will be like from now on. and i shudder to think of that. actually i think i'm quite fortunate. i'm leaving on the day when the school is celebrating Racial Harmony Day. so there's this mass eating session. i was in a class just before the session began. had nice chat with the class. i can see the excitment they had for the event. can rmb those days where we had such special events. anw, when their form teacher came, i left the room silently. had my mass eating session in the staffroom. i can hear the excitment going on, but i remained at my desk to eat. 也许对于无法众乐乐会感到少许遗憾, but to hear the others being so happy, i guess that's enough..  it's really nice ^^ the curry is superb..had 2 classes today. sometimes i really just want to let them know it's my last day. or rather, let anyone and everyone know it's my last day. but i held myself back. everything should end as silently as i came. entered the class as normally as ever; left the class as usual, but the "thank you ms ang" sounds espcially bittersweet today. Just to quote from one of the teacher "you are so mysterious", when i told her that i didn't tell my students that today was my last day. maybe i just ain't used to making a big huha about such things if everything should end, it should end. nothing spectacular about that. talking about teaching.. i can say I 爱过恨过哭过也笑过. all i can say is that in this career you can get angry and upset for 100mins, but that one moment of joy and happiness in that split second is enough to make you forget everything just like that and you will leave with a feel-good feeling. i rmb the first class i've ever been to; they were ever so welcoming, so friendly, so enthusiastic and they remains as my fav class till today. prior to today, i've always had this scene in my mind of myself walking into the class to express my thanks to the class for giving me such a good start and for being so supportive. and it still remains as an image in my mind. it's really regrettable that i m unable to bade them a proper goodbye and i dunno if anyone will notice my absence or feel affect by my absence, but i know that all these fragments of memories are here to stay. i can rmb classes that didn't show their appreciation for their teachers. i can rmb that long preaching seesions i had with some of them. 就当眼泪不小心在脸上划过时，也得笑着说那是汗水. but these are also the very classes that really makes you happy when they come forward to apologize or to thank you for the effort you have taken to prepare their lessons. for the last 3 weeks, i had proper classes. cuz 3 teachers were on leave consequetively for a week long. and because of that, i had the chance to build rapport with some of the classes. it feels good to have students smile and say "hello ms ang" when you meet them along the way. not cuz they are required to greet you, but just for the very fact that they want to do that. it feels good to have some students engaging in short conversations with you along the way. too bad good things come to an end too quickly. left at 6.40pm today. rushing some work but i'm really glad to be doing that. i really don't mind doing all those work. the more, the merrier. my only fear is that i m unable to complete them, or that they're not up to standard. to be able to help the school, the teachers and the students, the effort that i'm putting in is insignificant. the small little crane left on my desk "performed" this handover session. passed my console keys to jimmy. the keys that were with me for 7months, for almost every lessons. handed over all the ss resource back to ms neo. tb, wb, resource file, cds, other school's papers etc. well that marked the end.. brought home the rest of my stuff. and that's left now is an empty desk. P.S. those books dun belong to me. hence just assume it's empty. lol! @ 9:09 PM
click for free virus! o.o i was trying to bluetooth some photos over to my com. and.. my phone detected this phone named "click for free virus!" wow. how exciting. Wednesday, July 16, 2008 @ 6:56 PM
Chemical engineers in forensics wahaha.. heard of this WOW news today. ^^ had a chat with a teacher during lunchtime. guess wad? he has a friend who graduated as a chemical (process) engineering and is currently working with the Forensics. wahahahhaha.. i was like "REALLY???!?!?!" haha.. i dunno if chemical engineers and chemical process engineers are the same thing, but chemical process engineers sounds even more technical to me than chemical engineers. and he/she got into Forensics!!! =) and i think mayb the rumours i heard about Forensics accepting only 1 person each year might be just a myth. after all, m i really so lucky to hear of the person who got accepted in that particular year? haha. @ 6:23 PM
a moment it's a good feeling to slow down your pace sometimes and just be lost in time. 4pm in the staffroom. it should be a frantic moment trying to clear some markings. but i happened to turn my head towards the window. as i turn back my head, that split second of image captured when i looked at the window seems to be seducing me back to that moment. i dunno wad got into me, but i just felt the need to STOP. i put down my red pen and papers. as i peered out of the window.. it never really did occur to me before that this is the scenery i could have enjoyed for the past 6months i was there?  was taking this shot secretly in case the teachers around me discover what i'm doing. lol the white wall, green trees, blue sky and white clouds. such simple things expressed in the simplest of all words. yet this simple feeling filled me with a sense of tranquility and satisfaction. the clouds were moving real fast. and it's just really interesting to see them float by. well.. thought of the 7months i had spent over here.. recalled the past 4 yrs i was here as a student.. yeah, the feeling is different. which role do i prefer to assume? i think i have the answer.. 2 more days.. yupz, weirdly enough, i dun hav any countdown this time round. in fact, there's this teacher that's always reminding me everyday of the no. of days i have left in this school. lol. i dun really know if i'm deliberating stopping myself from thinking about it, or is it because i just want to spend every day in TMS the way it should be, unburdened by the thought of last day or the ending.. I'm quite confident that it's due to the latter reason. and i'm glad and proud to say this. anyway, me being me. as random as ever, i decided to take a shot of my computer. =.=   Monday, July 14, 2008 @ 5:55 PM
ez link card experience went to apply for tertiary ez-link card today. one of the rare times that i took 14 instead of 229. it was a pleasant trip. indeed, sometimes it feels good to be left alone, just me myself and i. spent some time thinking about changes.. it's funny how things works. many of us out there resist changes. we lik things to remain status quo; we lik our lives to be as constant as possible. Fluctuations, anomaly and changes are the "unwanted". in the process of a change, we might subconsciously resist whatever that's coming our way. maybe we'd find faults with the new environment. mayb we tend to do comparisons and usually we'd find the situation before the change better. and slowly, this subconscious inclination becomes a conscious act. there's this constant reminder that this isn't good because life back then was better. but as we consciously reject the change, there's a twist in our subconscious minds now. unknowingly, we are getting used to the changes. slowly, this "something new" becomes a habit and slowly it becomes part of our lives. but we're consciously lamenting on why we can't return to the past. maybe it isn't the change that's causing us so much pain and troubles. maybe the struggle that we face is due to the very fact that our subconscious and conscious mind work antagonistically. when the mind cannot reconcile in its entirety, it forms a mental burden, pressing us down - hard. now, if we are able to come into acceptance with the change that is going on, the subconscious and the conscious will be in sync with each other and the mind becomes at ease. maybe this happens when we are able to fully accept what has come in our way and move with the force of nature. the best example i thought of back then. As we graduate from JC, we are no longer considered students. and hence, we have to pay adult fare when using public transport. initally, the impact was rather forceful. and gradually, everyone in the same category began toking about it and the transition process from jc to uni becomes a major issue. "Wa! everyday i gotta spend so much money just to take a bus/train?!" gradually the "Di" sound rather than the familiar "Da Dum" sound becomes less jarring. we still lament on the same issue sometimes, but definitely less often. not that it will help in any way by brooding on this anyway. slowly, it doesn't feel that bad after all. once in a while, when we consiously think about the increase in price, we might feel the pinch, but at least it doesn't come by everyday. we're just accustomed to the notion of paying more than before. some things are meant to be thought about at length; some things are better left alone. what belongs to which category? that's the tricky part. Sunday, July 13, 2008 @ 6:10 PM
陈奕迅 - 《不想放手》 陈奕迅 - 《不想放手》  i tot it's just me who thot that his latest album is less k-able but closer to our hearts. to think there are others out there who shares this sentiments too. it's really a nice album. 1. 27 seconds 2. 路。。。一直都在 3。 独居动物 4。 倒带人生 5。 7 6。 不要说话 7。 漂亮小姐 8。 臭美 9。土星环 10。 然后怎样+hidden message read the newspaper review today. some of the comments totally reflects what i feel.. “《倒带人生》 的失落，《土星环》 的孤独，《然后怎样》 的宿命感， 反映出在这个时代， 一般都市人都空虚和寂寞的通病。” “新专辑里的歌曲多数走个性派，不如典型抒情个那么容易讨好。虽然没有那么多的K歌，却胜在有诚意和想法。” really lik his effort. it's no longer an album that contains songs that will appeal to the masses. it is an album that has much personality. my fav? till now it's stil What's next. a must-play song whenever i listen to his album. @ 5:51 PM
addiction from maple back from mapling. both yest and today. someone pls slap me. from the moment i wake up --> maple --> break for lunch --> maple --> bathe + dinner + nite TV time = no life. and the fact that i m here at 5.50pm not 7pm isn't an achievement at all, cuz i was disconnected from the game. i dun lik the feeling that my brain seems to be dead. nothing to think about, except for how disappointed i m with myself for playing maple for lik my entire weekend. no addiction pls. addiction = game control me. i want to play = me control game. play to enjoy, play for fun, not because there is a need to. Friday, July 11, 2008 @ 6:15 PM
Perfect Cut quote Quote from "Perfect Cut": "When you escape from your problems, it's akin to putting correction tape on your mistake. Although you can't see it, the mistake is always there. When you try to cover it up with the correction tape again and again, all it does is to remind you of the presence of the mistake." Everything above is self-explanatory. Very apt description. Very true indeed. The more you try to run away from something, the more obviously the "something" stands out. Alternative? Face up to the situation. Easier said than done. Recognizing this fact isn't enough, executing it gives it the perfect finish but this is often the most difficult part. Wednesday, July 09, 2008 @ 6:59 PM
识法代言人 识法代言人 ended le =(( the show was ok ok la. those kinda that you'd enjoy watching, but most prob forget the content after that.. haha.. ZhiDa and YiXin didn't get back together after all.. =(( well, i can get what they mean, but still.. i can't totally understand their kind of relationship.. "we're better off that way. we're even closer than the best of friends. when you're 70 yrs old, i will call you to go the the dentist to make a denture" 2 person who was in love and stil have care and concern for each other but do not share the title of being a couple. rather, they're close than the best of friends. oh wells. YiYan is a likable character in the show, always ever so bubbly and cheerful and easy-going. doesn't apply to me though. i only liked the part of her which is 脆弱。oh yes, and her embarrassed moments too. i liked the way she acted it out. gives a sweet feeling. ^^ but other than that, ppl with this kind of character simply can't click with me. still, undeniably, she's stil a likeable character. or mayb it's just the actress Myolie that gives me the o.o feeling. haha. biased opinion~ the father died.. how should i put it? it was a sad moment. yet i can't help but to feel happiness for him amidst the saddness as he has passed on with a smile in his mouth. with his 2 grown-up daughters in his heart and his wife by him. i was kinda hoping that when Zhuang ma appeared at the door, she will pretend to be sad. and slowly, from behind, his characteristic HAHAHA will sound. (u know, the typical happy ending kinda thing) it didn't happen. i'm glad that the story felt real rather than trying to dish out the ending ppl hoped to see and making it irritatingly cliche. but putting myself back into the show, it's just really really sad to c him pass away.. well, i dunno how to explain it, it's just some polarised feelings that i have. i think Shen Yi-an is really a special character. always so jovial and cheerful. not because he hasn't been through anything tough, but because he really understood life. he could see things in perspective and really take things in his stride. 既来之，则安之。。。i enjoyed all his andecdotes. always so simple yet meaningful with deep thoughts given to it. it's lik a big complex idea compressed into something so elegantly simple that anyone can just understand it. his final quote -- "the sunset is beautiful, but night wil soon fall" he didn't lik the part about including night approaching. if the sunset is beautiful, enjoy it. why bother about the fact that night will soon fall? very very true. if u r burdened by what comes next and is hence unable to fully enjoy whatever that's beautiful in front of you, then u r missing out on everything. no matter what, night will come. so just be immersed in the sunset. 正所谓：人该活在当下。。but of cos, it's easier said than done. r we really able to let go of all worries and live life as it is to the fullest? tough.. and i admire the very fact that Shen Yi-an managed to do this.. mayb it's a pity he should hav heart problems and that he should die. but looking at things from another point of view, mayb it was precisely due to his illness that he managed to slow down and reflect upon his life and finally enjoying it to the fullest. 是福是祸？不知，也不能知。因为生命只有一次，我们无法看见那“如果”的世界。那也是生命美妙之处。。 @ 6:18 PM
diablo 3 out cool~ diablo 3 is releasing soon.. hmmx, mayb not. end of next yr. =.= seems that games that i used to play take a long long time to release its latest version. haha.  starcraft 3 = 10yrs of waiting. diablo 3 = 8 yrs of waiting. and i'm just lik 18+?? that's like half of my life waiting. !_! so far there's official release of 2 characters - Barbarian (^^) and witch doctor (o.o). heard tat deckard cain is diablo? O.o totally no link. =.= he's the free "identify" man and now he's diablo? come to think of it.. MDWAV 3 has ended for 4yrs le.. i rmb 2 yrs back, it had just ended for 2yrs. well, 2 yrs didn't seem long. 4 yrs seems so distant.. anw, the entire trilogy celebrates its 10th anniversary this yr. = MDWAV has been with me for more than half of my lifetime. O.o oh yes.. today 9.30pm Channel u 走近科学 will be showing the skill of 变脸. heard that tho they wun reveal the secret behind the art of changing face, but if u r quick enough, u wil be able to see the link to the answer. ^^ think it's gonna be interesting. i think this entire show is gonna be interesting. about living deaths, curses, and many other unexplained. ^^ watched 型男主厨 le.. they cooked Crab + Dong Fen. *yum* and the master chef gave a demo too. ^^ hmmmx.. after watching this.. bowie gives me the feeling that he might be gay after all. o.o OH WELLS~ that's his own private life and it doesn't concerns me anyway. just continue to act in more great shows (and get it aired in singapore!) for me to enjoy!! ^_^ @ 5:31 PM
music time Well, it's music time. =) my imeem refuses to load. can't update my playlist.. grrrr... 原谅我. nice nice nice. addictive. ^_^ 原谅我 词：阿沁 曲：阿沁 演唱：萧敬腾 请不要分了以後 还记得亲吻过的承诺 你的永久 已不属於我 默默低头 那时我很多 话哽在喉咙 你的笑你的快乐 或许我爱太多想太多 我能感受 他比我适合 爱放了手 我伪装冷漠 比你先说分手 请原谅我 原谅我不成熟 不爱你是藉口 好让你离开我 请原谅我 好想自私将你占有 你的寂寞就给我承受 换你过更好的生活 请不要分了以後 还记得亲吻过的承诺 你的永久 已不属於我 默默低头 那时我很多 话哽在喉咙 你的笑你的快乐 或许我爱太多想太多 我能感受 他比我适合 爱放了手 我伪装冷漠 比你先说分手 请原谅我 原谅我不成熟 不爱你是藉口 好让你离开我 请原谅我 好想自私将你占有 你的寂寞就给我承受 换你过更好的生活 爱过恨过哭过也笑过 亲吻过你的脆弱 其实我比谁都要懦弱 原谅我 必须假装爱错 别让时间逗留 我怕说不出口 原谅我 没有解释太多 心痛 别无所求 彻底忘了我 爱原来有舍得 我難過 我才懂 Jing Lun sings 真的爱你。 真的挺不错的哦! 从一开始到现在. not very nice. no 爆发力. 深情的情歌变得平平无奇。。 Leon li PKs Jing Lun with Forever Love. wow. his falsetto improved alot le. =)) but somehow his voice cracked in the beginning. or mayb it was a 哭腔 that was overdone. O.o Meng Fei Chuan singing 不值得 LIVE! =) i lik the way they sing it. not the way jing lun sings it tho, it seems too easy for him to go higher and higher.. Very nice MV of bu zhi de. i lik the simplicity. =) suits the song. i lik the fact that the song has this ahh part when moving one (or dunno how many =X) keys up. helps alot in singing the song.. Tuesday, July 08, 2008 @ 4:03 PM
Superband AAHHH.. 樱ying is out =((  well.. i haven found the band that i support, but my impression of them is not bad de lo. and the 主唱 can sing lo. and they got the professional sey lo.
frankly speaking, when it's left with just Ying and Synpathy, i tot Synpathy is sure out de. =.= ANNOUNCEMENT: (wanted to say many times) NOTE THE GUY AT THE EXTREME LEFT. He is from TMS. lolx. ok end of story. =.= haha made an effort to check out superband website. and to my horror yi xuan feng is out. O.o even before superband started, they were the one with the widest fan base. and they're out. O.o pu gong ying is out for QF1. well. i agree they should be out. so now my "favourite" 2 (not confirmed) would be 森林帖 ａｎｄ 异世界。  Monday, July 07, 2008 @ 7:12 PM
bowie = happy ^^ listening to xiao jing teng's songs now. i lik yuan liang wo. i lik what the song depicts. someone who is misunderstood and suffering in silence. anw, feeling slight better now.. cuz.. i FINALLY saw bowie's video of him in Xing Nan Zhu Chu. ^^ shall catch it some other day. if only i checked it lik this morning, then i'd be in a happy mood for the whole day siah. ah.. something to look forward to.. wahahaha.. and i saw this playlist about maggie chueng in bowie's tudou playlist. does this mean there's vid of them together? if there is, then WELL DONE! haha @ 6:25 PM
horrible sense of irritability got this horrible feeling that i gotta be doing something but i dunno what i'm supp to do. just one word - irritated. aiya. Eason - What's next? 完成了所谓的理想 放纵了情绪的泛滥 汗都流干 天都微亮 然后怎样 拥有了旅行的空档 却遗失流浪的背囊 沿着轨道一直流浪 然后怎样 假期过完有什么打算 走过一个天堂少一个方向 谁在催我成长 让我失去迷途的胆量 我怕谁失望 我为谁而忙 我最初只贪玩为何变负担 (AHH! so applicable to my maple addiction! =X) 为何我的问题总得等待别人的答案 我的快乐时代唱烂 才领悟代价多高昂 不能满足 不敢停站 然后怎样 haix.. i guess it was a mistake to maple after being away from it for lik 5mths? i might be busy with work during that period of time, but at the end of the day, i walk out feeling satisfied. that at least i managed to get things done, managed to help lighten others' load. it journey is tough but the ending is sweet. now, i enjoy the process of playing games, but everytime, i come out with this sense of regrets and irritability in me, of how i shld be doing other things. the process is fun, but the ending is terrible. and i'm those kind of people hu prefer 先苦后甜。。。 i like to game, but i dun lik the feeling of being addicted to gaming. i lik to have fun, but i dun lik the fact that the fun is controlling the way i think and the things i do. i think i need to retreat from maple for a long time again. it's causing me this sense of irritability in me.. my hands are trembling now. i dunno why. there's some energy running through me. no music can bring away that irritating feeling, no amt of blogging can release whatever i'm feeling now. i can't even concentrate on watching my Forensic Heroes now. ARGH. horrible horrible. and i think coffee has an interesting effect on me. previously while drinking starbucks, i tot they added some sleeping pills or something. i just had coffee just now. and my hands became cold and my head was spinning. and it makes me hungry. tell me more about what caffeine does to the boyd. =.= so sleepy now. zzz.. OR MAYBE.. the coffee is causing this irritating feeling in me. SO IRRITATED NOW @ 6:21 PM
lost life to maple i think i lost my life to maple. =.= 3 days holidays. all spent on maple. everytime i tell myself it'd only be for 1-2hr, it will end up taking my entire day. haix. there are so many things i want to do. eg. Finish watching my Forensic Heroes 2, starting on War of the In-Laws 2, starting on MDWAV 1 and 2, listening to some good songs online etc. haix no more maple = no more maple. can't waste my holiday just playing this maple =.= i need to watch my shows. lolx. anw, i realise i can't multi-task that well. eason's latest song 然后怎样 is very nice. been listening to it again and again. Saturday, July 05, 2008 @ 2:50 PM
listening to songs wow. imeem finally loaded. after a few months? lolx. mayb it's their technical prob, maybe it's the bandwidth issue, mayb it's my internet connection, mayb it's my com prob. anw, i'm lucky it managed to load this time. quite shocked to hear "Xi Wang" playing suddenly. ^^ Anw, been shitinging (试听-ing) some albums off the net. tho it's 30sec sample, but it's stil better than nothing. looks lik my taste hasn't changed. i still lik slow sentimentals. I think Alex Fung has a nice Canto album. tho i can't understand a single thing in his album, but this compilation is made up of solely sentimentals with nice, touching tunes. =) might keep a lookout for it next time. Eason's new album, Don't wanna let go, is nice too. I see a slight change in his songs though. First impression - these are the songs that I wouldn't want to k (not cuz it's tough or not nice) but rather they are songs that i'd lik to just listen to quietly by myself. it's raining now.. @ 2:32 PM
Commitment and Love sitting down tat day.. listening to 和你的每一天.. recapping some scenes from HH3.. thought of some scenes from others shows that i've been watching recently. can't rmb what they are though.. suddenly just had this idea.. If love without commitment isn't desirable, then, is commitment without love any much desirable? If one day, the intense love were to disperse to nothing but just a form of responsibility or commitment to the other party, is it really so important for that sense of commitment to be present in the first place? to be together because there is a need to, that's all.. on the other hand, those who are unable to settle down and make a commitment, are they really that bad? Just to quote what Henry said in HH3, "When i'm with others, i never thought over what should happen or what the ending should be. But then again, that might be where my fault lies in." Do we really need others to always think over how things should work out? Even if promises were given, how sure are we that they will be able to fulfil those promises? If i were to apply it to the show.. Henry and Sarah will never know how their relationship will turn out to be, unless they try to keep it going in the first place. And not letting it go just because Henry seems to be unable to commit himself. Commitment isn't just about words, it goes together with a process, a time period. One that says one can commit might not keep to one's commitment. One that says he can't commit might be the one that's there till the end of time. You never know what a commitment is until time proves it.. Friday, July 04, 2008 @ 8:45 PM
空虚 昨天突然有了一种莫名的空虚感。。。 好似我失去了什么，或是我忘了些什么，或是少了什么。。。 这感觉很真，但我却不知究竟是什么原因引起的。。。 突然很害怕。不知是害怕失去些什么，或是害怕那种失去了却根本不知失去了什么的感觉。。。 不知如何应付，只懂得躺着，望着天花板，眼前却看不见什么，犹如我迷失在自己的世界或是停留在一个从未存在过的空间里。。。 不知不觉这感觉散了。来也匆匆，去也匆匆。留下的是一个迷惘的我。那一瞬间的空虚是真的吗，我也不清楚。 我只知道我不懂发生了什么事。 **** Wu Jia Hui 伍家辉 - 空缺 Album: 虽然我愿意 当你关上了门离开 这个房间 关上了仅有的光线 只剩想念 我还感受到温柔的幻觉 月亮的背面 写满了我们的细节 * 我的回忆种满你曾对我说过的预言 开成了一座遗憾的花园 也许一天在挤满行人的那一条街 你才会发现我留下的空缺 (没有人能完全填补的空缺) 就当作我们不熟练 不够周全 就当作我们追不上 彼此改变 我以为能完美写下句点 时间在后面 遥控了所有的情节 Repeat * 幸福需要的磨练 我们都误解成搁浅 活在想象的明天 忘了今天未完结 Repeat *,* Wednesday, July 02, 2008 @ 5:58 PM
super no link post This is gonna be a super no link post.. first.. i feel lik i'm on some diet programme or something. everyday bring bread to school for breakfast. then lunch alw quickly zao4 home at about 3 so that can hav it at home. or otherwise if i hav to stay, i'd only grab a burger or something, which obviously cant' satisfy my hunger. XD just when i decided to hav a proper meal yest, almost everyhting was sold out. and when i so badly want my bbq fish with mash potato and garlic bread, it ran out of stock too. and hence, i ended up eating garlic bread. zzz.. wellx.. lessons usually ends at around 2+. and usually during the "lunch period" i get only 30min break, which is insufficient for me to eat. (judging from my incredible speed. lol) and a bit sian to hav lunch also. honestly, i dun lik the feeling of walking alone to the canteen, buying food alone, sitting down alone at some corner and eating alone. but i'm quite touched by the concern some people gives. they'd say things lik this wil not do, u hav to hav proper lunch etc. and when i failed to get the dish i wanted today, the canteen vendor was quite reluctant to sell me only garlic bread, knowing that that wil be my lunch. rather, she even told me to go to other stalls to get some rice. (which i din cuz only 25min to eat b4 next lesson =( ) really appreciate such small little words/acts. =) **** i shall not take afternoon naps anymore. took one yest. and i can't sleep at nite. ended up super tired this morning. and as i type this, i can feel that mental strain. but.. hang in there, dun fall asleep.. until night time falls.. **** toking about Bai Yue in Xian Jian Qi Xia Zhuan.. it dawned upon me that.. he has white long hairs too rite?? O.o can't exactly remember.. can't find a single photo of him online anyway, so can't verify. lolx. that's random enough.. **** AH!! found the link to video playlist of many many TVB MVs =)) enjoying myself now. **** 最熟悉的陌生人。。。 it seems that human relationships are really quite fragile.. one moment, u might be able to share your joys and sorrows with the other person; and the next moment, you find that you all hav drifted so far apart that the distance is simply so unmeasurable.. they might be just next to you, but those were just those days, never to return.. suddenly the person whom u tot u knew for eon is just a mere stranger, a mere passerby in your life.. wells.. there's so many things that's running thru my head now, so many things that i wanna comment on.. but i guess i wouldn't.. lest it becomes a self-fulfiling prophecy.. just let all things flow the way it should be.. if it should be, it will be, no point forcing things to happen.. i just hope that 10 yrs down the road, my circle of ppl whom i know will stil remain as those who will konw me.. one example i see is from "when law runs loose".. yixin and zhida bumps into each other.. the husband and wife back then have been reduced to mere hi-and-bye acquaintances. those two persons who could share anything became two separate entities who did not know how to react to each other's presence. (although i dun think this situation wil last long tho. ) |
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Hee.. took photo after eating a bit. and i realise i forgot to take photo of the sushi set after i finished the sushi =.=
Before treatment
my organised desk ^^ all the mess are kept nicely in the drawers. =.=
as a final random shot. the plants seen from my seat.. 
